math is like a boss

HELLO!HELLO! Today shall be the last day I'm gonna touch my computer till probably 3 weeks later but then I'll still update but not using my computer. Which means my blog will not have any pictures or colours till 3 weeks later.
So my first CA paper is on friday -- ENGLISH. HELL LOT OF SHIT! I'm scared for english. If I fail, I'm gone for the rest of my life and I have no idea how I can get a pass for that paper. -___- HOWW! Plus, I think I did badly for my essays even though I think I did well. Apparently, it always happen this way. So if you've been reading my blog posts regularly, 1 term ago, I talked about english. The previous term I talked about english. Urgh and I have no idea how to improve despite reading, keeping a vocab book. And I have no idea why isn't my english improving when people who don't read or don't do anything can still score. :[
Hmmm.. continuing, was doing em 25 just now and I realised I can't do bearings for goodness sake. I can't get the answer and I wasted like 1hour on 2 question in which I can never get the answer. So.. my desperate movement is to go sort for help. Bet that is what Mrs Seah wanted me to do so yeah... I'm gonna ask her questions if.. I CAN CATCH HER.
Probably, I'm gonna die a horrible death for CA3 even though I've already memorised quite a lot. And Mrs Tan haven't teach chapter 7 of history and its tested. oh god. Save me please. :( And I can't make my notes because I'm gonna mia on my computer for the next few weeks.
Yepp, so I'm going to go and memorise geog at 8.15pm which is when I won't touch my computer [as in use] till 3 weeks later.
Then AUNTY BETTY, WO LAI LE! ;)

how many sea shells did she sell by the sea shore?

HELLOMELLOBELLO! Its finally friday. Gotta get down on friday. :P So tired. Everyday, I can't get out of bed and every night, I jump onto my bed and sleep like some dead log pig.
And now, down to 1 week to start of CAs. So scary. And after CAs will be SPA. :( Imagine I spill that stinky cancerous acidified potassium dichromate (VI) solution and thinking that what... Iodine was just chocolate stains. Spilled iodine on my hand. -.- I washed my hands after that okay! then I went to eat chocolate. And I still thought it was chocolate stains until vivian tell me its iodine! How stupid right!
Can't wait for CAs to be over. I don't even think I have the mood to do. Was doing chemistry yesterday and apparently was about to zzz after that. And I like chemistry because I understand and physics is like -___- I understand pressure, moments and energy. I don't know a shit about newton's law and forces. I wanna study thermal physics instead of hmpfh: general physics. -- a lot of pressure from the air is acting against me you know. 24tons! Is it? Idk whats the unit. HAHAHA and basically, I love pressure. Its funny.
Yepp, and mastered next to you on guitar. Sounds uhm, fine... Must be wondering how I got the time right? AFTER I GOT MY CAPO BACK FROM ENTIAN. So cute to see entian play guitar. And sarah tan play ukulele. I wanna learn ukulele. and pearly shells! Imagine when I'm old, I'll be like this old man below in the video... playing pearly shells.

Don't you think its so cute! I swear I learn that okay. I've alr got the chords, need to add in fingerstyle thats all. Hehe. And Jamaican farewell. So funny. Then everyone will say I'm outdated because I play old songs that are cute.
My desk partner. Ultra cute! Spending everyday with ZHIJIE everyday like a blur sotong hehe and when both of us are blur all we have to do is turn around and look for alibaba for help. :P and and strawberries + cherries + blueberries. Woots!

All day long.

