I screwed up my future.
I don't know what my future holds. My results is just a repeat of PSLE. It is neither here nor there. This time, I'm not so lucky. I don't have affiliation to better schools. Not saying CJC sucks but its not known for its science stream. Yes. Science stream. Idk if I can get into NYJC/SAJC. I'd be so happy if I can. I'd really be so happy.
People are telling me that 7 distinctions is very very good. Yepp, with A1s and A2s but really, one B4 and its not even like some random subject. -__-
Thats like my L1.. My one and only L1. This is so depressing. Now you tell me which school wants me? I'm being very open about this even though its embarrassing but so what if all my other subjects are very good? So what if I have a natural talent when it comes to science... And skills for math... Even better when it comes to memorising stuff if I feel like? All because of one subject.. It just like dragged all my other glorious subjects down. Who cares if I'm good in science. No one is going to care. All because of one language. Tell me which JC will want me now.
So what if I read the readers digest/national geographic and have all the knowledge I have in the world and have the content for GP yadie yada.. It still doesn't make a difference. Because Olevel had decided my path before I could decide it. All because I suck at comprehension and narratives or maybe language is just not my forte.
Its just not like science when I can just like get through it after understanding it. Or math... after practising like 16 over school papers? Or my humanties. How did I even get A2 for combined humanities. That came as a shock. I didn't even bother to do my combined humanties paper properly. I just wrote crap.. whatever that came to my mind, I wrote it down. You get what I mean? I actually prepared hard for my english paper. Urgh not my forte unlike others.
So what if I got like "best improvement" thingy. Its just like something that makes me feel better right? I'm certain. Okay fine. 223 for PSLE.. expected L1R5: 21. Actual: 11.
Yes it was a struggle in St Nicks. Being someone extremely playful and being able to score 11-2 pts is probably something good to others.
But you know how it feels? I struggled so hard in st nicks. It was a tough struggle. No one understands. I may seem to be in my own happy world but I studied extremely hard so that I'd not be lagging behind those who scored 250++ and some even said that I was smart. No one understands me. I study on the bus. I memorise on the bus and I really doubled my engines. I even do math on the bus when I was so desperate to practise more because memorising was an easy thing for me.. I'm certain I doubled. So of course I expected more.
1) I'm not smart
2) I'm hardworking but EXTREMELY playful.
Why do people say that I'm smart/I'm a nerd. And now I have to face like 10 over messages... People asking me about my results and I'm like :\
I don't stand a chance in NYJC. Everyone.. 7pointers, 4pointers are putting NYJC. WHAT THE HELL. Can't they put something else so depressed people like me.. 9pointer stand a chance to enter. Its a single digit for goodness sake. Like if they can enter into better JCs why can't they and want to compete with other sad 9 pointers who are desperately trying to get into NYJC. I don't know. Why. Why urgh. My life can't be screwed and gone just like that. Its just so screwed. I'm so desperate I'll appeal. I'll like literally go on my knees and beg the school to take me.
I know myself well. I need a good environment. I need to be motivated. Putting me into some school that I don't want will just kill me... Its easy to say to make the best out of what I have but its not as easy as what you think you know. Its not. Just begging for that change. SA and NY. just take me. science stream... I need it very badly.
On a better note, my mum told me that she'll buy me a new computer since I got 7 distinctions. So yeah. Thats the only good part of the day. The rest is just depressing. I'm going to pray for the best and hope for the best. I just need that one more chance. I was given one when I stepped into st nicks with 223. I'm really greedy but I need 1 more.
Still.. I want to thank all the teachers that have been through that tiring year with me. Without their help, I'd never reach 7 distinctions. And I want to thank god because... I still can go to a JC and its 7 distinctions and without him, I'd not be where I am now.
I just.. need to be greedy. Just 1 more time.
Sleepless nights ahead.
I don't know.
Extremely desperate.
No one is going to understand how I'm feeling now.
That feeling when they say it doesn't define you? But it obviously defines you because it defines your future. It may not affect me directly but it affects me indirectly.
I just can't believe it.
brb... switching to dubstep music at the loudest now.
It isn't working.
Acousitc music make me so urgh....
my teeth feel weird. Its been 12hours without my retainers.....
Someday if I ever make it to become a dentist, I'll make sure I invent some braces thing without people having to wear retainers and cut down on the plucking of teeth.
Maybe I'll invent something better...
Thats if I make it to become a dentist.
Feeling so helpless now.
Science stream.
I'm so desperate.
I've thought about other options like a landscape designer and all but still... I eventually still want to be a dentist.
Lost.
10 January 2013
03 January 2013
Here I stand
1st post of the year.. 900th post. Its been like 5-6 years since my entry?
Omg there is totally a lot to talk about..
Christmas post, resolution post, greyguides chalet, love rain post.... yadieyada and about my work too. I got a lot to talk about LOL. I actually wrote them out. As usual. LOL. On those papers that they don't want at isetan haha. Anyw.... new year resolutions...
To be honest, I doubt I'll complete like half of it.. Everytime when I look back.. I wonder what was I doing. LOL.
Last year... when I read back at my blogpost, I was being damn reasonable la. This time I'm so greedy LOL. http://lil-light-of-mine-letitshine.blogspot.sg/2012/01/warzone.html
Omg do you know working is actually pretty tiring... :\
This drama is a melodrama. I thought it was cos the starting part was really damn sad and all. Like it was really MELO-ish. It was so sad that they were not fated to be together.. Almost cried at the part when she left to the US.. The interaction between the 1970s yoona&geunsuk was really good. Like its totally 1970s.
Then came the 2012 yoona&geunsuk which was really good too. I was shocked at their ability to like act it out really well like...
quiet yoona > bubbly yoona.
shy geunsuk > asshole geunsuk.
And the way they dress too!
I totally love yoona's dressing style. So I totally changed my bias in SNSD to yoona. But she is like neither here nor there at singing or dancing la.
Anyway, this drama is like a totally worth to watch. Its comparable to nice guy..
Nice guy have a good plot but its quite unrealistic and complicated. The drama just keep flipping.... -____- So this one is like coincidence like but its more simplistic and practical.
However... the drama is supposed to be like MELOdrama. the ending was too happy. HAHAHAHAHA. But yoona looks really pretty.
SNSD's I got a boy is damn good. seriously its the best concept they ever had. I'm not a sone. But I honestly think that its the best even though the song is quite choppy but its seriously super addictive. -__- And I like the music video. They got rid of the bimbo barbie doll image... And I like their shoes HAHA. The song pointed out their vocals really well...
Then entire album is like really good. Except for dancing queen. Thought it was a low budget song.. (smart to record in 2008 and release in 2012 with IGAB teasers at the back -.-) I like romantic street and express 999.. Haha. Okay. SJM next. hopefully EXO is soon. Followed by SHINee~
Omg there is totally a lot to talk about..
