Are you happy now

Why do people call us the mugger half? Though I'm glad that I managed to find a group of friends that keep me on track with my work and of course at times, making fun of each other, but I really wish that we're not called the mugger half.

I know that we're all afraid of retaining but this is really stressful when people are at 'blabla' tutorial and here I am still struggling with the topics taught. Or in fact studying because everyone else is studying. Not that I do not want to be in the mugger half but I really don't wanna be called mugger half.

I wonder... How will we be by the end of this year? Why must our class have cliques? I know its inevitable 😒 but why must it be SO DISTINCT. No doubt, SA is a really nice school with great culture but I can't take the pace my classmates are doing. As much as I want to prove people that not going to a top JC doesn't mean that you can't do well.. Because WE GET JUDGED. Every where we go, we get judged.

Im still trying to adjust. Ps I've to be mindful of every action because being touchy in an all girls school is ok but not in a mixed school. REPEAT X100 in my head.

By the way, I realized that many people lack patience when explaining.. I need to adjust to this too... 😌 back to drawing ellipses and hyperbolas.

10.15pm~10.25pm.

12.13am

Honestly, I feel like shit now but I can't spam twitter with all my sad tweets with broken English and short forms because everyone is going to hate me. I can't finish math tutorial 2 on time 😭 and I can't do a like 1/2 the questions. I've till question 5 and I completed till question 2. I don't get asymptotes. 😓😓 I feel pathetic now. I thought that it would be like chem and physics. And that I'd understand it. YES, I understand it but I can't do it. I dont know where to start. This is so frustrating. 😒 plus I keep making careless mistake. At this rate, I can bid dentistry goodbye 😓 okay, even if I don't get into dentistry I still have to do well enough to get Into a good course of my choice (even though my ambition is like gone). And all of a sudden, dentistry seem so far from me. 🚀 Besides, I am struggling with Chinese. Spent 2hours trying to comment on 6 items in which I did it with the help of google translate. THIS IS BAD. I swear. Why can't I be as smart as others. Im starting to struggle here and there. ☹ and everyone else is so smart. They're like way ahead without facing any problems while im like 😌😓. By the way, on the upside of my sad life, I got into saints advocates and Im really thankful that I'm given this opportunity as a servant leader to serve and lead others. 12.25am.

One of a kind

My dad said that he promise to buy me galaxy note and that I should not 'horn'??? him for it. Instead, I should wait for them to come back from Japan in March. Of course they're buying for me.. SOON. Its a pact. But its their money. Okay I think I over reacted in my blogspot because I was so upset that my parents kept shutting me all the time.


Frustrated because I can't solve some question and I feel like smashing my head with the graphic calculator because I just can't get used to it. I keep using the app on my phone even though I have the graph on the GC. Simply because I can use my fingers to zoom in and out. I feel like I'm so stupid. 21st century spoiled brat because I rely too much on the latest technologies. 😒 Something I should be worrying about. Wonder how will the graphic calculator be 10 years down the road. Back to math. I can prove that im not a useless 21st century kid who is too reliant on technology.

Why can't the blogger app on windows phone upload pictures? I feel like writing my own blogger app now. And creating a better tumblr app since the world is complaining about it. 😒 Unfortunately JC life is killing me. Its only the start.    

Oh my so ironic. I just said that I shouldn't complain.

24/7

5 minutes is enough.

I miss SN. I miss the people there. Even though the environment is scary there but I really miss the people there. Everyone is so patient. Even if we're about to explode because we cannot stand each other incessant questions or whatsoever, we still help each other.

I still remember Amanda Neo helping me through mole concept.
Ms Yee answering all my questions be it stupid questions (well a moment of folly) or questions which are in depth. I dont know if I can ever find people patient with me... Patient enough to answer my questions. I dont think anyone can take my curiosity when it comes to science because I think too much. But I need to think or I'll just die.
   