I wanna sit back and play my guitar all day long. Sup, everyone. I'm not productive for being here today twice. Actually, not really. Just trying to take time to you know.. blog. Was so tired today that I think I slept during PT, while doing jumping jacks. I don't know how I ended up counting 21 when everyone was at 11. All I did was to close my eyes while jumping and I opened my eyes when I realised that no one else was counting. I really had no idea how did I reach 21. So sorry to everyone in the squad. Really sorry a million for making you all redo when you all so tired. :(
Feel like planking now. :P Everyday I try to like find everlasting energy to keep myself awake -piak piak- Like drinking 500ml of water during every 2 period, touch Zhi Jie's hair (sound like a pervert but I'm not okay) walking around... Like throw rubbish [haven't been doing that]. Or something. I seriously wonder how can I not sleep for like about 5-6 days straight.. during back to back camps.. -.- Or at most about 1-2hours. And I can still go high, wild and mad. I NEED THAT ENERGY FOR THE NEXT 400 days till Olevels are over. Still, can't wait for the holidays yo. Need sleep and whee~ half the week is gone. Sunday quickly come soon. Or Friday because I can't wait to share my ChiangRai video with everyone. ;) And watch this okay, Still havent get rid of my obsessiveness over the lyrics of this song. Whenever I'm down, I look back at this and I'm fine all over again. Trust me, its 100x better than Bruno.

And I'll learn to play this on guitar some day after CAs. I will. But you know after CAs will be 'o'level SPA. Annoying crap. But wtv. Still gonna learn it and master it.
Making ss notes. A lot more to go!

What a mess.

Haven't been updating these 2days. Its 2nd day of the week, 3 days to Friday! :D Let mw clarify this: IM NOT A MUGGER, I DONT MUG, I STUDY. So I've been studying geography... More like memorising these days and my memory is like literally failing me! I remember took me a short time to memorise rivers the other time. History was 1chapteer, this time is 2 overly content heavy ones and ss.. Have 2 chapter too! Im like omg. Okay but im done with geog notes. 1 Chapter of ss and 1chapter of history....quite slow but im gonna finish the next chapter for ss like by Thursday. I forgot to bring home my ss textbook, how dumb can I get... Ohyeah and finally got Amanda to create Facebook! Whoo! Think im retarded and wtv, I shall tame myself and stop spamming people there. Wait.. FACEBOOK BAN ME FOR 1 WEEK. Hoping for tmr to be over soon. Mrs lim is back, Im sadly, raging in my heart. "ni men de Hong Huang ka zai na li"... First thing you know. Quite retarded. I remember on Sunday we were supposed to pray for anonymous like we write on paper and then put in basket and everyone random pick... So yupp, gerifish family wrote gerifish family and some other stuff...

So 11:20- GERIFISSH (Geraldine, Magdalene, Gerard, Stephanie, Jonathan, Bryan, Joey, Ben, Clare, Aries) FAMILY TO STAY AS BONDED AS EVER! and to be free from worries, sadness and quarrels. 11:21-GREYGUIDES TO STAY BONDED AND ENTHU AND LOVE GUIDES LIKE MAD PEOPLE. and to do well for coming CAs. 11:22 For the anonymous im supposed to pray for, stop worrying. 11:22- 3unity to stop making teachers worry :] 11:23- World peace and happiness, everyone stay healthyyy. :D

This is my moment

Im sucha good girl. So today I paid back my time to be wasted to helping aunty betty at the guides house! :D Did loads of stuff and all the blingbling stuff Amanda and I packed in were like whoa blingbling! Especially the silver, gold and bronze badge. Damn, I wish I can get mine asap if only I can find my stinky thrift items which I have no idea where I dumped it. That's what im left and bronze is in my hands. Silver soon will but then b'tch, I haven't been doing my logbooks lately because I can't catch up with school work that fast! :[ So, can most probably forget about PGA. Something is like wrong with my brains, they function slowly.. Well, hmm.. back to the guides house. Aunty betty kept giving me food hehe, Im gonna gain weight. And she so cute.

