Hope

I'm not school-less. I've a school to attend to now.
I got into SAJC which is pretty good. :-) Even though I really wanted to get into NYJC, I know that its impossible because I already had dreams about not getting into NYJC and last night, I dreamt that I got into SAJC.. Erm so yeah. I woke up and was like "Haha. So its SA... My dream was right."
I'm very certain of some of my dreams... Like dreaming of essay questions usually come true, dreaming about my raw score came true. I dreamt that I got 11...
Maybe I'm psychic. O:

Forget it. Rule out that possibility. I'm sure that god was telling me that in my dream as if he was warning me.
So its okay. Honestly, if people ask me if I'm appealing or whether I'm happy with my school... here is the answer: I'm satisfied. But I'm still thinking if I should appeal to NY because its nearer to my house and I still got my favourite tauhuey shop!
In my opinion I have other plans in mind. It may seem ridiculous to most people and everyone is going to start judging me. But here are my plans:
I'll try JC first. If I like it, I'll stay there.
If I don't like it, I'll switch to poly.
Yes. Judge all you want. Its for the world to see. I may come across as fickle minded but mind you, I'm going to JC for the sake of the grade and my parents. The grade part is just -__-  like I don't even know if I can even get the grade part right. Oh and everyone will be like omg you're so smart, you should go to JC and be the smartest person there... Because going to poly is a waste of talent.. And I'm like wtf. Are you kidding me. I'm going to be doing useless stuff for the next 2 years. Or stupid stuff for the next 2 years because its useless. I don't see the point if I'm not gonna apply what I study in the future except for basic general knowledge and a bit of science since I want to be a dentist in the future.
Haha. Enough. I'll think about it later in the day.
Omg and I'm scared.. What if I cannot make new friends and plus I'm alone.. Tomorrow.. sigh. The whole world told me not to talk a lot when I meet someone cos I might scare them away. LOL I'll tell them my lame jokes. Okay, forget it.




The holidays have come to an end. Its already the last day of my holidays. How depressing...
This entire holidays DID NOT pass by in an ordinary fashion. There were so many ups and downs..
A brief outline of my 2.5 months long holidays...
1) I dyed my hair red.
I'm so upset because its not the red I wanted. I'm so determined to dye it again when I graduate!
2) I chalked my hair.
Good experience but its really rough to my hair.
3) I've experienced working life...
It sucks. Selling bedsheets that cost like a bomb -__- 
But I learnt a lot and earn a lot. Sadly, in exchange for money, I sacrificed the time spent with my friends. We're all night party animals now because after work, we hang out.
4) Too many chalets.
Haha. To be honest, I had a lot of fun bonding with my friends and talking to them...
5) Spent too much money!!!!!
hmpfh. I should stop spending too much money haha.
And they're all on food. Welcome to civilisation.
6) Watched a lot of movies....
Hotel Transylvania, Upside down, Hansel and Gretel, you're the apple of my eye, argo, runway cop, les mierables, paranormal activity, when wolf falls in love with sheep.
OMG HANSEL AND GRETEL IS GOOD. I LOVE THE PLOT TWIST. DAEBAK!!!
7) Tons of Dramas....
To the beautiful you: 8-11-12 to 9-11-12
the thousandth man: 28-11-12 to 29-11-12
faith (the great doctor): 12-11-12 to 15-11-12
Nice guy: 18-11-12 to 21-11-12
the king 2 hearts: 6-11-12 to 7-11-12
Dream high: 21-1-13 to 25-1-13
love rain: 10-12-12 to 15-12-12
Goong (rewatch lol): 16-12-12 to 22-12-12
Arang and the magistrate: 4-1-13 to 12-1-13 (OMG I TOOK FOREVER)
Moon that embraces the sun: 14-1-13 to 18-1-13
8) Out everyday and reach home at night like around 10? I'm ridiculous. I know. Haha.
9) Learnt a lot of new songs on the guitar. :P
10) Read a lot of fanfics.
Too many :P
11) read a lot of books
Especially dreams of the dead, spirits of the noh and other horror related books in which I can't remember because I don't take note of titles HAHA.
I'm out of chick lit guys. I'm officially out of it.
12) Almost daily routine if I'm not reading a book would be....
Morning: fanfic.
Afternoon (travelling or at home): story book
Evening: Read news... Omg I tell you the new bing thing is really cool!
Night: story book
Wee hours: fanfic again.
HAHAHAHAHAHA. Nerd.
Thanks.
Bye.
But my English sucks. I don't know why either. LOL. But I really like to read. Reading Chinese stuff too. Actually Chinese novels are nice to read ok :P And I can read. I can't write or speak well that's all.
13) Learnt a bit of Korean characters :P

Enough of my holidays.
Its the end of it.
Spending my last day eating atas food with Carnation, Vivian, Ayana, Lynnette and Xenia. :-)
JC life... Here I come~

last

It gradually dawned on me that this is the last Friday that I can hang out and roll around without any worries.
No. I'm worrying because I'm afraid that I can't get into a college of my choice... :( And I had this nightmare last night. I swear it was horrible. I don't know... I woke up feeling like crap luh.
Why is Singapore's education so screwed up? Sigh.
The past few days passed in a blink of an eye.