Christmas post, resolution post, greyguides chalet, love rain post.... yadieyada and about my work too. I got a lot to talk about LOL. I actually wrote them out. As usual. LOL. On those papers that they don't want at isetan haha. Anyw.... new year resolutions...
- Stay healthy
- Lose weight
- save money like at least 50 bucks a month or something
- Be it JC or Poly... work hard and get promoted
- keep in touch with all my friends
- Learn more guitar skills (already did!:P)
- Be a good girl
- Be more responsible...
- Control my temper
- Stay happy
To be honest, I doubt I'll complete like half of it.. Everytime when I look back.. I wonder what was I doing. LOL.
Last year... when I read back at my blogpost, I was being damn reasonable la. This time I'm so greedy LOL. http://lil-light-of-mine-letitshine.blogspot.sg/2012/01/warzone.html
1) Study hard and get
at least 10 points for Olevels
I can't say anything about this... er haven't get back yet?
2) Stay healthy
I guess so... Didn't fall sick this year.
3) Save money
Ermm I have savings from 2011 in my account. Plus 2012's.
I spent all of 2012's savings in my account last december. 2011's still in my account but I already eat in 20 bucks alr. sigh.. I need to transfer my moolah into savings account before I spend them again.
4) Enjoy life!
I did.. Even though it was hectic. Though it went wrong somewhere but it got better :)
LOL my study plan...
So I've decided....
to use my computer during my weekends to type notes (friday, saturdays and
sundays) and leisure purpose and revise daily on what the teacher teach. I did :D And do
my homework. Do math everyday especially the questions whatever the teacher
teach and revise chemistry and physics. Tough to do everyday esp when very tired but I eventually got through it. self do one comprehension a week for
both english and chinese. (well, if the school gives, I'll just have to do
all). Failed a little. -__-
Not only that, better
read chinese newspaper and all. NOT AT ALL.
Sleep at 11pm daily!
(actually I sleep eralier than this during school days but wtv) I might you know
wake up earlier at 4am so that I can tweet to Harry if he happens to be online.
Okay, he usually goes on at around 4am-5am. WTH???! HAHAHAHAHA. Okay I sleep at like 10.30 one. Sometimes 2am though. :\ idk. exam period is 10.30pm. The rest all like 1am or sth. And I don't ever wake up earlier.
Simple stuff? And better
continue to pass my NAPFA. OMG I FAILED. Heh, I never cared and this year is gonna be a pass
like all my previous years. :} Not silver. Just gonna get a bronze and continue
to party like I always do! (: Shit la. I damn loser. I didn't even get a bronze. I hit silver for like my 5 items. and my 2.4 just like flunk....
Okay. Its very hard to say anything this year. I'm like school-less for now. Sigh... I'll talk about it when I feel like then. If I go to JC... I'm gonna like try and pass my NAPFA again.
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I mean I was obsessed over it for the last 4 days but now I'm just like -____-
Overall, Isetan have a different feel from robinsons. Firstly, not to complain or bitch or sth... And don't laugh at me. :P I'm damn scared of my supervisor at Isetan scotts.
Even though she never pick on me or what but I've seen the way she scolded people. No Joke. It was like really scary. Plus she is so hard to approach... Each time I need to ask her to sign my price tag request form or ask for signage... Its always "later" before I can say that I'm desperate cos my goods are coming she walks away already. And I'm expected to make my signage. She is just so busy and so scary.
Sometimes it took me like 2hours just to find her and when I found her I need to chase her.
Wonderful.
The customers at isetan are very different... They go by the "only if I want to buy then approach your counter rule" if not they just walk past.
At times, there was like not even a single fly flying past. It was so hard to make sales.. Everyone go off to taka sq. Obviously... Carnation that side cheaper ma. There is nothing much for me to promote about since this time I'm in charge of angry bird/ hello kitty/ ben 10 bedsheets. Its like 喜欢就买 That kind of thing you know. I didn't get to flaunt my knowledge on bedsheets.
However, I've experienced something more different from the isetan private sales last Friday. Made a total of 18k$ sales from selling bedsheets.
16hours of work felt like 2 hours because there was a lot of things to do. Run in and run out. While 8hours of work felt like 16hours of work.
My angry birds singles were selling at 18bucks and it was sold out in 3hours. I was literally running in and out of the store. Who knows a pen knife might become so useful to you. I carry my penknife as if its my life because I need it to open all my cartons of bedsheets. And carrying cartons out of the store was like the most tiring job. Think I carried out 30 cartons? Plus the second round of stocks so its 40 cartons? Plus comfortors too k.
I didn't even have to promote that day. All I did was go in the store, cut box, carry it out, pour my bedsheets on empty wagon and the cycle repeats. Some aunties waited for like 4hours just for the second round of single bedsheets and they kept chasing me. As if my supplier is fast. Traffic jam plus beside me the happy call keep on delivering stocks LOL. they sould about 2000 items.
I forgot to mention that people were queueing at 0730 when I reported for work when the sales start at 0830? WTH. Crazy uh. And I had to squeeze my way through the staff entrace.
LOL I went back at like 12am... Literally run for the last train. haha. Then I walked home jamming to my music. And THE LIFT WAS NOT WORKING. the other was upgrading so I climbed 15 stories at 12.30am. Its not funny okay. I died. Luckily I have my music to accompany me throughout. Its so scary.
Saturday, Sunday, Monday and Tuesday were just like -____- no one. Stoning session with the towel aunty, frying pan aunty, china lady aunty (I was damn nice... She left her name tag on the security guard table.. I kept for her and chase after her. But I failed k. So I passed it to the other aunty who promotes the same towel... She is quite nice. Taught me on bamboo towels and all) I helped all thea unty to fold towels haha.
Omg... Most people ask me if I'm chinese. I am a chinese. If anyone ask me again, I'm gonna flip all my wagons. I need a name tag that says 我是华人, 我可以讲华语! So I learnt to sell towels, fold towels hehe. I swear because I have to communicate with all the aunties around me, I spoke like 3x the amount of chinese for the entire year. (LOL because july-nov... I didn't even use chinese for good...)
Haha.. I think my chinese improved... *pats back*
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Oh yeah forgot about christmas post.
Everone came to my house for christmas (I mean my relatives) and like I was like watching mama awards with my aunty. LOL we were fangirling over like big bang. LOL. (she's not that old. 20+?)
Yepp and like little kids were almost smashing my ukulele. Almost had a heart attack when they almost dropped the pick into my acoutstic guitar and classical guitar.
Haha. Anyway: 全家副
FOOOOOOOD:
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Greyguides chalet was a blast.
Even though everything passed in a blink, I'm gonna miss those retarded times spent together playing card game after card game... Drinking little bit of breezers together. Eating cup noodles like late at night at 2am.
Having a jamming session at 11pm at night... And a guides meeting till 2.30am at night.