One day, when im old and i retire from work, i aspire to be like aunty betty sitting in the shop counting stocks, money, helping guides and brownies with their uniform. Good girls like Amanda and i finished doing up a lot of stuff for her heh. But counting makes my eyes go hua. If you're wondering why im up so late at night that was because i was doing homework! So good right. Im tired :[ history is half done and mole concept sucked my mind power up. So much. Church In 9hours time, gotta wake up in 7hours time to do some work and probably reach home at around 4-5 and complete my history GA, emath 21, geog workbook and memorise coastal studies finish. Gotta sleep alr. Good night!

welcome to the feast of heaven and earth, welcome to the table of plenty

Its finally Friday of week 4. I promise I'll shut down my computer after I finish this post up. [: So today was a super scary day. Actually not. Heh, I officially passed my NAPFA with the school letting me off for getting a bronze. And lessons were kind of as usual. So tired. I realised I'm starting to sleep in class these days. I have no idea why. Okay so yeah, guides was as usual, lectured the sec ones how to tie knots. I really can't scold well you know. But forget it. Had a great time with Wenxin, Sam and Shihui today. :]
After that, headed off to chompchomp for the awesome feast day. So met Ben at nex and then took bus 317 to chompchomp. The bus was so crowded. -___- Gosh. Okay never mind. Reached and found geri, joey, mag, steph, jon, gerard and aries. They started feasting alr. :( Ate stingray [yeah, I'm having rashes now], hokkien mee, satay and all. Wow, was super bloated and I took Jon's Councillor badge and name tag while Steph took his tie and he took our name tags. And best we went home with it. Went home with Mag and steph while the others were like playing at the patch grass outside chompchomp or something. Don't know whats their problem. Chubby bunnies with oreo. LOL. Epic thing. Didn't get to play though. ): Reached home at like 9.30pm?
Well, should say, super good way to end my boring and tiring week. Hmm... I should say physically draining and slightly more productive week. Like hmm.. Monday to grandma's house, Tuesday to watch harry potter, Wednesday was enrollment, Thursday was my NAPFA 2.4km, Friday is the GERIFISH family feast day, Saturday will be Amanda's and my date with Aunty Betty and Sunday will be heh, CC3 again. :)
I shall continue to memorise geography and finish weather's notes by this weekend.
Homework to do: Geog coastal studies workbook, Emath homework 21, Chemistry mole concept page 1, English letter writing, Physics worksheet 22 and 23. Need to memorise stuff too.
Shall try to sleep late tonight.
Bye!

Is this real or have this been playing inside my brain?

Just gonna make a quick middle length post before I go off to pack my damn junk table before my dad come to scold me. -.- Keep already then still have to take it out what. Whats the point. seriously...
Anyway so yeah, the sec ones are finally enrolled yesterday. Finally after dragging for 1 month plus or something. I'm so happy. And I finished 5 emath homework. Can you believe it. I'm the cool girl who finished all today. Nah, I owe like since school term started and since its emath its pretty easy and not that hard.
Term 3 is some hectic shit. I mean like OMG. Maybe because of some extra involvement but its worth okay. And and I mean like I'm enjoying life now. Guess that week 4 is soon over. And I'm just so dead for CA3. But I'm 100% fine for math this time round. Hmm I'm fine for chem too. But I'm not fine for physics. Hmm, humanities are fine? Just needa start cramming but yepp, on the way. Memorising still. But I'm very scared I can't make it. :( If its bad, I'm gonna cry my lungs out kay.
I passed my 2.4km jog today. Urgh with the slack walk at the end which I don't really give a shit about because I knew I'd pass. So I cleared this thing up and PE was the most awesome thing in the world because its soft ball and I love to play softball, baseball and basketball. I hate netball I tell you. Its scary.  -____-
Alright, must memorise finish Coast by Sunday and memorise finish SS by Tuesday :D Time to go do my geog notes on Weather. One of the most irritating topics yet fun topic ever. :D
Yeah, then after that, pack my file up, go read chem textbook or something.
Hehe. Finally Friday TOMORROW! :D

