啊~怎么办好！

No, this will not be in Chinese. But I found that line quite relatable now. Instead of What's going on. (you can skip the first part of this because I'm fangirling)
In my previous entry which was like 16 days ago, I mentioned that I really want EXO to comeback and I've probably mentioned the same thing my previous posts since forever.
So the good news is... on this faithful day, 16 May 2013, SM decided to upload 2 pictures and say that they're coming back. Like seriously. I was too happy that I couldn't control myself because I've simply waited for too long.
And yesterday was the faithful day that exo has comeback and their stage was a little too small but it was amazing.
Though I didn't watch it live or whatever, I'm just happy that they finally comeback and I've been counting down. While people countdown to common test, I countdown to exo's comeback. By the way its really good okay. All their hair color *-* so luhan's was not grey, baek's was not blonde and everything else is the way I wanted EXCEPT KAI. But their comeback is too good okay.
 

what actually happened the last 16 days. Unfortunately, I wasn't camping in a hole and I wasn't swallowed by a giant centipede either.
I was preparing hard for their comeback. Who am I kidding. I was doing tutorials. duh. Even though there was the announcement of exo's comeback and all I was still stressed because everything was starting to pile on me again.
1) EOM
2) Chinese exam???
3) GP paper (today)
4) Mission to understand gravitation
5) completing chemistry tutorials because they finished one entire chapter within 1.5 hours.
6) completing math tutorials because application of differentiation can kill me at the moment. Every question took me years to complete. I'm very worried for my common test when June is over. And I think I deserve a standing ovation because I juggled...
7) YFC.
Dear Vivian, YFC is youth for causes and not youth fan-club even though I've been fangirling for the past 24 hours.
YFC certainly took up quite a bit of time because of the meetings with the VWO, visiting the elderly and I really want to write a post on my visit but it dragged on for 2 weeks that I can't really remember what went on anymore. Now that YFC has officially launched, more will be expected of me I guess. But its all going to be worth it. I'm doing something meaningful in my life apart from studying and not contributing anything to the society. I can't spend hours sitting beside daddy, on his tablet (Because I'm too lazy to use mine) and go like 我是wolf一头wolf, awooooo ah saranghaeyo 你是美女我是狼 for the next 30 days right. I need to practise self control...

Anyway, the term has officially ended and this term was a matter of surviving for me because I had too many things going on and I didn't really know what was going on most of the time and I was just going with the flow. However, I've found a pretty effective way of studying (actually, I knew about it but I haven't been doing it) but it is really effective and I can actually find time here and there to watch we got married and running man. LOL I actually do whatever the teacher teach during the lecture on the day itself.

I'm grateful that my CG mates has been through with me for the past term and I don't think I'll make it without them because honestly, it was tough. I yearn for freedom and I want to play. /relates to today's GP compre/
I feel that the class has become more bonded while I think my introverted self took over during this term and I've no idea why. I can't seem to express myself or sometimes, I barely feel like talking to anyone. Sometimes, I voice out what I want to do but to a no specific person.

I hope that term 3 will be better even though its clearly not. But who says that I can't make it better?
CTs has officially started and I'm gonna ace it. At least PASS it. (though I think GP and Chinese was screwed).

17 May 2013
Went back to St Nicks and met up with my secondary school friends. I met up with the almighty cutie Beatrice whom I've not seem for 4-5 months and I really miss her a lot. I haven't had any time to catch up with her because there were too many people to catch up with but we did gwiyomi player together!

and I saw Xuan, Joan, Alicia and the juniors. I was once like them. I miss being a junior right now...

Jazlyn, Alicia, me, Huijan.

Joan and I

And everyone else.
I actually missed everyone and I haven't got the chance to catch up with everyone yet. But nonetheless, I'm still grateful that I got to see them and even step into the grounds of SN. I miss the smell and the feeling of real grass. I miss the familiar surrounding that I've been in for 10 years of my life.



Its going to be a rather hectic and crazy June holiday ahead and I'm really going to try my best to juggle my time and not waste time and concentrate properly so that I can slack on Sunday Morning and on Sunday night! They're my official slack time so I'm going to motivate myself all the way and do well and do myself and my parents proud.
-In fact, it doesn't feel like the holidays... There is school next Monday and Tuesday.
My well deserved holidays week 1 gone. BUT its okay, Time Management.
 