LOL not to forget the aunty times at fairprice when we buy everything the cheapest.
And the fact that we thought it was gonna rain cos there was lightning and we threw our entire bbq pit filled with 30 drumsticks. LOL. Its like a pool of chicken. LOL.
cycling with elisabeth, yifen, sharlene and xueying.. Ah, cardio. Its been a long time..
Molesting the chicken together. HAHA. or rubbing butter using barehands. We didn't have a bad tummy.
Gambling den for those playing cards with money and we were the noisest. LOL. there was the gambling team and the non-gambling team. hehehe. I'm obv the 1 cent also don't want to lose one lol so im part of the non-gamble team.
Eating icecream early in the morning after we wake up.
Fangirling with Jazlyn at night.
Eating cup noodles when we wake up.
Having a living room smell and look like we had a drunk party or something. I slept at 4am and woke up at 7am to clear up k!
When the man came in to check the chalet... His jaw literally dropped when he saw the kitchen. It looked like a mess. Sigh.. It totally did. Haha.
I'm gonna miss greyguides. Had so much fun with them... Hope to see them soon.
Vivian and I even came up with lame excuses for work... laughed so hard while walking back from dte to pasir ris mrt... (btw our location was aloha loyang.. we just went to dte to get some stuff only). Like pluck wisdom teeth and need to take 1 week MC. Or like I ate bbq food and have food poisoning. LOL. We're so lame.
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Okay. last part of this long and painful 'diary' entry.
love rain
Then came the 2012 yoona&geunsuk which was really good too. I was shocked at their ability to like act it out really well like...
quiet yoona > bubbly yoona.
shy geunsuk > asshole geunsuk.
And the way they dress too!
I totally love yoona's dressing style. So I totally changed my bias in SNSD to yoona. But she is like neither here nor there at singing or dancing la.
Anyway, this drama is like a totally worth to watch. Its comparable to nice guy..
Nice guy have a good plot but its quite unrealistic and complicated. The drama just keep flipping.... -____- So this one is like coincidence like but its more simplistic and practical.
However... the drama is supposed to be like MELOdrama. the ending was too happy. HAHAHAHAHA. But yoona looks really pretty.
SNSD's I got a boy is damn good. seriously its the best concept they ever had. I'm not a sone. But I honestly think that its the best even though the song is quite choppy but its seriously super addictive. -__- And I like the music video. They got rid of the bimbo barbie doll image... And I like their shoes HAHA. The song pointed out their vocals really well...
Then entire album is like really good. Except for dancing queen. Thought it was a low budget song.. (smart to record in 2008 and release in 2012 with IGAB teasers at the back -.-) I like romantic street and express 999.. Haha. Okay. SJM next. hopefully EXO is soon. Followed by SHINee~
31 December 2012
2012
Hello. Its Like the end of the year.
Once again... I'm gonna do my summary. I've actually written it out while working.. gonna scan in my fail draft later that I wrote during work when there was barely a fly flying past me.
This year passed in a blink of an eye.
I'm just gonna go through this year briefly using vivian's style...
January:
It was the worst month.. I didn't kow what I was studying.... My results were like crap and I actually failed 4 subjects: English (embarrassing. I know), emath, pure geog (A1>>>F9?) and sshist.
I was like seriously damn stress la. And everyone was like "lies. you so smart"
See... Its not that fun okay.
Febuary:
That was the month where my CA1 results came in.
I was actually counting down to the end of the syllabus so that I can start mugging cos I was so determined to do better.
Feburary is a month filled with preparation.. Camp olympus, cc4 camp preparation and even the mock chinese paper paik in between the 2 camps in march holidays -__- barely had enough sleep for the paper.. Make me miss the end of one camp and the start of the other.
The best damn thing that happened to me was SS4 concert. SUJU *_* so hot! Especially kyuwook!
March:
March came.... The camps came andmany valuable lessons learn. I will always remember not to repeat the same mistakes.... (I'm sure greyguides know this). It was a question of 'me or you. who do?'
March holidays were just crap...
Motivational workshop was just -___- I dont really care about it.
April:
The stress started building up. I was flopping around like a dead fish. I studied damn hard luh. Of course with all the camp prep for CC1 camp on sunday and CCA....
One thing I regretted the most is my involvment in my CCA. I cut them down by loads. You get what I mean..
13th April was the last campfire I officially attend as a guide already. And we danced as a cohort... I can't dance for nuts... I'm like a dance idiot.. Well... we still managed it and mastered it in a short span of 4 days. Played the guitar... (born this way).
May:
Omg. Did you know I passed all my subjects for CA2... Like all. I got my proud A1 for chem.. A2 > A1. HAHA. And I improved my emath... D7 > A1 and Geog... F9>B3. Yepp thats me xD
yeah buddieeeeeee~
That was glorious. Okay then there was the 2 sucky weeks I missed guides due to chinese Olevels. It made me really repressed that acutal CCA ends early for me while others still get to do outdoor cooking. It was then Olevel chinese... sigh..
My entire first week of june holiday was gone.
Chinese Olevel> English prelim oral. Mock english paper >homecoming> Jubilate (1st june)
Not to mention, my grandma's passing (dad's side) on my chinese olevel day.. attend school and attend funeral and alternate between both of them... Its like all the way at CCK. Braddell to CCK is like 1h30min including bus time. Not to mention my da gu's passing at the start of may/end april..
June:
It was preparation to facilitate CC1 camp. That was full of dread and shit. I totally didn't want to facilitate the camp because I need to study and there were like 2-3 few people that I don't really like. Like super qb la. Not to mention the scary tony.
*confession* I got scolded for 'not' listening on the pre-briefing on day 0... Thats accusation. I repeated everything he said and he scolded me for rebelling. Like what? So I look like I'm not listening then accuse me of not listening... I have pretty good memory okay. If I listen I capture whatever the teacher says already. He threated to send me home. As if I care right. Obviously I have all the right to defend myself. I was really listening with evidence some more...
Last week was really sad cos I had to prepare for farewell and I was collating the video... We even have like chemistry lesson and 4hours of physics lessons... Made me wanna cry a river. I don't want to flop.
Came farewell... I was so sad :( I didn't want to leave guides. Never thought time would pass by like that.
July:
It was gross. Everyday ends at around 5plus. I stay for night study till at night like 9 plus. Go home> sleep. And the cycle repeats.
Chinese Oral was a joke.. My examiner laughed at me. HAHA.
August:
Sam's farewell party & olevel results for chinese.
A2 for chinese and cried my lungs out. I really suck at chinese la. And distinction for oral. LOLOLOLOL. Yes ridiculous.
Sam's farewell party was really fun. It was like bonding time with 4U. Something we seldom have even though I think we're quite bonded as a class... Again it was a repeat of school > tests/extra lesson> study. So boring. Okay. Another confession... Thats when I started having slight suicidal thoughts. It was like crap. I suffered so badly. I don't even know why.