RIGHT NEXT TO YOU

A super good day. Its been long since I actually describe the events of my day if im not wrong. Starting my day at 8am when I get up and get ready to head to church. So was supposed to meet mag and Steph at 9am... But that stinky Steph and gerad took so long. Mag and I waited at coffee shop for like 40min. And we even ate morning breakfast... You know.. Traditional set: 2bread, 2eggs, 1milo. Then Ben, jon, Bryan, gerad and Steph came. Headed for mass :D such a holy girl. I attend mass twice. One with dad yesterday (Michelle Chua saw me in a skirt..) and once today with my friends. I love father Emmanuel's homily. Short, sweet and hilarious. Ok yeah after that Geri and Joey were late for mass but never mind. After mass, Steph stole my wallet. WTH! And its being passed around. They told me they hid it in the guys toilet... ER. But found out it was under jon's bag and then before class start he threw my pouch over to Bryan and he held it for the rest of the class. WTH. Then we ended early, had to wait for the rest to be out and then while waiting Bryan and I were playing hide and seek. My pouch -.- think we ran many rounds around the level. At this point you e supposed to imagine this like bollywood but no.
Its so retarded. Gave up and bryan went into hiding. -.- Geri and i even went to the guys toilet to find him. After that ate lunch which was another funny thing when Steph tried to take my outer 'coat' off. And I was wearing a tank top. -.- Met fen after that and yepp went home.
By the way I wore 4 layers today. So bloody hot. Can't wait for Friday. Chompchomp with cc3 peeps! :D

A vapour in the wind.

Lonely soul here at home. ._. Insisting that I'm not gonna do my homework. CA3 is in 3 weeks. Nono. 2 weeks. Its insane. Term 3... Is like gonna be gone fast. Currently so drained. My mind is so screwed up and tired that I don't wanna do anything.
Can you imagine, everyday, I wake up, eyes can barely open.. Then when I sleep, I just lie on my bed, talk to myself to sleep. Trashed out everything I wanted to say. Just couldn't bring myself up to tell how I feel about stuff. And my own dislikes. Uh, simply because there is no way my opinions and all will be respected or ever be used. I'm serious. So its like opinion dominance. I'll just sit there, go with the flow. And I hate going with the flow okay. I prefer to stand out and be the odd one out. I don't know why.
Not because of who I am, but because of what you've done. Not because of what I've done but because of who you are.  Thats the best song ever. The best. I feel like crying whenever I listen to this song. I don't know why. Its so good.
Enough of procrastinating. No one shall ask me "so how's ndp". I'm like uh "woman, I don't know a shit about it. so don't ask me. no one bothered to share with me about it. I'm a left out kid. Wtv, I'll still know it on national day. so bye"
That will be my response. Feeling distant now.

Love you like a love song baby

This is random kay. Just getting myself all geared up to enter Hogwarts next Tuesday with Melina Chew! AHAHAHAHA. I hope she can make it. 

Wtv, so I think I was really a good girl today. So good you know... I finished AM 21. In like quite a short period of time with no difficulties. I love coordinate geometry and matrices. Its so fun till its boring. Fun because I can do it. Boring because its always the same steps. 

Wtv. CA3 in 3 weeks. I mean so fast! Term 3 gonna be boomz and over. Like the speed of lightning. And I'll be dead because I don't think I'll score for CA3. 

Recently getting really so annoyed whenever I see physics. Seriously, I kept telling myself "PHYSICS IS THE FUNNEST THING ON EARTH. YOU KNOW COOL STUFF." In the end, I just get all bored and no entertainment. And Math... Graphs applied in kinematics. Seriously? 

You not kidding me right? Physics... is the application of math. yeahyeah. Must learn to like physics. And love it with my heart and soul. 

Gotta log out soon and do chem homework before Ms Yee come after me. :(

MORNING JOG TMR. On the bright side > treat it as losing weight and not Napfa training.