My current fears:
1) Getting dengue

I read the newspapers today (yesterday's mind and body etc) on dengue and I'm seriously damn scared of dengue because dengue can take away a person's life. Not that I'm scared of dying but it was just a bite. :(
Well, I just hope that everyone will stay healthy and that Singapore will fight the mozzies together by co-operating with NEA and do the checks around the house and remove stagnant water. (Its not a matter of saving water anymore) Its better prevention than cure. Because never will we will never know that how many people will be affected with the mozzies reared in our house. Its scary huh.

By the way, getting sick = slows down studying = cannot relax = don't do well and yaddie yadda. Its pretty scary okay.

2) Failing CTs

I thought that was self explanatory.
I'm.....
W
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R
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I think I've rattled enough. Finally saying something from my pool of thoughts the past few weeks.

 

 

 

Fire

Its a Tuesday and I know that I shouldn't be updating or even be using the computer.
But I'm forgiving myself because I'm not feeling well and I'm feeling nostalgic and all.
The thought of going back to SN this Friday makes me feel so hyped up because I can't wait to see my beloved juniors and friends.

So for the past week, I've been reaching home past 9pm-10pm almost daily and I swear it was no joke because my tutorials kept piling. On the other side, I've barely nothing exciting this week except Friday.

I was reminiscing the moments when I was in St Nicks while I was listening to some old songs that I listen to during that period.
- Only U by 10cm
- Dazzling girl by SHINee
- Mama by exo
- Boyfriend by Boyfriend
- Live while we're young by one direction
- Beautiful goodbye by Maroon 5
and many more...
It reminds me of those night study session when I stayed in school to study and be productive for 2-3 hours before heading home to sleep. At times, we did many retarded stuff such as walking around barefooted because our feet got wet. There are times when I actually miss eating tau huey and macs with Ayana and Beatrice. Sometimes, I also remember Ms Yee nagging at me to study and me pestering Ms Yee because I simply had to many questions to ask. I do remember me telling Ms Yee cold jokes and pick up lines too.
Those were the pleasant times spent together. I also miss studying with Marissa though she can be quite a pain in the ass (Sorry Mar), Angeline, Sarah, belly, Michelle and everyone else. I really wished that there was SNJC and that we can all go there together. But unfortunately, life sucks and NO, we're not together anymore. :(
There were unpleasant times when things got out of hand well, for me when I felt like giving up and that there was no meaning in life. There was this heated debate and discussion that Marissa and I had on whether what we studied exist and how do we know they exist etc.

During the olevel period...
- Return by Lee Seung Ki.
- Red by Taylor Swift.
- Daylight by Maroon 5.
- Hug me by 10cm
- Bruises by train
- Beautiful by Carly ft Bieber
I recalled Vivian and I doing retarded stuff together well... even before Olevels. Oh and going home together, buying macs and all. I really miss this retarded person. I don't know what gave me the strength to press on but I certainly did and well I didn't score that bad for Olevels. Just that disappointment because I don't have higher Chinese unlike everyone else so I can't go to any better schools. But I'm satisfied with SA ;D

After Olevels...
- 60 Seconds by Sunggyu
- Guy like me by 100%
- I got a boy by SNSD
- Look at me now by yoseob
- Janus by Boyfriend
- Tried to walk by B1A4
- Special girl by Infinite H
Well... that was when I worked. I remember hanging out with Carnation after work.. Well, she was in Taka while I was at scotts and we were hanging out at our favourite Wendy's for like 2hours and only went home at 12am. Then there was the sale when I worked from 7.30am to 12am the next day, caught the last train home, unfortunately not the last bus and basically having my concert while walking home because it was too scary to walk home at 12.30am. And the scariest part was to climb up 15 stories because THE LIFT WAS NOT WORKING at 12.45am coming to 1am okay. This is not funny. What If some pedo decide to jump out of nowhere.
Though I hated working because it restricted me from going out freely, I think I still managed to get off days to hang out with all my friends. Eating Thai Express after work (all of us gathered from center point, scotts and Robinsons raffles city) with Xenia, Lynnette and Vivian. I really miss eating TomYam with Vivian. It is like OUR FOOD. HAHAHA. Because we seem to have many epic moments when we eat Thai Cuisine, speaking of which, I'm craving for Thai food right now. Then there is this hanging out after work or working even though I don't have to work. Okay basically crashing other people's work place and promote stuff there while waiting for them to knock off so that we can go makan together.
OMG I also miss KTV-ing with belly and Vivian, Sharlene and Beatrice.