Don't you worry

See heaven's got a plan for you

Lectures have officially started. Well, it didn't go smoothly as what I hoped because the tutors are going at lightning speed. I'm not supposed to be writing my entry now because its a weekday. Then again, my dad fetched me home and I'm home early today....
So, I'm forgiving myself. But this shall not happen again.

I had math lecture and to be honest, if I'm going to have to sit on the 2nd level of the CC to listen to my lecture for the next 2 weeks, I might fail math because I can barely see anything on the screen despite the fact that with glasses, my eyesight is perfect. This is really unfair. They should rotate ):<
I don't mind sitting at the back for Chinese but apparently... My CG is not at the back.
The fact that I can't stand up and shout "Teacher! I cannot see!" and self-invite myself to the front of the classroom or the Lecture theatre/CC makes me more depressed. By the time I reach the 1st level and go in front I would have probably missed 2 pages or knowledge.
By the way, I have the worst chem lecturer on earth. Ms yee :((((( Tell me which lecturer go like
"I hear people talking. Moving on"
Excuse me? If I don't know how to do the examples, there is no way I can move on. Okay, but he is being reasonable on his part because he don't have enough time to wait since we're pre-uni students.
Which means that on my part, I realized that I've to do self-directed learning and make sure I'm a consistent person. NO MORE FANGIRLING.

Windows 8 is really really good! Even though I don't think its very compatible with my laptop because my laptop is for windows 7 and I can't update my software at times. However, I'm still waiting for my surface RT tablet so that I can bring it wherever I want. This is so annoying. And mummy says she will buy me that.

I've decided to go for physics & GP tuition. And apparently, some of my classmates attend Chem, Physics, Math and GP? Erm.... Okay. But I shouldn't be wasting money like this if I'm ok with the subject even though I think I'm just dead for every subject.. And I'm sure my mum is definitely angry and upset that the Graphic calculator cost $158 because I can only use it for 2 years and its just a calculator. (Apparently, she doesn't have faith that my brother will make it to college. WTH. And besides, I doubt we can use the same calculator because they change the model)

To end of...

I still hope that my CG will be more bonded.

Even though we're very different people, I still hope that we can bond more and help each other out.
We've got the muggers, the closet muggers and the hardcore muggers.
I probably fall under mugger now because I feel so pressured by them. I really feel so pressured by them even though its not as bad as St Nicks.
Plus all the teachers scaring me ):<
We've got the jokers too. HAHA. I still remember all the funny incidents together.

'If you're lost and alone or you're sinking like a stone, carry on'

Last week was insane. 4th January to 8th January were the best days of my life.
So the honey moon period is over and I'm expected to start studying soon since I received my lecture notes.
I'm keeping track of my money for now because my dad only transferred $250 to me ):<  It was supposed to be $350 (additional 50) but because I owe him 100 bucks, he transferred less money to me. And at this rate I'm going, I'm certain that I'm going to be broke soon.

• $1.15 for math lecture notes
• $10 for physics lecture notes?
• $7.10 for chemistry lecture notes.
• $161 for graphic calculator (I just cross my fingers and hope that my parents will give me money for this if not I don't have to eat for like 2 weeks already.)

Can't the school be environmentally friendly and post it on asknlearn or something and I can just read it off the laptop/tablet. I'm like some broke soul with no money. And my pay is definitely not to pay for all this shit. Especially the calculator... I told my parents about it and they told me its way above their budget. Thanks a lot. I'm going to ask for a raise in my allowance to pay for my calculator if they don't give me money for it. I'm being reasonable here.