During the prelim period... Wah. I was suffering between studies and shitty thoughts. I did fine for prelims in the end. 14points. A2 for both math. A1 for chem.
September:
I turn 16, Alone. On my birthday. Without a cake or anything. My brother and I just watched princess diaries and spongebob at night after my tuition. And I didn't study though cos its after prelims. Amanda neo remembered my birthday and made me chocolates. TEEHEE. And we went to watch NC16 movie.. the lady at the counter was like O_O.. zzz cannot wish me happy birthday uh!
Xuan called me noona. WTF. she is not a boy. Its unnie! Then again.. we're childish kids. She even messaged "noona neomu yeoppo" >>>> thanks for the compliment. HAHAHA even though its lyrics...September ended. The dreaded month came.
October:
The fangirling of exo officially started. LOL. Liking them as a band was in August. Existence in April. Well.. I don't know how I started. It was the only thing that kept my suicidal thoughts away. I don't want to go when they started. So I just let my fangirl instincts take over me.
During those 2 weeks of study break... It was like crap. Kept my phone away and everything but it didn't go that well so I decided to go to school to study with Ayana, Marissa, Angeline etc. Sigh.
when Olevel started, I just fangirled my way through cos I needed distraction from those thoughts. Yeap. All because of a band. Well.. the bad side was that I got slightly distracted too. Not so bad though.
And the shitty week was over. 1November came.
November:
And olevel ended just like that. On the 16th.
I didn't really study after 1st november. And I had a hardcore fangirling spree.... And came gradnight. Judgment night.
highlight was SMtown concert when I saw EXO live and heard them live. and They sound so damn bloody good! Hehe. My dad sponsored me tix. So I went with Abi, Ryna, Cheryll, Abi's sister and cousin. OMG when baek sang open arms...
When to HANOI the next day with a bad throat. LOL. And just rolled around there and using WIFI whenever I could. Glad I didn't die from crossing the roads.
December:
I watched so many dramas. LOL. So many. I even dyed my hair/ chalked hair. All sorts of shit. HAHA. I really wanted my red to show well :(... I'm gonna dye to chanyeol's brown soon.
Went hiking with carnation and ayana at bukit timah hill.. We seem like losers and there was cycling and hiking to ECP with carny, yana, xen and viv. All the aunty and uncles were damn fast la and we were like panting.
It was one of the best workout ever. Life is so shiok. only healthy part of this holiday.
Then came patrol chalet which was fun. Bonded with juniors pretty well. :P I'm really going to miss them so much.
Work started. Mix feelings about it.
(blogpost on work like tmr or sth)
It was a tiring job.. I wrote this entire ^^^ while working. hand written. LOL. I just copied and typed them in.. Added a bit of stuff and took away a bit of stuff too.
Fun with customers, boring when it comes to stoning.
Made friends with Aunty lucy, Aunty kellie, frying pan aunty and some level 3 supervisor. HAHA.
It was a good experience.
The year has come to an end. I never thought that this hectic year will go past me that fast. It felt like yesterday was 1/1/12. Now its 1/1/13 in 30minutes.
It was well spent, really a great and exciting year. Met really different kinds of people this year. Cocky teachers and asshole friends.
New year, new stuff tmr. :)
I'll have to take my learning experiences to a new level. I can do it! hehe.
Its already the last day of the year... Hoho. I even got good progress award. Waiting to collect ;)
For this year to happen, I'm really grateful to those that helped me...
Special thank you to:
1) Ms Amy Yee
2) Mdm suah
3) Mrs Ong
4) Mrs Seah
5) Hu lao Shi
6) Ms Anna Leong (LOL, forever chasing me for NAPFA. I'm sorry that I still failed it)
7) Mrs Theresa Chan
8) Mrs Brenda Tan
9) Ms Lin bb
And all the random teachers that I asked for helped in desperate times...
Thanks for answering ALL my questions. Be it smart ones, or dumb ones.
Thanks for tolerating my shit and my behaviour in class.
I'm writing this hear so that I'll always remember them when I read my blogpost.
1) Little rat whatsapp group: Joan, Natalie, Jolene
Thanks For cheering me up and talking rubbish when I'm bored.
2) Amanda and Vivian
3) Xenia and Lynnette
4) Sharlene and Beatrice
5) Marissa and Michelle
6) Greyguides and the rest of 4 Unity
7) Teresa and Clarissa
8) HuiJan and Alicia
Thank you for sticking with me through. While studying.. I'm sorry I can't list everyone here. But You get what I mean. I really want to thank you for making my 2012 happen. All the moments we have together. The fun times. And everything that we did together. Laughter, tears of sadness shed together, tears of joy shed together, studying together, camwhoring together, partying together and being able to tolerate my childishness and foolishness. Thank you for fangirling with me xD, Thank you for recessing with me. Thank you for going to the same school as me. Thank you for forgiving me when I forget to go recess with you guys. Thank you for jamming with me with the guitar. Thank you for tolerating my horrbile singing.. Thank you for tolerating my grossness during recess. Thank you for studying with me (to beat). Thank you for everything. Especially Amanda. Forever stuck with me. Thank you for accompanying me in 2012.
See you in 2013.. ~
LOL here is my draft...
SO LONG RIGHT. Its actually 3 pieces of paper. HAHA
Once again... I'm gonna do my summary. I've actually written it out while working.. gonna scan in my fail draft later that I wrote during work when there was barely a fly flying past me.
This year passed in a blink of an eye.
I'm just gonna go through this year briefly using vivian's style...
January:
It was the worst month.. I didn't kow what I was studying.... My results were like crap and I actually failed 4 subjects: English (embarrassing. I know), emath, pure geog (A1>>>F9?) and sshist.
I was like seriously damn stress la. And everyone was like "lies. you so smart"
See... Its not that fun okay.
Febuary:
That was the month where my CA1 results came in.
I was actually counting down to the end of the syllabus so that I can start mugging cos I was so determined to do better.
Feburary is a month filled with preparation.. Camp olympus, cc4 camp preparation and even the mock chinese paper paik in between the 2 camps in march holidays -__- barely had enough sleep for the paper.. Make me miss the end of one camp and the start of the other.
The best damn thing that happened to me was SS4 concert. SUJU *_* so hot! Especially kyuwook!
March:
March came.... The camps came andmany valuable lessons learn. I will always remember not to repeat the same mistakes.... (I'm sure greyguides know this). It was a question of 'me or you. who do?'
March holidays were just crap...
Motivational workshop was just -___- I dont really care about it.
April:
The stress started building up. I was flopping around like a dead fish. I studied damn hard luh. Of course with all the camp prep for CC1 camp on sunday and CCA....
One thing I regretted the most is my involvment in my CCA. I cut them down by loads. You get what I mean..