And 3 periods of math tomorrow. Urgh. 

a land of magic

Harry potter.
Probably gonna step out of the cinema crying like some mad woman because the wonderful series ended. ):
Still remember right, the first time when I watched. Goblet of fire? I was so scared. LOL. But then now, I'm like crap, I wanna watch.
I want the magical world you know.. With all the wizard wands and all.
Okay, imagine, I have a wand. I'll just most probably lend myself into trouble in Hogwarts.
Then the professor will be like "I'll expel Nicole Ang from Hogwarts for misusing her wand which landed people into trouble." Yeah yeah whatever. Its just random imagination. Imagine I can disappear and appear and disappear again. Or I use my wand to make myself smarter? Hehehe.
So imagine I have to write a résumé to enter Hogwarts... 
"I, Nicole Ang, the wizard of all retardness, will wish to enter hogwarts because I admire harry potter so much because he is really hairy. Oops, I mean, he is the wizard I admire. I hope that you can accept me because I'll make full use of magic and not any how point at other people and cast stupid spells. I promise I won't. I'll be a good girl, and learn magic properly and use it at appropriate times. I display a lot of interest in flying on broomsticks. I won't bang into anything else one. For sure! Will you accept my résumé please. " 
OMG, sure won't accept one. HAHAHA. First thing = kenna kicked out. Wonderful. Well.. All these are from my really failed imagination..

Be the boss

Ohmymama. Guess what? Im such a slacker. :( I didn't do any homework or do anything. Just like a boss. And at this rate, I wont be able to do well for my CA3 so I'll die a horrible death.
ITS ALL FACEBOOK'S FAULT.

Im trying to push the blame on Facebook. So there are steps on how i get stuck there.
Step 1: you recieve loads of email notification from spams. Obviously I have the choice to delete it but then you'll have to go all the way and type m.facebook.com on your phone to view notifications. Annoying right.
Step 2: you want to reply comments or like the post, so... You go and enter m.facebook.com.
Step 3: once you step in there, you can't stand the small miniature Facebook on your phone. So you switched on your computer
Step 4: you start official facebooking and replying all comments.
Step5: you just start getting too many you can't stop facebooking.
I think i really lack self-control. Unlike a boss. So.... Steps to stop facebooking..

Step 1: disable notifications.
Step 2: don't use the phone and computer like a boss.
Step 3: go and do homework. Im really crapping a lot before i sleep. -.- Imma start memorizing geog and ss alr since the notes are done. And STOP FACEBOOKING. be the boss.

Super bass

Just finished redox about 1hour ago and I was procrastinating for 1hour because I dont wanna out bed sheet. I was telling myself omg can I sleep on the floor, im damn lazy to get my butt up to dress the naked bed up so it will look attractive to me and then there goes my eyes. From OO to 00 to oo to •• then --.

I finally got my hair cut which I procrastinate like some whinny idiot. I cut bangs and 2 inches. Image my hair so short. I want my fringe to grow out and hair to grow long again. Next round of cut will be December when I go Rebond my hair again. My hair gonna curl anytime soon la. :( Wasted my day today. Procrastinate not to go hairdresser by saying I have to do homework. Procrastinate not to do my bedsheet. Side track and shop half way while doing redox. Tumblred, Facebook, twitter in the morning. Im screwed 4 weeks left you know. Aim tmr: do am 21, 22. Em 19. And Chinese. Gotta sleep. Good night!

We are the reason he gave us his life

Its finally Friday yo. :]