I had a great time with OG24 and 13S06..
Even though OG24, we're still bonded and hopefully, we'll be bonded for life. I really miss those times when we go like "EH SACHPREET! HELICOPTER!" and the entire OG just look up and point at the helicopter. HAHA.
Played wet games on Monday and got really wet.. I was totally soaked with soap and all the funny stuff... Also saboed our OGLs as a whole by pouring water on them..
Went out of school on Tuesday to sentosa! And saw many helicopters there. OG24 build the best sandcastles, unleashing our inner architect talents. To be honest, I never thought building sandcastles would be this fun because it was the first time I ever built a sand castle.
Walked in the rain and got all drenched. Ate fish&Co with my OG and all of us were like fish&co or soup spoon... fish spoon.

That was an expensive meal. And I need to recalculate my expenses because I realize that my money always disappear without me knowing. How upsetting.
On Wednesday, we got into our CGs...
PCMG BABYYYYYYYYYYY.
I hope I made the right choice to take geography. Initially, I wanted econs but I really don't have any interest in that and I don't want to waste 2 years studying something that I don't like even though I know that many people chose econs because it is more practical. Well, NOT FOR ME. Haha. I hope I don't regret my decision in the future. Because if all else fails, I'll be a geography teacher HAHAHAHAHA.
Met my new classmates. Honestly, I was worried because I was afraid that I can't find any friends. Well, I found friends ^^ and still using my social butterfly skills to talk to them. Even though 13S06 already have cliques, but.... in the end, I really hope that we can still bond together as a class. Honestly, it is hard to barge into a clique. I honestly tried that in secondary school. It wasn't fun. I was talking to ZhiQi and he told me about how fun his class was and I was really hoping that my class would be like his (he made me jealous hmpfh!) but then again, 13S06 is really quite bonded already. Haha... During our first lunch together, we had sick stuff flying all over the place. Yes, we're all sick minded. Well, I made many friends there and I'm glad that I've found my circle of friends. I really wished that I could go clique hoping like secondary school but no. Played many games with 13S06 and learnt Axoria cheers. Amazing race on Thursday....

Class identity! HAHAA We're ninjas nin ninjas!

I really hope that 13S06 will be more bonded... I really want to say celine dion fanclub but dion will be angry. We'll be 13S06 forever. Let nature take its course~ Its just like 4Unity. We bonded in the end.


Its Chinese new year day one today.... And here are my CNY greetings....
新年快乐，恭喜发财，年年钓鱼，年年有鱼！
haha my brother and I came up with that! 年年有余 I know the correct one is that but haha who cares. Sound the same can already..
and another that my brother and I created on the car a few years back...
新年快乐，恭喜发财，红包拿来，没有红包，钱包拿来， 没有钱包，给你black eye!

Chinese new year is not so Chinese new year because my grandma passed away last year and everything is in a mess. Not only that, my greatgrandpa (from my mum's side) is in the hospital now. Well, he is 98 and he lead a long and good life. He can still go out buy 4D HAHA. I hope that he suffer less soon (not cursing...) because its painful to see him like this.
I'm going to rot for the next 2 days and start doing math because people already started doing and some finished it and I'm just doing whatever question I feel like.
I've been on whatsapp recently even though I muted all available groups HAHA! But I still read them and OG24 is really R21. Guys, I'm 7. HAHA.
I miss Beatrice so much. Our retardedness and lameness together. And Vivian too. No one to do retarded stuff with me anymore :(

Lessons really starting really soon. Its time to really start studying and working hard... Make sure I get promoted... Class goal: EVERYONE TO BE PROMOTED. My goal: BE PROMOTED.. SHINee and B.A.P are coming back. I'm still waiting for EXO.