Went to watch Les Miserables & Runway cop with Ayana and Carnation on Monday and seriously had a great time watching 2 movies back to back. It was a contrast because Les miserables (a musical) was a sad touching musical and we were all feeling sad and touched when we stepped out of the theatre and the next moment we bought runway cop (a korean comedy) tickets which was a freaking comedy. We laughed our ass off and I still remember those funny parts clearly. Haha. Worth a watch. OMG and the starting song for Les Miserables was stuck in my head! I love the ending so much.

Tuesday was another day out with Carnation, Elisabeth, Lynnette and Vivian. Had a satisfying lunch at Elisabeth's house before sending Vivian off to work in which we helped her to do stocks later on. Had dinner with Carny and Vivian before going to my friend's brother wake.
Life is precious. I'm going to live life with no regrets.
Pray for the departed. May their soul rest in peace.

Anyway wednesday was work.. My last day of work. I have mix feelings about it because I actually enjoy my job because I get to talk... But then things turned and there were no customers which made me so upset... :( How can people stand for 8-10hours without talking? I cannot do it! I need to talk and promote my bedsheets. Sigh...

KTV with Beatrice and Sharlene on thursday. Was just plain epic-ness because we were so retarded. Singing children songs: Twinkle twinkle little star, old macdonalds had a farm and she'll be coming round the mountain... And clapping to it... Not only that.. we jammed to the classic song of 'this is me' by demi lovato.. I still remember us in sec ones when we were studying for revision tests which turned out to a 'love' story acting section by sharlene and beatrice. I was even the director. Sharlene and Beatrice were romeo and juliet and we even did our version of it. Not to forget that we fangirled by singing kpop songs and some chinese songs. I'm gonna miss these 2 idiots in the future. All the memories we had together especially while studying together.

Bad bad selca skills. I look so gross haha.

Went to find sharlene lee at manhattan fish market today and ate a feast... Went to find vivian and nua-ed around center point before scooting off to school.. I really miss school a lot. I'm going to miss the st nicks culture and the lessons. I can't wait for fiesta on the 7th of August. I remember vaguely that I had one when I was in Primary 6 and I really enjoyed it a lot. I swear our fiesta was the best in the entire world and now we're having it again. #3000daughterswantfiesta (including graduated jie jie mens leh... I think if its like that got at least 5000 already) #3000daughtershaving fiesta!
brb... crying tears of joy. Took pictures with my mynah patrol. I'm so going to miss guides a lot. I miss footdrill. Watching them from afar reminds me of the past.
5 generation mynah patrol..

Check out Alicia photobombing us at the back. >:( Hung out with Shihui and Vivian after that... Friday... Last proper week of my holiday.





Watched dream high this week...

I like the plot.. Plus taecyeon and kim soohyun was like *-* okay wait soohyun starred in the moon that embraces the sun but honestly, he looked better in dream high. I hated the romance part of the drama. It doesn't make any sense and it was just like -__- haha I always thought she would end up with jingook but no she didn't. So the drama mislead me. WTH. WTH. This is why I hate high school related dramas. But then again soohyun is so good looking. Teehee. And its pretty bitchy because of baekhee..

太好笑了!

现在觉得很就没用华文写文章了...回想起,差不多六个月没用这个语言了吧!
华文退步地不及格的地步了!
哎....怎么办呀? 不久后就要考华文A水准了,我要反省以下...把华文读好.

在做工的时候,我认识了一个从中国的男孩. 因为要工作, 我没办法要用华语和他交谈.
哈哈!他连介绍我看中国戏剧: 奋斗...

有时间在看吧!