Week 2 just disappeared away sadly. So sadly I feel like slapping myself. Suffered in silence during math today. Is math the mother of physics or is physics the mother of math? Graphs applied to kinematics. Wow. I was very pekcek alr then 2 love birds were talking behind me. I don't mean to insult you alibaba. Think I get how you felt when I talk a lot too. But I swear I dont talk rubbish during lessons except for like history, and pe? You know I realise I think a lot. Especially ever since this term started. Like uhm, I think so deep that it will kill me if I dont type this down I'll just go zombie and can't sleep. I think the personality test is WRONG. Im also a c person. Uh I calculate and I remember people for life that dont pay me. And Im like idk. I just think and I analyse people and Implications to different response too. But i suck at inference for compre though. And everytime i always get my implication right. I think im not much of I either. I dont mind being alone because sometimes i just like going to school alone and not talk to fen. Or just dont wanna talk much and don't give a shit whether im accepted in a group anot. I take things to a personal step. I dont like to shop in groups. Ill tend to wonder off. I dont like to be with people im not comfortable with even though I'll talk to break awkwardness. Ok wtv. So uh today guides was rather fun. And then followed by study session with cc3 friends. Geri didn't come today :( but todays one was better. Maybe because of location that's why. Muggers on list.

And I think mummy doesn't really know what im interested in. The reason why I hate physics so much is that I can't relate to myself. And its some crap shit. Do I look like I'll measure my center of gravity before I do standing broad jump and predict my hands anticlockwise moment or clockwise moment before I jump? Do I look like I'll calculate the distance of the mirror Image before i look at myself in the mirror? No right! Should have just kill myself by taking bio.. Bio i get to eat and then say where my food in my stomach and what's happening in my body, which enzyme and all. I still do that when im eating alone at home kay. I don't wanna do medical field. I wanna do social field. Urgh. Why am i thinking about this now? Ohoh and i Prefer amath than emath now. Amath just get concept, follow rule, know what steps to do and Tada. :) Idk why. WEEK TWO was uhm short? Maybe because 4 days only. Didcha know zhijie is so cute? And i have noisy people behind me. And I have people to play with. OMG and 4 weeks to CA3. FML. imma finish chem notes by week 3. And history notes too. Wonder what's tested.. A lot to do :( I want eoy now... Okay gotta sleep. Cutting 2inches and bangs tmr. :( Good night!

The past, present and future

Gah. Its damn late alr. I was like really a good girl doing homework. Ok so today, carny, beat and I Sat at Macs and talked about what we want to do in the future. So kind of surprising that actually our ideas change. Especially me who took on different interest during the year. From wanting to be a dentist to help people straighten their teeth to make them prettier since sec one, then wanting to be a producer which is really uh short sighted and now a child psychologist. I mean like omg I keep changing. Its not my fault kay. Im intending to do away with the science stream in JC since I realise my love for science is dying. Like withering rose. I bet its because of physics. Did I mention how boring and dry it is, plus all the Spa. Like why did I take physics in the first place? -Jobs. What kind of rubbish short sightedness I took. Im only currently interested in chemistry but then what's the point. Well, not saying im giving up on physics, I'll still do my very best BUT, I'll still not take it and anything got to do with it in the future. I know go arts stream, sure will kenna shot down one but I like humanities. Hmm. Reason being why I wanted to be child psychologist is that you know, facilitate camp, then Chiang rai and all. Its like helping them and talking to them, talking them out of their current thinking of such negative stuff and seeing them being more positive after 3 days of camp and all. Its really nice. The joy you'll never find. Its something i experience x2 . Which is like maybe an opportunity god has given me. Well, who knows things might change again..

Ohya, should i cut 2inches. I was so disappointed i dropped 20+ strands of hair today. Is it because i tie my hair to tight? 5 Rounds (usually i go 4 rounds) or is it im stress or what. I never dropped so much a day till today. I think im balding. So.. Uhm i cut, gotta say byebye to my straight hair and hi to frizzy hair. Cross fingers it doesn't. :( Ill cry ok. Mummy promise me that she'll bring me to hair treatment. But wtv. I don't wanna be bald by the time olevels come..

Why rush?