Once a saint, always a saint~

Wake me up

School officially started and yesterday was a blast.
To be honest, I was really scared when I first stepped into SA because I'm one of the few that got into SA and all my St Nicks friends got into like the top few JCs or NYJC. I was afraid to face rejection from my peers... I can totally imagine no one doing retarded stuff with me :'( Sobs. Besides, I'd cry if no one wants to talk to me. However, after that awkward morning assembly... I started talking to sachpreet, a girl in front of me and we kinda became friends. Well, imagine walking to the culture centre in a line and everyone do not know each other? I cannot take it so I decided to open my big fat mouth to start talking. HAHA.
Anyway after the weird talks, we had some subject counselling which turned out to be 'making new friends session' because I made friends with many people along the way. Haha and turns out that all of us are trying to appeal out of the school (yes, I appealed to NYJC and to be honest, after yesterday, I was kinda hoping that I don't get transferred out because I have to start my entire social butterfly cycle from scratch and make new friends from scratch). So we all have one thing in common eh? Had some icebreakers and ended up making friends with almost all the girls there.
The reason why GIRLS is because I've no idea how to talk to boys. Being in an all girls school for 10 years just crashed me for this part of the entire 'Nicole is a social butterfly' thing. LOL. Well, our OG turned out to be really fun and funny and I brought my lame jokes along and laughed our ass off with my lame jokes. Guess the title joker won't leave me for now. I'm still the joker.
Anyway played games and everything and I saw Jonathan Fung. O: The world is so small. Haha. I truly enjoyed my day at SA yesterday. Even though the Christian environment is going to take me some time to adjust because I'm a catholic. The school spirit there is pretty good. Well, for now. Its too early to say anything but I have a feeling its going to be a good 2 years there. Besides, the food there is good ^^ And I've got macs 5 minutes away too! :P And MRT is so near. Oh my.

looking forward....
I'm really scared of JC lifestyle because it was said to be scary. Belle shared this blogpost with me this morning when I was talking to her: http://stopthe-pretence.blogspot.sg/2012/03/truth-behind-my-jc-life.html?showComment=1333914124405#c1274540900932446712 And it kind of scared me a little. Because what she said was true to a certain extent because I WAS FROM A TOP SCHOOL and JC is very different from secondary school... I'm really grateful that I'm not in a top school for now even though I think I'll have to face the fact that universities look at the college you're from and its all about branding again. Even my mum was telling me that JC is not easy especially project work. Speaking in front of an audience is definitely not my forte.
Haha I found friends that got B4 for English with me too... so basically I'm not alone. And I'm worried for GP. I looked at the subject thing and I saw comprehension and my heart dropped and shattered into many pieces. What if I cannot cope? Am I supposed to put my pride down and sort for a language tuition? Okay you know what, its not about pride. Its about how I used to judge people for having a lot of tuition and then they do so damn well ALL BECAUSE THEY HAVE TUITION and the fact that I'm so 'cool' because I don't really have a lot of tuition (2 in fact in my entire secondary life in which I'm late half the time) and still faired pretty well.
I'm being very frank with you because that was what I thought most of the time.
So I was thinking of taking GP and physics tuition.. Initially, I wanted to take math tuition but when I searched KIASU parents (LOL) most people say physics is harder and most people know that I've NO IDEA HOW I FREAKING SCORED AN A1 FOR PHYSICS...
Because physics is more of understanding as compared to math.
Anyway, I just taught my brother emath and amath.. I guess I haven't forget anything yet. LOL because I still can do them like a boss and even tell my brother the steps for every different kind of question.. Just don't ask me about physics.
Oh and there is oral for Chinese sobs. SAJC seems like a very English-ish environment. So I can't randomly use Chinese words/idioms in my sentence because I don't know the English word for it... or summarise everything into one Chinese idiom.
Anyway I'm caught in between PCME or PCMG. Another headache and I've to make my decision by Monday. I went to the extent of googling stuff like
why take geography for Alevels
why take economics for Alevels
And the answers are quite stupid. So I'm just gonna close my eyes and chose my combi because I'm fine with both econs and geography. I'm very sure about PCM. Now its the last one that's all. sian.
I'll give up fangirling if I have to if I can't cope in JC. I really will. And it seems like I've to give up reading too. Sigh... I need to strike a balance between fangirling and studying. I can't be a mugger for good. I'm not even one to start with.

I MISS ST NICKS :(