By the way, I'm totally in love with B1A4 again. The concept is so cheery that it makes me happy and hyped up even while doing math. Sanduel looks like a derp even when he sings and behold my favourite songs off their What's going on album...

• WHAT'S GOING ON
• YESTERDAY

Side note: though I 'mug' I'm not a mugger k :'(
Everyone is calling me a mugger because I do my tutorials and all. Meh. I thought that was my job as a student. Besides I've got a life k. I fangirl, I sleep a lot, watch shows and I go out. I don't camp at home and study all day unlike some people...
Oh and I'm still waiting for the day EXO announces their comeback. :( Its been 6months plus already and B1A4 comeback TWICE. Okay. This is unfair.

All too well

Its already Saturday and this marks the end of term 2 week 6.
When I looked at my student handbook, I was taken aback when I saw that it was already term 2 week 6 and that half the term is already gone.
MSAs, PI, GPP... whoa time passes really fast.

There wasn't really anything much this week except for Friday when we had SL convention and my group is 12... with Eugene and Wei xin. Well, we did something similar to what I did during my advocate hostel stay.
During our hostel stay, we wrote notes to give to the J2s who were having their BTs in the hostel that were attached to a packet of tissue to encourage them and gave them out at night.
During the service learning convention, we wrote notes of encouragement, attached them to gummy bear packets and gave them to the people around the potong pasir estate.
Honestly, it was tough because people do not seem sure whether to accept our note&gummy unlike hostel one. Not only that, we've to chose who to give to.
Take for example, I offered the SASS security guard who seem to be in his 50s and he couldn't really understand what was this all about. Not only that, he was shocked that we're actually giving such stuff to him and questioned why should he take it.
Well, I think that its rare to even have people going around "hey this is for you! Have a great day!" especially when our society is a fast-paced society where we don't have extra time to do anything.
Being a JC student, I've to study everyday, rush tutorials and well... my extra time will be used to studying/revising or catching up with friends. No time to do other stuff. LOL. Maybe my time management really suck... (Because to be honest... I watch shows like at least 1-3 hours a week and I read a lot of stuff. Ranging from Times magazine to fanfics... er in order of the degree of language... HAHA times> readers digest> story books> fanfics)
Okay, maybe I really have a problem after all.
Should I be given a chance to do this again, I want to do this at orchard....

When I was a the National Library today with Evan and Xin Siang, TJ people were doing this spread your smile thing and there was some similarities!
Apart from that... there was awesome Wednesday... Met up with Teresa a.k.a my beloved treeetreee. I miss this poop. Haven't seen her for like almost 4-5 months already. I can't imagine because I see her almost everyday since P5 because we're P5, P6 classmates, Sec 2,3,4 classmates!

In fact, I miss everyone in St Nicks. My juniors, classmates and cca peeps.

 

 

Moving on to not so pleasant stuff....

I can't stand people who think that elite school means everything is good there and I'm expected to be elite-ish k. We're all the same anyw and if you don't know, please don't say anything because you don't know what life is like and how people like me struggled ok. (I'd say more but this is an open blog. And I love SN even though life was tough for me ok... most of the people around me just outweigh the negative effect)

Well, actually I'm quite dumb...I ask too many questions which are kind of deemed as stupid or too deep... according to many people but I'm still working towards my dream okay....

 

2 days to B1A4's comeback and baekhyun's birthday.

 

NEW WEEK AHEAD! I hope that this week will be much better. My student handbook clearly indicates that I've not been doing anything. I wrote down what I was supposed to do but they're all undone and not ticked. So I had to rush them today in the library. 10am-4pm.

Tmr 10am-4pm again then I'll watch my show! :DDDDD Be a productive kid and nothing will go wrong.