13th April was the last campfire I officially attend as a guide already. And we danced as a cohort... I can't dance for nuts... I'm like a dance idiot.. Well... we still managed it and mastered it in a short span of 4 days. Played the guitar... (born this way).
May:
Omg. Did you know I passed all my subjects for CA2... Like all. I got my proud A1 for chem.. A2 > A1. HAHA. And I improved my emath... D7 > A1 and Geog... F9>B3. Yepp thats me xD
yeah buddieeeeeee~
That was glorious. Okay then there was the 2 sucky weeks I missed guides due to chinese Olevels. It made me really repressed that acutal CCA ends early for me while others still get to do outdoor cooking. It was then Olevel chinese... sigh..
My entire first week of june holiday was gone.
Chinese Olevel> English prelim oral. Mock english paper >homecoming> Jubilate (1st june)
Not to mention, my grandma's passing (dad's side) on my chinese olevel day.. attend school and attend funeral and alternate between both of them... Its like all the way at CCK. Braddell to CCK is like 1h30min including bus time. Not to mention my da gu's passing at the start of may/end april..
June:
It was preparation to facilitate CC1 camp. That was full of dread and shit. I totally didn't want to facilitate the camp because I need to study and there were like 2-3 few people that I don't really like. Like super qb la. Not to mention the scary tony.
*confession* I got scolded for 'not' listening on the pre-briefing on day 0... Thats accusation. I repeated everything he said and he scolded me for rebelling. Like what? So I look like I'm not listening then accuse me of not listening... I have pretty good memory okay. If I listen I capture whatever the teacher says already. He threated to send me home. As if I care right. Obviously I have all the right to defend myself. I was really listening with evidence some more...
Last week was really sad cos I had to prepare for farewell and I was collating the video... We even have like chemistry lesson and 4hours of physics lessons... Made me wanna cry a river. I don't want to flop.
Came farewell... I was so sad :( I didn't want to leave guides. Never thought time would pass by like that.
July:
It was gross. Everyday ends at around 5plus. I stay for night study till at night like 9 plus. Go home> sleep. And the cycle repeats.
Chinese Oral was a joke.. My examiner laughed at me. HAHA.
August:
Sam's farewell party & olevel results for chinese.
A2 for chinese and cried my lungs out. I really suck at chinese la. And distinction for oral. LOLOLOLOL. Yes ridiculous.
Sam's farewell party was really fun. It was like bonding time with 4U. Something we seldom have even though I think we're quite bonded as a class... Again it was a repeat of school > tests/extra lesson> study. So boring. Okay. Another confession... Thats when I started having slight suicidal thoughts. It was like crap. I suffered so badly. I don't even know why.
During the prelim period... Wah. I was suffering between studies and shitty thoughts. I did fine for prelims in the end. 14points. A2 for both math. A1 for chem.
September:
I turn 16, Alone. On my birthday. Without a cake or anything. My brother and I just watched princess diaries and spongebob at night after my tuition. And I didn't study though cos its after prelims. Amanda neo remembered my birthday and made me chocolates. TEEHEE. And we went to watch NC16 movie.. the lady at the counter was like O_O.. zzz cannot wish me happy birthday uh!
Xuan called me noona. WTF. she is not a boy. Its unnie! Then again.. we're childish kids. She even messaged "noona neomu yeoppo" >>>> thanks for the compliment. HAHAHA even though its lyrics...September ended. The dreaded month came.
October:
The fangirling of exo officially started. LOL. Liking them as a band was in August. Existence in April. Well.. I don't know how I started. It was the only thing that kept my suicidal thoughts away. I don't want to go when they started. So I just let my fangirl instincts take over me.
During those 2 weeks of study break... It was like crap. Kept my phone away and everything but it didn't go that well so I decided to go to school to study with Ayana, Marissa, Angeline etc. Sigh.
when Olevel started, I just fangirled my way through cos I needed distraction from those thoughts. Yeap. All because of a band. Well.. the bad side was that I got slightly distracted too. Not so bad though.
And the shitty week was over. 1November came.
November:
And olevel ended just like that. On the 16th.
I didn't really study after 1st november. And I had a hardcore fangirling spree.... And came gradnight. Judgment night.
highlight was SMtown concert when I saw EXO live and heard them live. and They sound so damn bloody good! Hehe. My dad sponsored me tix. So I went with Abi, Ryna, Cheryll, Abi's sister and cousin. OMG when baek sang open arms...
When to HANOI the next day with a bad throat. LOL. And just rolled around there and using WIFI whenever I could. Glad I didn't die from crossing the roads.
December:
I watched so many dramas. LOL. So many. I even dyed my hair/ chalked hair. All sorts of shit. HAHA. I really wanted my red to show well :(... I'm gonna dye to chanyeol's brown soon.
Went hiking with carnation and ayana at bukit timah hill.. We seem like losers and there was cycling and hiking to ECP with carny, yana, xen and viv. All the aunty and uncles were damn fast la and we were like panting.
It was one of the best workout ever. Life is so shiok. only healthy part of this holiday.
Then came patrol chalet which was fun. Bonded with juniors pretty well. :P I'm really going to miss them so much.
Work started. Mix feelings about it.
(blogpost on work like tmr or sth)
It was a tiring job.. I wrote this entire ^^^ while working. hand written. LOL. I just copied and typed them in.. Added a bit of stuff and took away a bit of stuff too.
Fun with customers, boring when it comes to stoning.
Made friends with Aunty lucy, Aunty kellie, frying pan aunty and some level 3 supervisor. HAHA.
It was a good experience.
The year has come to an end. I never thought that this hectic year will go past me that fast. It felt like yesterday was 1/1/12. Now its 1/1/13 in 30minutes.
It was well spent, really a great and exciting year. Met really different kinds of people this year. Cocky teachers and asshole friends.
New year, new stuff tmr. :)
I'll have to take my learning experiences to a new level. I can do it! hehe.
Its already the last day of the year... Hoho. I even got good progress award. Waiting to collect ;)
For this year to happen, I'm really grateful to those that helped me...
Special thank you to:
1) Ms Amy Yee
2) Mdm suah
3) Mrs Ong
4) Mrs Seah
5) Hu lao Shi
6) Ms Anna Leong (LOL, forever chasing me for NAPFA. I'm sorry that I still failed it)
7) Mrs Theresa Chan
8) Mrs Brenda Tan
9) Ms Lin bb
And all the random teachers that I asked for helped in desperate times...
Thanks for answering ALL my questions. Be it smart ones, or dumb ones.
Thanks for tolerating my shit and my behaviour in class.
I'm writing this hear so that I'll always remember them when I read my blogpost.
1) Little rat whatsapp group: Joan, Natalie, Jolene
Thanks For cheering me up and talking rubbish when I'm bored.