做工时,很多阿姨赞美了我的华文...想来想去:不可能呀!华语说的很差怎么可能好呢? 最后阿姨们说"小妹,你住新加坡几年?/你是新加坡人吗?/你是马来-华人吗?"
哈哈哈哈!阿姨呀!我是华人!
有的阿姨说我不象一个会讲华语的人,所以不跟我讲话...还有,中国人要问问题时都用英文来问我...又不是说他们会讲..所以我就用了华文, 他们才松了一口气"原来你会讲华语呀!"
我真的不象华人吗?真伤心. :'(

我还记得,第一次买床单是,因为很就没用华文讲话,什么都不记得了!
我把双人床单说成"两个单人床放在一起的那样大的床单..."
抱枕套变成"长的枕头套"哈哈!还用了手势来表明我的意思.
咳...真没脸见人.那天晚上一到家,我就马上用google translate来背一些跟床单有关的词汇!
从此以后,我可以炫耀我的华文了!
只是在开玩笑而已...我对着个语言学到模糊.
当然要把他学好才可以读他们weibo.我呀,每次都等别人的翻译!连朝鲜语都会读...至少朝鲜语可一明白百分之三十..大概明白意思..
真不要脸...幸亏我还能用华文跟别人交谈呀!不错不错..对我来说已经是'拍案叫绝'的地步了...每天在工作是必须要用华文跟阿姨们交谈...


如果你/您能忍受或明白我在上面所写垃圾,谢啦!
读到这里应该因为心想"这个女孩华文差到基点...还用这个语言,让我读到很生气!"
谢谢您忍耐了这篇博客文章.
希望没错字连篇吧!
再见!

Don't worry, Be happy

So frustrated. OTL.
Can't find a new drama to watch.
Can't find any good new english music to listen.
I intend to move back to epop because I want to play the guitar and have people singing along.
BUT I CAN'T FIND NEW ENGLISH MUSIC.
Everything is just dubstep dubstep dubstep. I hate dubstep music now because I can't even play along to it. My indie bands are like -__- dead. Lawson is pretty good but he sounds really annoying at times.
So pissed. dkjfdkljgalfjaldjfieafja Why no good folk music also. :( Something that I like. I've spent like 2hours listening to so many songs and nothing actually caught my attention.
Still.. what caught my attention was: I'm sorry by CNblue, special girl by infinite H, rain sound by B.A.P, 24/7 by 2yoon.
Break down was just dubstep music shit. I mean its okay but I don't really like dubstep. But plus point: they are dancing. So its okay. The rest of the album was good though. I liked it.
Oh I found thai music. I don't know what title but getsunova's music is damn good.

Anyway, I've recently watched 2 dramas. Arang and the magistrate and The moon that embraces the sun.
Both fall under a few categories.... Historical, fantasy and comedy.
However, Arang and the magistrate is a horror show.

And under the category of fantasy... its sorcery. Yes, Horror comedy show. My parents must be thinking that I AM crazy because I was laughing at a horror show. But it was so funny I just kept laughing half the time even at the creepy music. But honestly, I think that the show is a worth watch. And I enjoyed it a lot because I really really wanted to know whether the bitch who killed many people and sealed their souls get captured in the end. The show became really creepy when they revealed her secret dungeon... The creepier part came when the creepy woman have her creep face on when Arang approaches her because Arang is immortal and when she gets arang she becomes immortal. The jade emperor was just a dork who plays badung (is it?) and the guzheng everyday. But he was the smartass who sent aranag as a bait to capture the creepy woman. LOL. I'm so going to watch that drama again because I enjoy watching the creepy woman's face and being creeped at night at 12am. LOL. I was so creeped I couldn't sleep. HAHAHAHA. Its not a good thing. the 9 generation of shamans is damn funny. LOL. I was laughing so hard at them.



The moon that embraces the sun is supposed to be a sad show.

Oh it involves slight creepy sorcery in the show too.
This one which I thought to be a melo drama wasn't sad at all. The only sad part of the drama was when yeon woo 'died'. Like shaman was hired to 'kill' her. But it got on my nerves when it took them so long to meet again. So I kept watching. Not to mention this show is really very interesting. I can't stop clicking the next part/next episode. Its such a funny drama especially the king's assistant. LOL hyungsan. When he sat between both of them blindfloded when they slept next to each other so that they won't do anything as the king cannot control his raging hormones. HAHAHAHAHAHA. And the king made him climb up the roof to throw the flowers. So it was a comedy. I really enjoyed watching the drama a lot even though its too cheesy. But its so cute. and I pity the other queen who don't get the king's love. And ga in is so pretty! The leads (both old version and young version) are really good looking, (Y)(Y)