Hello, shall make a quick blog post before I go and bathe. Yepp, its been a really long time since I used the computer and I'm using the computer now. Finally...
Behind time for making notes because I haven't touched my computer since Friday night all the way till today at around 4pm when I switched my computer on and I can't take my eyes off it. I'm attracted to my computer so badly currently. Okay, that was just random rubbish.
I really can't wait for term 4 to be over. I hate this shit you know. I'm like OMG OMG CA3 is in OMG 6 weeks. And OMG OMG I don't understand some stuff and OMG OMG no time. -hyperventilates-
I'm starting to miss asg badly. Back to topic. So I'll just have to leave this blog dead or probably update using my phone when like I'm on the bus or something.
My goal for this week is to complete all the stinky math homework I owe, to complete physics that I owe and to finish geography and social studies notes by FRIDAY. I repeat.
So... I think I should go now. By the way, I took the stairs up to my house with my heavy tortoise shell and I almost died climbing 15 levels since I felt really lazy. Besides, I'm still gonna fail my NAPFA since the passing is a silver. -___- No point. Gonna be off to bathe before I can sit down fresh and do my work.
And my bed time shall be pushed back to 11.30pm latest. Urgh. Just don't wanna dose of in class. Can't wait for Friday! (:

Like omg.

Ok currently at the carpark waiting for my teams turn for victory ceremony and guess what... My team have to stay out of the room and uhm wait because it always fall at intervals. Quite annoying right. So today is the last day on this duty that is the must scariest thing ever. With loads of cameras. I think im gonna miss this. Just took a picture with the life size mascot. Super cute and fluffy. Hmm day has been long. But certainly quite fun. I must say sitting here typing this is quite fun too because it serves as an entertainment while waiting... And preventing me for dozing off, going into Lala land : the dream of lalalness. Ok i have no idea what am i talking about. The previous posts i have have no pictures :( to show how i feel like uh picture says a thousand words. And i haven't like used the computer since Friday night so all my post are plain boring. Bet NO ONE WILL READ THIS BORING BLOG ANY MORE. Anyway, feeling shitting now urgh. Haven't shitted and i feel really gross. But wtv. Oh the food here is damn good. Trust me man. Good lunch and teabreak. Yaya papaya. When i go home, I'll have to do my physics homework and then try to complete some math. Before sleeping so basically I'll have to sleep at around 12am which is past my bed time. Not to forget... My bed time is like 1030. And this term is like shit. Up to last term I sleep between 1030-1100. But then now... Ok wtv. Olevels will be worse. Maybe because im a pig or some 5 year old kid that sleep all day. But im proud to have auto body alarm. Hehe. Kaykay. I think can go in alr. Bye! When I use my computer, ILL ADD PICTURES TO ALL MY POST.

the moment

So Im on the train on the way to bishan and i feel like shitting because i ate too much for the day. Simply asg made me eat a lot. I feel like a pig now.

Anyway, moving on to the events of my awesome day... Woke up at like 7am and changed into my guides uniform and headed to church and jon and Ben were there waiting. Basically in simple words, everyone was late. =( Then Geri came and bought a bowl if porridge and we Sat outside to eat and we were like toots. So by then Joey and mag came. We were like 6minutes late because of the porridge and ate. Then we all went up for Chinese mass and Bryan cane to join us he had a complete shock of his life. Actually everyone else had a complete shock because its Chinese and no one Actually fully understand. Then headed off to coffee shop had breakfast before going to meet Tony for reflections and all then attended class till 12.

Asg was really kinda scary. Like I mean woah. Back to back, sweating like a mad pig and no usage of phones. For a person like me... A bit hard ah. But wtv pulled through it. There is like some language barrier. Sometimes I wished I can speak their language and all. So tried to use hand gestures which I have no idea how to do it but guess what. Cool me managed it.
Went home with greyguides the babes. ;)
Dinner with carny and talked a lot and all.