2) Amanda and Vivian
3) Xenia and Lynnette
4) Sharlene and Beatrice
5) Marissa and Michelle
6) Greyguides and the rest of 4 Unity
7) Teresa and Clarissa
8) HuiJan and Alicia
Thank you for sticking with me through. While studying.. I'm sorry I can't list everyone here. But You get what I mean. I really want to thank you for making my 2012 happen. All the moments we have together. The fun times. And everything that we did together. Laughter, tears of sadness shed together, tears of joy shed together, studying together, camwhoring together, partying together and being able to tolerate my childishness and foolishness. Thank you for fangirling with me xD, Thank you for recessing with me. Thank you for going to the same school as me. Thank you for forgiving me when I forget to go recess with you guys. Thank you for jamming with me with the guitar. Thank you for tolerating my horrbile singing.. Thank you for tolerating my grossness during recess. Thank you for studying with me (to beat). Thank you for everything. Especially Amanda. Forever stuck with me. Thank you for accompanying me in 2012.
See you in 2013.. ~
LOL here is my draft...
23 December 2012
Just Frustrated
I'm trying to calm myself down by listening to Return by lee seung ki... The Sungha Jung guitar fingerstyle solo version...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mUSmcaESHAE
But I'm just so frustrated with my own schedule and all. I feel that I have to talk to someone.. But if I spam teresa on whatsapp... I think she isn't gonna be happy. And the little rat group haha, they won't understand how I feel. Neither I can I go talk to marissa now because I'm sure she'll get frustrated at me. Nor can I talk to carnation cos she probably can't feel me. I can't talk to shihui too because for sure she can't understand me in this situation... Or like that Huijan/Alicia... So basically I feel very lonely now. The almighty social butterfly who keeps in contact with everyone or talk to everyone is currently feeling really lonely now.
Basically.. this is my schedule leading up to 2013 January:
26/12/12-1/1/13: work
2/1/13-3/1/13: grey guides chalet
3/1/13-10/1/13: work
7/1/13-9/1/13: class chalet
5/1/13: CCA fair
9/1/13: vjc open house
Who knows... 10th for all we all know.. might be results day.
Haven't thought of saturday.. Awards ceremony... to collect my money from MOE. Honestly how did I get the award? (I sound like some money face person 'to collect my money from MOE' well its my money right? Its awarded to me for my hardwork which I have no idea how hard I worked)
Okay... so there are the overlapping dates. Work & class chalet. Work & greyguides chalet. Work & VJC open house. Work & CCA fair.
And I just feel like I shouldn't take up this job knowing that my schedule would end up like this. I did not think of those around me. What about Raphaella? I've yet to go out with her.
Then what about class chalet... Months of planning and meeting up... planning of logistics and it crashes..
Greyguides chalet was an off day for me.
And CCA fair. To think I really look forward to visiting guides and seeing all of my juniors. I really miss them a lot. Even though I bet they don't miss me and work comes...
I'm so frustrated with myself. All I thought of was to work, gain experience and get rid of my 'current' decemember boredom + earn some cash so that I don't have to keep asking my parents for money. I did not think of like my employer who have to go through so much trouble to plan my schedule (I actually told her about both chalets during the interviews.. I guess the others slipped my mind) and like she wants to give me commission but my schedule is just like that.. So I'm thinking of not going for like 5hours of chalet and all.. and maybe not attend the open house since its my responsibility and its my job right? I applied for it and I have to take full responsibility. Then again... I did not think of the consequences when I applied for it. And I'm sure Marissa is gonna be annoyed at me for like disappearing half way and all. And I'll be like really upset that I cannot go for CCA fair.
I just feel so bad for everyone around me.. My parents, my classmates (I've yet to go out with teresa), my guides friends (ayana asked me to go out but I was so tired and its my off, hiking, cycling.. its like my last few times to bond with them), my church friends, not to forget to spend sometime with god, and lastly (I shouldn't) exo and all my bands. (Okay.. I really shouldn't.)
I also feel extremely bad for my employer for having to go through such a hard time just because of me. I'm probably the only employee that give her a huge headache. Its sunday and she have to plan my schedule so I'll benefit the best out of it...
URGHHHHH WHY DO I HAVE TO DO THIS TO EVERYONE. WHY.
IS IT MY PROBLEM?
OR IS IT EVERYONE ELSE'S PROBLEM.
OKAY ITS MY PROBLEM. I GET IT.
I'll get a frustrated Marissa, frustrated employer, and a frustrated everyone else all because of me.
I want the time with my friends, yet I want the money.
really?
The money to feed myself with my wants. And in the end I know that I cannot bare to spend it because its my hard earn stand there for 10 hours and only get 55 bucks money.
So what was I thinking?
I guess thats how the adult working life is.. The ugly side of growing up.
Just so frustrated with myself.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mUSmcaESHAE
But I'm just so frustrated with my own schedule and all. I feel that I have to talk to someone.. But if I spam teresa on whatsapp... I think she isn't gonna be happy. And the little rat group haha, they won't understand how I feel. Neither I can I go talk to marissa now because I'm sure she'll get frustrated at me. Nor can I talk to carnation cos she probably can't feel me. I can't talk to shihui too because for sure she can't understand me in this situation... Or like that Huijan/Alicia... So basically I feel very lonely now. The almighty social butterfly who keeps in contact with everyone or talk to everyone is currently feeling really lonely now.
Basically.. this is my schedule leading up to 2013 January:
26/12/12-1/1/13: work
2/1/13-3/1/13: grey guides chalet
3/1/13-10/1/13: work
7/1/13-9/1/13: class chalet
5/1/13: CCA fair
9/1/13: vjc open house
Who knows... 10th for all we all know.. might be results day.
Haven't thought of saturday.. Awards ceremony... to collect my money from MOE. Honestly how did I get the award? (I sound like some money face person 'to collect my money from MOE' well its my money right? Its awarded to me for my hardwork which I have no idea how hard I worked)
Okay... so there are the overlapping dates. Work & class chalet. Work & greyguides chalet. Work & VJC open house. Work & CCA fair.
And I just feel like I shouldn't take up this job knowing that my schedule would end up like this. I did not think of those around me. What about Raphaella? I've yet to go out with her.
Then what about class chalet... Months of planning and meeting up... planning of logistics and it crashes..
Greyguides chalet was an off day for me.
And CCA fair. To think I really look forward to visiting guides and seeing all of my juniors. I really miss them a lot. Even though I bet they don't miss me and work comes...
I'm so frustrated with myself. All I thought of was to work, gain experience and get rid of my 'current' decemember boredom + earn some cash so that I don't have to keep asking my parents for money. I did not think of like my employer who have to go through so much trouble to plan my schedule (I actually told her about both chalets during the interviews.. I guess the others slipped my mind) and like she wants to give me commission but my schedule is just like that.. So I'm thinking of not going for like 5hours of chalet and all.. and maybe not attend the open house since its my responsibility and its my job right? I applied for it and I have to take full responsibility. Then again... I did not think of the consequences when I applied for it. And I'm sure Marissa is gonna be annoyed at me for like disappearing half way and all. And I'll be like really upset that I cannot go for CCA fair.
