dont you know

OMG. MY CA1 RESULTS ARE REALLY HORRIBLE. I MEAN YES. HORRIBLE. I'm not joking. For the first ever time I failed geography. Well, the whole class failed geography and I'm not alone. But its a little disappointing when I've been getting an A1 for geography all these while but this time is an ugly number in PPR. Well.. My PPR this term is really horrible.. Still.. Like it might be a fail since I've failed 4 subjects. Yes 4 subjects. Don't judge.
I have to pick myself up from all these and learn from my errors and review my own papers and see where I went wrong.. But there is one thing I can never change... My 101 careless mistakes. Its never ending carelessness.. I was blind and saw reducing agent as reduced... I calculated rubbish I wasn't supposed to calculated during physics... basically "redundant step"... I forgot to cancel out my pi for math but I got the answer... I saw 0 as 6... I can't press my calculator properly. It is a comment made by Malaysia.. I wrote Singapore and quoted from Malaysia. I'm really a born sotong. Well.. I still got to changed that away before it murder me during Olevel. And then no more dentistry for me.
Anyway, I'm so excited for both church camp and guides camp. Even though I don't think we're prepared for camp olympus... But bring it on baby. We're greyguides! Today's camp preparation and all was quite fun especially while preparing for night trail and our special game. I can't contain my excitement.
I'm going to work this out. I can do this. Physics Olevel SPA is next week and I don't know how am I going to surgive it especially when my hand starts to shiver and I get all nervous. Trial was bad enough... Ahhhhh...
Anyway... Off to do work. Was supposed to end this off but was watching one direction's megamind pt 1 and pt 2. Louis sense of humour, Niall wants to be a dentist, Harry's cutest face, zayn's beautiful voice, Liam's accent.

There's a pile of my clothes At the end of your bed

Finally using the computer after many weeks. The past 2 weeks have been rather... fabulous? I'm not out of my mind that studying for CA was fabulous. Well.. there will be a part of my blogpost where I go blabbering about CAs... Just.. wait...
Highlights: 
1) SS4
Okay, be jealous... I went for SS4. Nah, I wasn't at the terrace or moshpit but the balcony where my romeo looks up into the balcony. I feel the love of the ELFs... Although I do like super junior and they're all really cute but I never counted myself as a fan.... Maybe I am now.. The big stuff I get into.. following suju tumblr's and their fandom tumblrs and... eventually start the reblogging. Enough of my rubbish. SS4 was really fantastic. I mean like the stage set up was beautiful and Siwon sang your grace is enough which was my favourite christian song, they even sang do re mi and everything. And their encore was hardcore! Yes its piak in between CAs but at least I relaxed and enjoyed myself. Bruno mars: lighters, lazy song and billionare. OMG and one in a million too with sexy dance moves which makes me *_* Going to upload some of those fancams that I took on youtube. Its definitely going to take ages. /NICOLEang20
2) Thinking day
On that very morning of the SS4 concert, went to scape with Amanda and aunty betty to help out at the shop at the while elephant sale and I learnt business brains. Well, certainly had lots of fun!
Oh and happy belated thinking day!

whoo!*fangirls*
mmm... time for the CA talk. I don't think I did well for CAs.. I mean despite studying hard everyday, trying my best to listen in class, and doing my homework regularly. Urgh, this stress factor is really bad. Those pimples on my face, once again just makes me feel more annoyed. Anyway, nothing is really going my way.. Geography can't go in, can't apply math and all. :( Well.. still got to try. Try. Try. If dentist is what I want then yes must go towards there and not give up. Off to computer the pile of homework in my bag.
So excited for greyguides hike and not excited for homemakers.
Anyway, off to do work while waiting for my first fancam upload!
Dry blogpost...

Domino

hello!
This is my last #stnicksholiday in my 10 years in st nicks. Its been amazing having #stnicksholiday and strutting down the streets of Singapore shouting I'm free.
Anyway, I've heard the full version of I should have kissed you (ps, not supposed to be released yet. It was kinda leaked) so... I've downloaded it and was singing to it all day.
The rate of me during work fell by 50% after that. Shouldn't have seen twitter after I finished physics in the morning.

Anyway, I've got a sudden really had addiction to westlife. I don't know why.
Westlife is really a great band, signed by simon cowell. Obviously, simon cowell has the foresight for great bands. One direction is gonna like westlife or even better than them.
Anyway, listen to her http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BRzcC5O5IPg&feature=related I think her voice is beautiful. I just prefer watching covers than originals. :P Even though this is not good as Jessie J's version but I think its quite nice. mmm Jessie J sounds like she is stretching her voice a little too far. Ooops, I'm sorry. Really, it kind of pieced my eardrums a little. Makes me feel like learning that on the guitar. So I've got a list of songs I want to learn on the guitar:
1) my love (halfway)
2) seasons in the sun
3) I should have kissed you
4) fool again
5) domino
6) we found love
7) I want
8) I wish
9) tell me a lie
10) Right here waiting
11) Canon in D
12) can you feel the love tonight
13) uptown girl
I should make it a point to learn them. And really sit down and learn after CAs. But I'm borrowing Sarah Tan's Ukulele. So maybe learn some on ukulele? Who knows.
Anyway, had lunch with my mum today and bought some assessment books at popular and went home. Did what I wanted today but I felt I could do more today. Maybe if I didn't start fangirling halfway.... hmpfh. I'm getting really hyped up for the Saturdays starting from the 18th.
Can't wait for Friday! Guides guides guides! yay! I love life whenever guides is concern.
Oh ya, loads to memorise for metals and I can't seem to get equations and all in my head. this is kind of getting on my nerves. :(
Really. I mean it.
By the way, almost got into a food coma on Tuesday because I ate too much for recess. But I can't help it. My stomach grumbles and I just have to eat. Blame recess for being so late. But I've been eating more proteins than carbohydrates. Somehow, I think rice disgusts me a little when it comes to a mountain. Even though... I love rice. And I should cut down on my egg.