I'm not a mugger k. I just really wanna do my best and at least complete my work before the snowball becomes really big and squash me... Well because I'm quite slow and all... (I can ask jared the same question for 3-4 days LOL and I still don't understand) so I need to really work doubly hard. And I've a life. For those who don't know anything.

 

I think my bass speakers are spoiled.

Perhaps I'm stronger than I think

MSA is officially over and there is chem lecture test next week. Good job school.
And I've not started studying chem bonding.
Promise myself I'll MUG hard tonight.

I shouldn't have slept at 3.30am last night and not go to the library today because all I've done this morning ever since I woke up at 10am to the tune of Man In Love was to watch running man, play candy crush, jamming to man in love, watch history's debut stage (which is damn good), SHINee's comeback stage 234times (taemin is climbing up my bias list) and BtoB's performance.

Anything related to studies done?
- teach evan transformations.
He took like forever to understand.

Oh yeah my MSA results were pretty fine. I mentioned for like B & Cs.. Well, I never expected a wide array of results.
GP- D
GEOG- A
PHYSICS- E (Omg lucky I don't have to do re-msa. well, the bottom of the top 45%)
CHEMISTRY- A
MATH- B
CHINESE- E

Where is the C. LOL. My math was short 0.5 marks to get an A. but its okay! I think that I've learnt a lot from this MSA. ;D I was thinking of the possibilities.
1) I've selective hearing. I didn't hear Mrs Gay's warning.
2) Mrs Gay didn't even say anything like I've to reason here and there blabla...
Because all I remembered that all she said was to watch videos.

I chose to believe the 2nd.. I'm pretty sure I took everything seriously. Still, I think I've learnt a lot from this MSA. I think I'll remember that JOULE is not a base unit for life. 0 marks for the first question. (Y)(Y) Thank god that my dynamics and kinematics saved me. Especially dynamics. For a fool who missed out 1 important word for her definition and get 0 marks for that.. I certainly learn my lesson to not just sit there and understand but to memorise my definition properly. I could have leveled up and get a D for physics. and for that base unit question... wasted. BUT these lessons are so freaking valuable that I'll hug my papers for life and always remember my foolishness.

YOU HAVE NO IDEA how I want to stab myself in the heart because I spelled disproportionation reaction wrongly. Its like deja vu. I still can't spell phenothlalein or something like that. And then minus marks. And I was careless. HAHA draw wrong direction for my copper +.
BUT ITS OKAY. lesson learnt is the most important thing in the world.

I hope I don't make the same mistakes again though...


FRIDAY was a blast. Played softball for PE (finally my game cos I've got skillz there!) and well CCA and had dinner at long john silver with the advocates.

And I've got a hair cut... 18cm chopped off. :( Rather depressing but its okay, my head feels lighter now.

New week ahead! Lets go! I can do it!

Time to do chem, gp and a bit of math. :)

-

Sometimes I feel like a terrible person.

I should refrain from listening to gossips and participating in some of them.
Be nicer to some people even though they're annoying.
AND STILL DON'T LEND MY WORK TO THE PERSON. (I'm sorry. I'm a selfish person. I won't lend my work to someone who tells me to stop ****ing studying.)
And maybe just shut up and not tell anyone what I observe and keep everything inside.- simply because being quite observant and blurting everything out may affect the people around me.

I'm a non-people oriented person. (which its really rare) I remember doing the test and it turns out that I'm the only content&action oriented person or something. Which is rather true.

But I feel so terrible because I don't lend my work to the person, I ignore people who talk non-stop or comment non-stop during lectures and tutorials - I even gossip about them because they get really annoying.

I should learn to tolerate I guess.

I need to stop blurting all my observations openly because you've no idea what I've done. I feel terrible. I really feel like a terrible person because I think I've affected people's relationship with another unknowingly.
Maybe I should go back to keeping everything in me and hopefully they stay as a secret with me till I leave JC and hopefully for life.

Leaving SN and meeting SO many different people and adjusting to them is really a hard thing to do.
如温室里的小花似的。
I need to learn.
 I'll be a good person from now on- I'll try my best to accommodate everyone's differences.