啊~怎么办好！

No, this will not be in Chinese. But I found that line quite relatable now. Instead of What's going on. (you can skip the first part of this because I'm fangirling)
In my previous entry which was like 16 days ago, I mentioned that I really want EXO to comeback and I've probably mentioned the same thing my previous posts since forever.
So the good news is... on this faithful day, 16 May 2013, SM decided to upload 2 pictures and say that they're coming back. Like seriously. I was too happy that I couldn't control myself because I've simply waited for too long.
And yesterday was the faithful day that exo has comeback and their stage was a little too small but it was amazing.
Though I didn't watch it live or whatever, I'm just happy that they finally comeback and I've been counting down. While people countdown to common test, I countdown to exo's comeback. By the way its really good okay. All their hair color *-* so luhan's was not grey, baek's was not blonde and everything else is the way I wanted EXCEPT KAI. But their comeback is too good okay.
 

what actually happened the last 16 days. Unfortunately, I wasn't camping in a hole and I wasn't swallowed by a giant centipede either.
I was preparing hard for their comeback. Who am I kidding. I was doing tutorials. duh. Even though there was the announcement of exo's comeback and all I was still stressed because everything was starting to pile on me again.
1) EOM
2) Chinese exam???
3) GP paper (today)
4) Mission to understand gravitation
5) completing chemistry tutorials because they finished one entire chapter within 1.5 hours.
6) completing math tutorials because application of differentiation can kill me at the moment. Every question took me years to complete. I'm very worried for my common test when June is over. And I think I deserve a standing ovation because I juggled...
7) YFC.
Dear Vivian, YFC is youth for causes and not youth fan-club even though I've been fangirling for the past 24 hours.
YFC certainly took up quite a bit of time because of the meetings with the VWO, visiting the elderly and I really want to write a post on my visit but it dragged on for 2 weeks that I can't really remember what went on anymore. Now that YFC has officially launched, more will be expected of me I guess. But its all going to be worth it. I'm doing something meaningful in my life apart from studying and not contributing anything to the society. I can't spend hours sitting beside daddy, on his tablet (Because I'm too lazy to use mine) and go like 我是wolf一头wolf, awooooo ah saranghaeyo 你是美女我是狼 for the next 30 days right. I need to practise self control...

Anyway, the term has officially ended and this term was a matter of surviving for me because I had too many things going on and I didn't really know what was going on most of the time and I was just going with the flow. However, I've found a pretty effective way of studying (actually, I knew about it but I haven't been doing it) but it is really effective and I can actually find time here and there to watch we got married and running man. LOL I actually do whatever the teacher teach during the lecture on the day itself.

I'm grateful that my CG mates has been through with me for the past term and I don't think I'll make it without them because honestly, it was tough. I yearn for freedom and I want to play. /relates to today's GP compre/
I feel that the class has become more bonded while I think my introverted self took over during this term and I've no idea why. I can't seem to express myself or sometimes, I barely feel like talking to anyone. Sometimes, I voice out what I want to do but to a no specific person.

I hope that term 3 will be better even though its clearly not. But who says that I can't make it better?
CTs has officially started and I'm gonna ace it. At least PASS it. (though I think GP and Chinese was screwed).

17 May 2013
Went back to St Nicks and met up with my secondary school friends. I met up with the almighty cutie Beatrice whom I've not seem for 4-5 months and I really miss her a lot. I haven't had any time to catch up with her because there were too many people to catch up with but we did gwiyomi player together!

and I saw Xuan, Joan, Alicia and the juniors. I was once like them. I miss being a junior right now...

Jazlyn, Alicia, me, Huijan.

Joan and I

And everyone else.
I actually missed everyone and I haven't got the chance to catch up with everyone yet. But nonetheless, I'm still grateful that I got to see them and even step into the grounds of SN. I miss the smell and the feeling of real grass. I miss the familiar surrounding that I've been in for 10 years of my life.



Its going to be a rather hectic and crazy June holiday ahead and I'm really going to try my best to juggle my time and not waste time and concentrate properly so that I can slack on Sunday Morning and on Sunday night! They're my official slack time so I'm going to motivate myself all the way and do well and do myself and my parents proud.
-In fact, it doesn't feel like the holidays... There is school next Monday and Tuesday.
My well deserved holidays week 1 gone. BUT its okay, Time Management.
 
My current fears:
1) Getting dengue

I read the newspapers today (yesterday's mind and body etc) on dengue and I'm seriously damn scared of dengue because dengue can take away a person's life. Not that I'm scared of dying but it was just a bite. :(
Well, I just hope that everyone will stay healthy and that Singapore will fight the mozzies together by co-operating with NEA and do the checks around the house and remove stagnant water. (Its not a matter of saving water anymore) Its better prevention than cure. Because never will we will never know that how many people will be affected with the mozzies reared in our house. Its scary huh.