I keep playing inside my head

Reality check: half the term gone.
Guess what, I've been really.. uhm.. boring?
I'm a boring person.
Catholic High initiative was rather okay. Maybe some say its a waste of time but then again I think it is kind of stress releasing despite the major awkwardness between the scouts and the guides. But I appreciate it since its one of the last few or maybe even the last initiative I'd have before I stand down from guides.
The thought of this makes me really sad and I don't want to leave guides. Its part of me. :( And I'm gonna miss my juniors too. Okay, but I treat them more like my friends.
Okay, so the best part was the captains ball. When you get active and play captains ball for almost 2hours plus straight which is really kind of stress releasing. That is the fun part. I think the games was not bad too. Even though it was really like just slacking and playing and sometimes... awkward.
Met Geraldine and Magdalene yesterday at J8 after the initiative and walked home with Magdalene.
Catechism class started today. Missed all my friends. Well, shared about what happened during our holidays and all. Then celebrated jon's 16th birthday and steph's 15 belated birthday. :( After our camp in March... lessons will be once every 2 weeks. whyyyy.... I'm gonna miss this.

Anyway gotta go and study again. Back to studying. Life is too sad.
Oh and sorry for my randomness, I picked wood on the way back home from church at 2pm as I passed by bishan park so I decided to stop and find punk. Out of 7 coconut trees... there are only 2 small pieces of punk. :( Can't wait to show my awesome firelighting skills I learnt from pioneer last week. I even strike a match stick for the first time and boiled water in 15minutes including digging ground using the chunkol. The trick is having a lot of punk and when it lights up immediately dump a hand full of kindling on the fire and the fire starts! *perfect score* 5 minutes. Like how Uncle ghaz did it. (is that how I spell his name)
Few more days to start of CA1. I haven't learn how to write my chinese idioms. 70 and that is just a total waste of time. Now.. off to memorise geography.

I lie awake just to convince myself this wasn't just a dream

OMG LET ME TELL YOU WHAT.

YOU KNOW... I'm addicted to a preview of a song... And this is bad.. Imagine what happens if the whole song comes out..
Of course, its by one direction. I think its to be released during valentines day or something. I should have kissed you. 
And the one thing behind the scenes was so perfect. Like I don't know how it can be so perfect. It wasn't like some planned plot kind of thing. Its really cool! If you haven't watch go and watch!
Anyway, back to life. Its my first time in 2 weeks ever since I used the computer. And I'm so dead because I'm not concentrating now! I'm watching all the one direction videos and reading gossip.
Urgh ps, their tour diary 4 was epic! Louis as epic as ever!
CAs is like in about 2 weeks time and I'm definitely not prepared. Come on, just look at what I'm doing now. Watching videos non-stop and all those I missed out. And I realised I have a big problem.. I can't sit still in class. Either I have to stand up, or something before my eyes start shutting off. And I'm the only one who sleeps at 11pm or 11.30pm. I feel so out of place. And everyone is like 'waking up at 4am to study' and 'sleeping at 1 today' and I'm like "I'm so screwed"
My mind shuts down as long as its after 11pm. Really. It starts really late at 9am and shuts down early at 11pm. Well, time when my mind function best is after recess till 6plus. Study everyday after school and at home.. Sigh. Need to double double up now! I can't stop every 1 hour to sing a few songs. Especially.. I'm stuck in the world of westlife..

Yes.. And you know.. this kind of controversial thing. I probably have an issue but there is a reason why I participate in some lessons and some I just sit there and stone and not ask a single question. I'm a quite a sensitive person at times and I can see through the attitude different teachers give to different students. Here, a teacher can just make students detest a subject to the very core or just slack off at it because of the attitude a teacher gives to students and naturally, students will react back the same way. If a teacher treats a student in an unfriendly manner, the student just reacts the same way unknowingly at the teacher. Probably turning to a friend to ask for help instead of the teacher. I do know its very disrespectful but do you know... maybe teachers may not feel the same way but I, as a student do feel that some teachers do judge students who ask stupid questions or over ask. Especially when it comes to a teacher who tells every single detail about a student to every teacher. I know I'm being rude to turn around to ask a question while the teacher is teaching but the fact that if I over ask.. I'll just end up in the 'students who disrespect teachers list' (okay, I don't really go through my mind on how to phrase it in a very nice way) well, same goes for me turning around and asking a friend a question to clear up my doubts so that I won't continue to get stuck in this world of twirly I-don't-know-what-the-teacher-is-talking about. 

Besides, its really easy to tell if a teacher is bias towards a student or just dislike a student... 2 students asking the same question and the teacher replies nicely to one and replies rubbish to the other. Tell you what, its obviously obvious here. 
By the way, its a natural reaction that I can't control. I treat different people differently and I'm just playful in a sense and rebellious. But I do do my homework, I do try my best and probably the teacher marks it like its rubbish and throw it back, I study hard and I try my best to listen in class.
Sometimes, I'm wondering is this why we don't participate in class any more? 
Anyway, I'm off to do my notes and study. If dentistry is the way, and if I don't want my future to be decided by others.. No matter how much I hate the subject, I'll have to like it no matter what and be less playful.
Determined to get out of physics remedial. Its 10 MCQ in 50 minutes. Quite a waste of my time because I finished in 10 minutes plus? Not saying my electricity is good but... I was hoping to learn a little more and extra extra stuff especialyl structured and not staring into space for 10 minutes and waiting for the teacher to go through and then take down pointers. Need to do something about my physics...
Fool again- westlife