I just feel so bad for everyone around me.. My parents, my classmates (I've yet to go out with teresa), my guides friends (ayana asked me to go out but I was so tired and its my off, hiking, cycling.. its like my last few times to bond with them), my church friends, not to forget to spend sometime with god, and lastly (I shouldn't) exo and all my bands. (Okay.. I really shouldn't.)
I also feel extremely bad for my employer for having to go through such a hard time just because of me. I'm probably the only employee that give her a huge headache. Its sunday and she have to plan my schedule so I'll benefit the best out of it...
URGHHHHH WHY DO I HAVE TO DO THIS TO EVERYONE. WHY.
IS IT MY PROBLEM?
OR IS IT EVERYONE ELSE'S PROBLEM.
OKAY ITS MY PROBLEM. I GET IT.
I'll get a frustrated Marissa, frustrated employer, and a frustrated everyone else all because of me.
I want the time with my friends, yet I want the money.
really?
The money to feed myself with my wants. And in the end I know that I cannot bare to spend it because its my hard earn stand there for 10 hours and only get 55 bucks money.
So what was I thinking?
I guess thats how the adult working life is.. The ugly side of growing up.
Just so frustrated with myself.
22 December 2012
Shine Brighter
Work.
Tiring.
I don't know how to describe my job...
I... LOVE IT!!!!!!!!
I really enjoy it!
But being a promoter is really a tiring but exciting job. Each time I describe the bed sheets that I'm selling and try to promote them and close the deal, I feel damn shiok. Like its so shiok.
However, it was a tiring job. I swear it was really tiring. Standing there for 8-10 hours for 4 straight days is actually extremely tiring.
hehe but I'm taking this on a brighter note! I can lose weight! Since lunch is after 2pm... I eat at 4pm so that I'll just merge lunch and dinner together so that I can cut down on my calorie intake. I'm a freaking genius right! Of course. Plus I save money. The only hard part is when my tummy start to grumble at 1pm since I start work at around 11am or 12pm. But after 2pm-3pm... I actually don't feel hungry anymore. But I'll still have to eat right! Haha.
Besides, I've learnt many sales technique... In order to push the deal and convince them to buy it. And I've seen many different kind of people. Ranging from the ultimate choosy kind that take 1hour to decide on the colors etc to those that take 5minutes to decide. Haha.
Being a slightly impatient person... My heart kinda died when its the 1hour one.. But my default face is like :D so its okay. As long as I can close the deal, I don't mind waiting. But I learnt something!
Just say "Don't worry. Take your time to think. I'll be around here if you need help" and then take 3-4 steps back and go somewhere else and serve other people. :)
Yeap. Okay. I'm going to Isetan next week. From the 26/12/12 to 1/1/13. Its 7 days. In which I get double pay on the 1st. I don't exactly know what to do with the money because I can't bare to spend a single buck on buying something I don't exactly need. Because for 8hours, I only earn 44 bucks a day. What about my lunch and transport. lol. I'm beginning to sound like my mum. LIFE IS HARD.
Anyway. SNSD's comeback pictures are damn good.
But I'm still not a fan. Sorry. Haha. I'm just happy for sones that they get their comeback while EXO haven't get their comeback yet. Its tiring to wait you know? More tiring than my work. I've been waiting since October already.
I really hope that their comeback is after SNSD's.. Because SHINee's comeback is rumoured to be in Feburary.
OMG. I totally sound like a kpop person now.
Particular bands that I fangirl: exo, shinee, suju, B1A4, a bit of BTOBAP (btob and bap.. their dance battle damn good sia and they're so damn hot. zelo, minhyuk yadiyada!)
But I listen to too many... 100%, block B, 10cm, tvxq, BEAST, boyfriend, leeseungki, big bang, 2NE1, f(x), gg, infinite, kara, tara, miss A, wonder girls, BoA, juniel, AoA lalalalalala. Forget it. Too many to list. All the random music that I picked up and any how listen to one. Okay just like anyhow download the album and listen one. haha.
Have you heard this...
Its so good. So good. I read my post I think back a few days ago... That lee seung ki song I was listening to is called return.
Its so damn good. I swear I love it so much. Its so sad, filled with a lot of emotions and meaningful too. Better than his previous album. Its such a pity that people actually think that kpop is rubbish and what not. Or like let snsd, suju, shinee etc the extremely well known ones define kpop. That kpop is full of techno and rubbish. To be honest, its better than english pop now. I used to think that kpop sucked even though the first kpop song I heard was from suju and I think its called Don't Don or something like that when I was in p5/p6...Then in sec one when it was the sorry sorry era.. lol. Its you when ryeowook tripped in the dance video (secretly.. over analysed by obsessed me. and a shadow walking in and out of the video half way. I swear I watched it like 10000 times or something). If I'm not wrong... around 2minutes plus. HAHAHA. I was laughing at it. But I used to love eunhyuk's chest thing.
Thats not the point. I thought lollipop was rubbish haha until it got addictive. Sec 2 was when I had this 5gb worth of kpop in my laptop because raphaella transfered them to my laptop while I was studying so I listened to all of them. Never thought that mr boogie was by f(x)! haha. Okay but that was a horrible song too. Omg in p5/p6 I used to love rain too. And Rainism is damn good.
Basically, I listen to songs that people will not listen no matter how good it is because its not by a famous or known band or person. Like I was talking to marissa once.. (no offence, marissa) that she said that she don't understand why people like kpop. Is it because of looks or what. Yeah. Looks. But thats not the point. They can sing. Do you think I'll actually like groups that is all about looks and can't sing? No what. Do I like girl groups that are just about looks? Do you think that some boys are actually good looking?
To be honest right, baekhyun is not really good looking on stage you know. Thats just the looks. But the way he brings himself on stage is very different, very charasmatic.
Kyuhyun is not as perfect as ever too you know? His face is not smooth like always. Can tell that he used to have quite a bit of acne issue. (I'm sorry if I offend. Kyu is my bias)
Sandeul got that derp look.. Not the goodlooking boy everyone is looking for you know.
Its the way they carry themself on stage. Something I just don't really get with english pop... Okay there are the xfactor ones that are really good.. And then there is one direction, ed sheeran, bieber. Yes bieber is quite charasmatic on stage. (I hope I don't feel ashsamed when I read this and whatever I said above in the future. To the future... me)
OMG and call me slow. This year's DJEARWORM SHINEBRIGHER... (UNITED STATE OF POP 2012) IS DAMN GOOD.
I know all the songs.... in and out. :P
Its super good! cut away all the techno part, mash them up together. Totally what I'd like! Its pretty good! And I can jam to it cos I know how to play all the songs there. hehe.