By the way, getting sick = slows down studying = cannot relax = don't do well and yaddie yadda. Its pretty scary okay.

2) Failing CTs

I thought that was self explanatory.
I'm.....
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I think I've rattled enough. Finally saying something from my pool of thoughts the past few weeks.

 

 

 

why so serious?

I feel that I'm wasting my time...
Though I faired pretty well (not really) for my MSA, I don't see a point in doing something I don't like to do. Its as if I'm forcing myself to do something and trying to make my best out of it because eventually, with these grades, I'll be able to do what I like in the future. But the fact that I really hate my life make me feel like giving up on my ambition and just be a gardener for good. I don't even think I can be a gardener because the subjects that I'm taking is not even gardening-related. -.-
In fact I'm very distracted by many things around me... negatively. I can't adjust to the mix school environment, I can't adjust to having different types of classmates and I can't adjust to the people here in SA. Both Saints Advocate and 13S06. I also can't adjust to the fact that I've to study everyday. I really can't.
I can't just go with the mindset: its just tutorials. and don't do them or I can't do tutorials the day before. There are times when I just wake up in the middle of the night sweating because I didn't finish this certain tutorial or assignment. There are times that I even dream of physics or chemistry and I wake up in the middle of the night going "I know how to do the question already!" This is seriously getting in my nerves because I get tired the next day but I just can't stop this.

I'm gonna be optimistic. I'd rather do something I want to do for the rest of my life and suffer for these 2 years than to enjoy these 2 years and do something I don't want to do for the rest of my life.
Worries aside... I keep forgetting to eat. Sigh... I just remembered that I've forgotten to eat lunch today.
Well... There are many things I want to learn/do.
1) I want to learn tagalog
2) I want to learn bahasa indo
3) I want to learn Korean (fully)
4) I want to learn Vietnamese (fully)
I can't even master Chinese and English properly. ._.
5) learn mamamia fingerstyle on the guitar

6) complete learning the dance for man in love chorus. (I'm half way through ^^ wanted to go biking but the weather IS terrible. So I decided to do something fun!)
7) biking
8) read those sophie kinesella books that I've yet to read. (1 more)
9) watch variety shows

With 13S06 after sports day!

I hope that B1A4 comeback on the 6th of May with a cheerful album because I'm in need of happy songs to generate some happy hormones in me. 6th of May is also Baekhyun's birthday ^^ and yesung is enlisting too. :'(
I'm stoked for Friday.. Not because of the saints advocate badge ceremony but its SHINee's comeback with their 3rd album chapter 2 "misconceptions of me". Though its without jonghyun and all, I'm still looking forward to their new album simply because they look cool. (Y)(Y).

By the way, I was listening to some old songs yesterday such as I'll be back (2pm), Again & Again (2pm), lollipop (big bang and 2NE1), can't nobody (2NE1), 黑糖秀(by lollipop and hey girl), abracadabra (BEG), Its you (suju) etc. I looked at the year the video was uploaded and I can't believe that time passed really quickly! I was still a sec 1 back then and now I'm a year one college student! 4-5 years just flew past. The type of song produced have changed a lot too! 
By the way Psy's gentleman is too much dubstep. I don't get why people like gentleman... When I first saw the video and I saw the dance moves, I thought the moves were recycled. Then I recognised Ga In in the music video and I realised that it was from abracadabra. I don't care whether he bought or whatsoever but I'm sure he can do better. The lyrics are terribly written and its a mess. I didn't move to kpop for this.
I think that this entry is in a mess too.
Shall update on my MSA results this sunday. (left with chem!)

Don't worry, Be happy

So frustrated. OTL.
Can't find a new drama to watch.
Can't find any good new english music to listen.
I intend to move back to epop because I want to play the guitar and have people singing along.
BUT I CAN'T FIND NEW ENGLISH MUSIC.
Everything is just dubstep dubstep dubstep. I hate dubstep music now because I can't even play along to it. My indie bands are like -__- dead. Lawson is pretty good but he sounds really annoying at times.
So pissed. dkjfdkljgalfjaldjfieafja Why no good folk music also. :( Something that I like. I've spent like 2hours listening to so many songs and nothing actually caught my attention.
Still.. what caught my attention was: I'm sorry by CNblue, special girl by infinite H, rain sound by B.A.P, 24/7 by 2yoon.
Break down was just dubstep music shit. I mean its okay but I don't really like dubstep. But plus point: they are dancing. So its okay. The rest of the album was good though. I liked it.
Oh I found thai music. I don't know what title but getsunova's music is damn good.

Anyway, I've recently watched 2 dramas. Arang and the magistrate and The moon that embraces the sun.
Both fall under a few categories.... Historical, fantasy and comedy.
However, Arang and the magistrate is a horror show.