Anyw, the past few days was like zoom zoom like a rocket. I went back to work on wednesday and thursday back at raffles city robinsons. There were no customers. The promoters at my section outnumber the customers. The ratio was like 5:1 Haha It was seriously really pathetic.
It is not like I can promote because there was no one. Even on thursday, which was card day, robinsons was really empty. I was like T_T Texted vivian at centerpoint robinsons and we both were like T_T together because all 3 of us, including lynnette were so excited to go to wrok because got customers and at the end of the day when we met up for dinner, all of us were like T_T-ing.
Vivian and I went to HMV and jammed to using by using their really good headsets. Haha.
And I'm so happy I got my exo calendar. The mega big one from korea (my cousin bought for me. It was around 24bucks) while singapore sold it for 53 bucks. HAHAHAHAHA. In your face. Kidding. So stocked for EXO's comeback. Rumours flying all over the place with the producers tweeting and all.
Went back to school yesterday to visit guides. I kind of miss after guides camwhore session. We were so retarded together! Now, looking at the juniors camwhoring, I really miss guides session. WEll, took a few shots with them too!
















Awwww. I really miss them. I can't wait to see them soon. Went to eat strictly pancakes at some atas place.
I swear they were the best pancakes that I ever had. I loved it so much I was like legfjdljgfa and the entire plate was gone.

I need to go back there again to eat.

Oh and went to carnation's house with lizzie on tuesday. Watched home alone and little mermaid.
I finally know the ending for little mermaid. :-) So she didn't disappear into foam. But the original version she did luh! I've always thought that she disappeared into foam in the disney version too.
Decided to cook some thai food and we turned carny's kitchen upside down with our discounted and cheapo food that lizzie and I bought before we went to carny's house.
Haha. Fried vegetables (which was too sweet) and spent half the time screaming cos our oil was like sputtering all over the place. HAHAHAHAHA and our tomyam soup is too oily. Is that what we get for "$3.60 tomyam paste vs $4 tomyam paste. Chose $3.60 one"? Haha. And even our vegetables was like the cheapest among all the others around. We were too caught up with buying our cheapo fishballs and fish which was so boney that we forgot lemon grass. -__- I mistook lemon grass as cong. I suck right.
I'm gonna miss these times spent together. I don't want to grow up forever. I'm pretty sure I'm judged for watching little mermaid. Made fun of some character in little mermaid. The sea witch. Haha we called her "BIG BOOBS" And laughed so hard when the prince threw the spear or sth at her boobs.


Monday was pretty epic too. Ate food with joan, natalie, audrey and their friend. Stole Joan's food haha and well... nice bonding time and had a great time tricking audrey.

LOL. Anyway, my mum promised to get me a tablet. When I decided to settle for microsoft surface, its not even in Singapore yet. Can microsoft hurry up? They're so slow. Make me so disappointed :(
Surface is really good from what I saw online and read.
Sigh... good things. MUST WAIT.
Woke up and was in a bad mood.
Whole day bad mood.
Fangirling now cos exo is so awesome.

A LOT OF THOUGHT

I feel so lonely.
Like there is no one to talk to.
I've already narrowed my JC choices. Nothing much to decide actually.. I'm jumping straight into science stream. I'm only eligible for that. LOLOL.

So my first 5 choices...
1) NYJC
2) AJC
3) SAJC
4) CJC
5) MJC
<<<<<<<6)
7)
8)
9)
10)
11)
12)

They remain undecided... I've narrowed down my poly courses already.
C72: dental hygiene (NYP)
N57: biomedical science (NP)
N73: Pharmacy science (NP)
N57: Landscape design and Horticulture -gardening~ (NP)
N74: Environmental&water technology (NP)
N89: Sustainable urban design and engineering (NP)
N82: Film, sound and video (NP)
S98: Biomedical science (SP)

Okay thats really alot.
Ever notice the odd one out. film sound and video is not science related. Maybe I shouldn't even consider that as a choice.. But hey. I'm NOT that bad at film... Look at my masterpiece. Okay. Not really.. I don't really know how to do a lot of stuff... So what I did was the best of my ability and the best of everything around me... No mac book apps and all.

Idk luh. I know its just simple ones. But I really enjoyed doing.

To be honest.. I don't know what I want to do in the future except from being a dentist, a gardener/landscape designer or a director/editor..

Mainly being a dentist...
Looking back at my random work. I have 0 background for those 3. Unless you count my olevel cert for science and math as one part and all those epic work I did above as a background. Which leaves gardening as 0. Okay have luh but also not in dept.

I really have to get into a JC of my choice mainly NY...
But I'll do whatever that comes. I'm afraid that all the schools reject me. Including Poly. I'm so scared. there is this fear in me.