But I wished that live while we're young is in it too...
I'm scared to go to work next week.. New environment, all by myself without aunty lucy or whoever...
Like no one else to show me how to clock in and everything.
I'm really scared. I'm so scared. You don't understand how I actually feel. I'm very scared. I enjoy my job but I'm very scared at isetan... What if I get lost.. or dk how to punch my card or where to go or what. And no one to ensure that I don't mess up sticking price tags... I'm very scared that I mess up you know. I did this before and all but I'm still scared on my own.
Never mind. xmas first!!!!
Went to eat bibimbab with shihui and vivian yesterday. Not as good as korea's but its damn shiok. I love it!
craving for it. whootwhoot!
Shopped yesterday and I want to buy a lot of stuff but its not a neccessity. So.. NO. DONT WASTE MONEY.
HAHA. okay. byebye!
Tiring.
I don't know how to describe my job...
I... LOVE IT!!!!!!!!
I really enjoy it!
But being a promoter is really a tiring but exciting job. Each time I describe the bed sheets that I'm selling and try to promote them and close the deal, I feel damn shiok. Like its so shiok.
However, it was a tiring job. I swear it was really tiring. Standing there for 8-10 hours for 4 straight days is actually extremely tiring.
hehe but I'm taking this on a brighter note! I can lose weight! Since lunch is after 2pm... I eat at 4pm so that I'll just merge lunch and dinner together so that I can cut down on my calorie intake. I'm a freaking genius right! Of course. Plus I save money. The only hard part is when my tummy start to grumble at 1pm since I start work at around 11am or 12pm. But after 2pm-3pm... I actually don't feel hungry anymore. But I'll still have to eat right! Haha.
Besides, I've learnt many sales technique... In order to push the deal and convince them to buy it. And I've seen many different kind of people. Ranging from the ultimate choosy kind that take 1hour to decide on the colors etc to those that take 5minutes to decide. Haha.
Being a slightly impatient person... My heart kinda died when its the 1hour one.. But my default face is like :D so its okay. As long as I can close the deal, I don't mind waiting. But I learnt something!
Just say "Don't worry. Take your time to think. I'll be around here if you need help" and then take 3-4 steps back and go somewhere else and serve other people. :)
Yeap. Okay. I'm going to Isetan next week. From the 26/12/12 to 1/1/13. Its 7 days. In which I get double pay on the 1st. I don't exactly know what to do with the money because I can't bare to spend a single buck on buying something I don't exactly need. Because for 8hours, I only earn 44 bucks a day. What about my lunch and transport. lol. I'm beginning to sound like my mum. LIFE IS HARD.
Anyway. SNSD's comeback pictures are damn good.
But I'm still not a fan. Sorry. Haha. I'm just happy for sones that they get their comeback while EXO haven't get their comeback yet. Its tiring to wait you know? More tiring than my work. I've been waiting since October already.
I really hope that their comeback is after SNSD's.. Because SHINee's comeback is rumoured to be in Feburary.
OMG. I totally sound like a kpop person now.
Particular bands that I fangirl: exo, shinee, suju, B1A4, a bit of BTOBAP (btob and bap.. their dance battle damn good sia and they're so damn hot. zelo, minhyuk yadiyada!)
But I listen to too many... 100%, block B, 10cm, tvxq, BEAST, boyfriend, leeseungki, big bang, 2NE1, f(x), gg, infinite, kara, tara, miss A, wonder girls, BoA, juniel, AoA lalalalalala. Forget it. Too many to list. All the random music that I picked up and any how listen to one. Okay just like anyhow download the album and listen one. haha.
Have you heard this...
Its so damn good. I swear I love it so much. Its so sad, filled with a lot of emotions and meaningful too. Better than his previous album. Its such a pity that people actually think that kpop is rubbish and what not. Or like let snsd, suju, shinee etc the extremely well known ones define kpop. That kpop is full of techno and rubbish. To be honest, its better than english pop now. I used to think that kpop sucked even though the first kpop song I heard was from suju and I think its called Don't Don or something like that when I was in p5/p6...Then in sec one when it was the sorry sorry era.. lol. Its you when ryeowook tripped in the dance video (secretly.. over analysed by obsessed me. and a shadow walking in and out of the video half way. I swear I watched it like 10000 times or something). If I'm not wrong... around 2minutes plus. HAHAHA. I was laughing at it. But I used to love eunhyuk's chest thing.
Thats not the point. I thought lollipop was rubbish haha until it got addictive. Sec 2 was when I had this 5gb worth of kpop in my laptop because raphaella transfered them to my laptop while I was studying so I listened to all of them. Never thought that mr boogie was by f(x)! haha. Okay but that was a horrible song too. Omg in p5/p6 I used to love rain too. And Rainism is damn good.
Basically, I listen to songs that people will not listen no matter how good it is because its not by a famous or known band or person. Like I was talking to marissa once.. (no offence, marissa) that she said that she don't understand why people like kpop. Is it because of looks or what. Yeah. Looks. But thats not the point. They can sing. Do you think I'll actually like groups that is all about looks and can't sing? No what. Do I like girl groups that are just about looks? Do you think that some boys are actually good looking?
To be honest right, baekhyun is not really good looking on stage you know. Thats just the looks. But the way he brings himself on stage is very different, very charasmatic.
Kyuhyun is not as perfect as ever too you know? His face is not smooth like always. Can tell that he used to have quite a bit of acne issue. (I'm sorry if I offend. Kyu is my bias)
Sandeul got that derp look.. Not the goodlooking boy everyone is looking for you know.
Its the way they carry themself on stage. Something I just don't really get with english pop... Okay there are the xfactor ones that are really good.. And then there is one direction, ed sheeran, bieber. Yes bieber is quite charasmatic on stage. (I hope I don't feel ashsamed when I read this and whatever I said above in the future. To the future... me)
OMG and call me slow. This year's DJEARWORM SHINEBRIGHER... (UNITED STATE OF POP 2012) IS DAMN GOOD.
I know all the songs.... in and out. :P
But I wished that live while we're young is in it too...
I'm scared to go to work next week.. New environment, all by myself without aunty lucy or whoever...
Like no one else to show me how to clock in and everything.
I'm really scared. I'm so scared. You don't understand how I actually feel. I'm very scared. I enjoy my job but I'm very scared at isetan... What if I get lost.. or dk how to punch my card or where to go or what. And no one to ensure that I don't mess up sticking price tags... I'm very scared that I mess up you know. I did this before and all but I'm still scared on my own.
Never mind. xmas first!!!!
Went to eat bibimbab with shihui and vivian yesterday. Not as good as korea's but its damn shiok. I love it!
Shopped yesterday and I want to buy a lot of stuff but its not a neccessity. So.. NO. DONT WASTE MONEY.
HAHA. okay. byebye!
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