And under the category of fantasy... its sorcery. Yes, Horror comedy show. My parents must be thinking that I AM crazy because I was laughing at a horror show. But it was so funny I just kept laughing half the time even at the creepy music. But honestly, I think that the show is a worth watch. And I enjoyed it a lot because I really really wanted to know whether the bitch who killed many people and sealed their souls get captured in the end. The show became really creepy when they revealed her secret dungeon... The creepier part came when the creepy woman have her creep face on when Arang approaches her because Arang is immortal and when she gets arang she becomes immortal. The jade emperor was just a dork who plays badung (is it?) and the guzheng everyday. But he was the smartass who sent aranag as a bait to capture the creepy woman. LOL. I'm so going to watch that drama again because I enjoy watching the creepy woman's face and being creeped at night at 12am. LOL. I was so creeped I couldn't sleep. HAHAHAHA. Its not a good thing. the 9 generation of shamans is damn funny. LOL. I was laughing so hard at them.



The moon that embraces the sun is supposed to be a sad show.

Oh it involves slight creepy sorcery in the show too.
This one which I thought to be a melo drama wasn't sad at all. The only sad part of the drama was when yeon woo 'died'. Like shaman was hired to 'kill' her. But it got on my nerves when it took them so long to meet again. So I kept watching. Not to mention this show is really very interesting. I can't stop clicking the next part/next episode. Its such a funny drama especially the king's assistant. LOL hyungsan. When he sat between both of them blindfloded when they slept next to each other so that they won't do anything as the king cannot control his raging hormones. HAHAHAHAHAHA. And the king made him climb up the roof to throw the flowers. So it was a comedy. I really enjoyed watching the drama a lot even though its too cheesy. But its so cute. and I pity the other queen who don't get the king's love. And ga in is so pretty! The leads (both old version and young version) are really good looking, (Y)(Y)



Anyw, the past few days was like zoom zoom like a rocket. I went back to work on wednesday and thursday back at raffles city robinsons. There were no customers. The promoters at my section outnumber the customers. The ratio was like 5:1 Haha It was seriously really pathetic.
It is not like I can promote because there was no one. Even on thursday, which was card day, robinsons was really empty. I was like T_T Texted vivian at centerpoint robinsons and we both were like T_T together because all 3 of us, including lynnette were so excited to go to wrok because got customers and at the end of the day when we met up for dinner, all of us were like T_T-ing.
Vivian and I went to HMV and jammed to using by using their really good headsets. Haha.
And I'm so happy I got my exo calendar. The mega big one from korea (my cousin bought for me. It was around 24bucks) while singapore sold it for 53 bucks. HAHAHAHAHA. In your face. Kidding. So stocked for EXO's comeback. Rumours flying all over the place with the producers tweeting and all.
Went back to school yesterday to visit guides. I kind of miss after guides camwhore session. We were so retarded together! Now, looking at the juniors camwhoring, I really miss guides session. WEll, took a few shots with them too!
















Awwww. I really miss them. I can't wait to see them soon. Went to eat strictly pancakes at some atas place.
I swear they were the best pancakes that I ever had. I loved it so much I was like legfjdljgfa and the entire plate was gone.

I need to go back there again to eat.

Oh and went to carnation's house with lizzie on tuesday. Watched home alone and little mermaid.
I finally know the ending for little mermaid. :-) So she didn't disappear into foam. But the original version she did luh! I've always thought that she disappeared into foam in the disney version too.
Decided to cook some thai food and we turned carny's kitchen upside down with our discounted and cheapo food that lizzie and I bought before we went to carny's house.
Haha. Fried vegetables (which was too sweet) and spent half the time screaming cos our oil was like sputtering all over the place. HAHAHAHAHA and our tomyam soup is too oily. Is that what we get for "$3.60 tomyam paste vs $4 tomyam paste. Chose $3.60 one"? Haha. And even our vegetables was like the cheapest among all the others around. We were too caught up with buying our cheapo fishballs and fish which was so boney that we forgot lemon grass. -__- I mistook lemon grass as cong. I suck right.
I'm gonna miss these times spent together. I don't want to grow up forever. I'm pretty sure I'm judged for watching little mermaid. Made fun of some character in little mermaid. The sea witch. Haha we called her "BIG BOOBS" And laughed so hard when the prince threw the spear or sth at her boobs.


Monday was pretty epic too. Ate food with joan, natalie, audrey and their friend. Stole Joan's food haha and well... nice bonding time and had a great time tricking audrey.

LOL. Anyway, my mum promised to get me a tablet. When I decided to settle for microsoft surface, its not even in Singapore yet. Can microsoft hurry up? They're so slow. Make me so disappointed :(
Surface is really good from what I saw online and read.
Sigh... good things. MUST WAIT.
Woke up and was in a bad mood.
Whole day bad mood.
Fangirling now cos exo is so awesome.