happy birthday xenia, yeeyean, wensie and ryan

Hello. It was a fun day or rather really busy day today. If you're wondering, im blogging through my phone before I sleep. quite stupid right. So... Uh went for school sports day and managed to catch the cheer routines which were like damn good especially yellow house. Sexy... -wink wink- im not a perv kay. It was just so good especially the techno part. Then met all the guides to head for chuachukang stadium. So the thing started at 4 plus and my heart almost dropped out from my mouth because omg so scary! Like what if I burst out laughing or something or like start giggling like a boss. Ill be like a failue and not a boss. -.- I wished I can speak all languages so the people will understand me :(

after that went to ryans house for his birthday party and Denise, mag, Aries, jon, Bryan, Joey, Joshua, Julian and Ben were like zihighing and Ryan was drenched all over like dunking each other into a pool and the famouse taupok. Then played some epic stuff and talked bullshit before going home. Yay. Ok its damn late. Ryans condo made me feel so poor. But wtv. His condo is like dude. Pretty. Good night! Long day again

33 minute rant

Okay hello ;) I got scolded yesterday 1/7/11 for returning home at 1045 just because the train was slow and then followed by arsehole bus who didn't come and took a long time. So I've got a 10pm curfew. But I swear I've been home later than that before and that's because it was after youth mass and we went for supper and all. And this time round I was mugging with my church friends and literally doing homework and like getting help from each other. Like I mean ya la, my fault for so late but then I was studying and who knows studying with cc3 friends could be really effective I can literally do all my amath question. So my mummy told me about security reasons on why I've to be home early and not so late and I get what she means but this means that no more BBQs or fun after youth mass / cip. Like uh, cip at morning star or like supper after youth mass or like bbq which is like urghhhhh. :( gosh hope that mum and dad can make an exception on these ocassions. But I swear I'll be back by 10 when I go study with my cc3 friends.
Oh and another thing. My mum is like uh trying to get me help my bro find cip. Guess what? I have my own slp project to do and I've to call organisations one by one and now my brother dont have to do that. Reason being: I've to help him. Which is like uh.. When you getting independent? :|
And and i dont wanna cut my hair. I really don't want. Like I'll miss tying braids or playing with my hair which is so annoying. Then if i cut, my hair will freeze too. Urghhh then I'll most probably have a problem with braiding and all and touching my hair and play when im bored.
Ok so yeah. Week one just passed. I feel so dead like I wanna sleep like now but I decided to type this all put in my phone before I can sleep because like jon who can't sleep because he was thinking about stuff. And well as for me im scared for term 3. I'm like the only idiot who is rushing her notes and doing all she can which includes night study sessions with my cc3 friends and asking questions here and there. Soon I'll just forgo recess and lunch to study. OMG. So stress la. Amath and emath ca3 adds up to like 7 topics and im a weakling at math and physics. Wait. Im not a nerd ok. I just dont wanna disappoint my parents with that fat and disgusting f9 in my disgusting ppr.. And besides like what ms Yee said 'sec three is a foundation year'. I dont wanna be screwed. Everything seems hard and scary. Lessons seem so dry. And some zombie drinking 500ml of water every lesson and go the toilet between every lesson break and get scolded.
Its not my fault for sleeping late either. Rushing notes, mind screwing homework and anxiety within me..cca, school, family, friends. Soon in 6 weeks, it will be CA3 and in 12-13 weeks it will be eoys. Then my birthday will be forgotten, and I'll mug on my birthday and even forget its my day. Bet eoys will be damn bloody gross like sec two worse than that I guess. I know im thinking far come to think of it, time passes really fast. And I think im neglecting god again. Only my cc3 friends remind me of god. In school no one gives a shit. And I feel peaceful whenever im with them maybe because gods presence? I feel so peaceful when i study with them. Not saying school is like jdjsnsjslso but i dont feel the stress and less tense. Ok wtv I've to sleep past my bed time alr. Gotta do homework till late at night and once again get nagged.
And yes why am I typing this. Its 2nd July 12.33am.
This post starts at 12am and its a 33mi n rant..
Now, I think I can sleep properly with lesser anxiety within me. God, help me. :(