2012

Hello. Its Like the end of the year.
Once again... I'm gonna do my summary. I've actually written it out while working.. gonna scan in my fail draft later that I wrote during work when there was barely a fly flying past me.

This year passed in a blink of an eye.
I'm just gonna go through this year briefly using vivian's style...

January:
It was the worst month.. I didn't kow what I was studying.... My results were like crap and I actually failed 4 subjects: English (embarrassing. I know), emath, pure geog (A1>>>F9?) and sshist.
I was like seriously damn stress la. And everyone was like "lies. you so smart"
See... Its not that fun okay.

Febuary:
That was the month where my CA1 results came in.
I was actually counting down to the end of the syllabus so that I can start mugging cos I was so determined to do better.
Feburary is a month filled with preparation.. Camp olympus, cc4 camp preparation and even the mock chinese paper paik in between the 2 camps in march holidays -__- barely had enough sleep for the paper.. Make me miss the end of one camp and the start of the other.
The best damn thing that happened to me was SS4 concert. SUJU *_* so hot! Especially kyuwook!

March:
March came.... The camps came andmany valuable lessons learn. I will always remember not to repeat the same mistakes.... (I'm sure greyguides know this). It was a question of 'me or you. who do?'
March holidays were just crap...
Motivational workshop was just -___- I dont really care about it.


April:
The stress started building up. I was flopping around like a dead fish. I studied damn hard luh. Of course with all the camp prep for CC1 camp on sunday and CCA....
One thing I regretted the most is my involvment in my CCA. I cut them down by loads. You get what I mean..
13th April was the last campfire I officially attend as a guide already. And we danced as a cohort... I can't dance for nuts... I'm like a dance idiot.. Well... we still managed it and mastered it in a short span of 4 days. Played the guitar... (born this way).

May:
Omg. Did you know I passed all my subjects for CA2... Like all. I got my proud A1 for chem.. A2 > A1. HAHA. And I improved my emath... D7 > A1 and Geog... F9>B3. Yepp thats me xD
yeah buddieeeeeee~
That was glorious. Okay then there was the 2 sucky weeks I missed guides due to chinese Olevels. It made me really repressed that acutal CCA ends early for me while others still get to do outdoor cooking. It was then Olevel chinese... sigh..
My entire first week of june holiday was gone.
Chinese Olevel> English prelim oral. Mock english paper >homecoming> Jubilate (1st june)
Not to mention, my grandma's passing (dad's side) on my chinese olevel day.. attend school and attend funeral and alternate between both of them... Its like all the way at CCK. Braddell to CCK is like 1h30min including bus time. Not to mention my da gu's passing at the start of may/end april..

June:
It was preparation to facilitate CC1 camp. That was full of dread and shit. I totally didn't want to facilitate the camp because I need to study and there were like 2-3 few people that I don't really like. Like super qb la. Not to mention the scary tony.
*confession* I got scolded for 'not' listening on the pre-briefing on day 0... Thats accusation. I repeated everything he said and he scolded me for rebelling. Like what? So I look like I'm not listening then accuse me of not listening... I have pretty good memory okay. If I listen I capture whatever the teacher says already. He threated to send me home. As if I care right. Obviously I have all the right to defend myself. I was really listening with evidence some more...
Last week was really sad cos I had to prepare for farewell and I was collating the video... We even have like chemistry lesson and 4hours of physics lessons... Made me wanna cry a river. I don't want to flop.
Came farewell... I was so sad :( I didn't want to leave guides. Never thought time would pass by like that.

July:
It was gross. Everyday ends at around 5plus. I stay for night study till at night like 9 plus. Go home> sleep. And the cycle repeats.
Chinese Oral was a joke.. My examiner laughed at me. HAHA.

August:
Sam's farewell party & olevel results for chinese.
A2 for chinese and cried my lungs out. I really suck at chinese la. And distinction for oral. LOLOLOLOL.  Yes ridiculous.
Sam's farewell party was really fun. It was like bonding time with 4U. Something we seldom have even though I think we're quite bonded as a class... Again it was a repeat of school > tests/extra lesson> study. So boring. Okay. Another confession... Thats when I started having slight suicidal thoughts. It was like crap. I suffered so badly. I don't even know why.
During the prelim period... Wah. I was suffering between studies and shitty thoughts. I did fine for prelims in the end. 14points. A2 for both math. A1 for chem.

September:
I turn 16, Alone. On my birthday. Without a cake or anything. My brother and I just watched princess diaries and spongebob at night after my tuition. And I didn't study though cos its after prelims. Amanda neo remembered my birthday and made me chocolates. TEEHEE. And we went to watch NC16 movie.. the lady at the counter was like O_O.. zzz cannot wish me happy birthday uh!
Xuan called me noona. WTF. she is not a boy. Its unnie! Then again.. we're childish kids. She even messaged "noona neomu yeoppo" >>>> thanks for the compliment. HAHAHA even though its lyrics...September ended. The dreaded month came.


October:
The fangirling of exo officially started. LOL. Liking them as a band was in August. Existence in April. Well.. I don't know how I started. It was the only thing that kept my suicidal thoughts away. I don't want to go when they started. So I just let my fangirl instincts take over me.
During those 2 weeks of study break... It was like crap. Kept my phone away and everything but it didn't go that well so I decided to go to school to study with Ayana, Marissa, Angeline etc. Sigh.
when Olevel started, I just fangirled my way through cos I needed distraction from those thoughts. Yeap. All because of a band. Well.. the bad side was that I got slightly distracted too. Not so bad though.
And the shitty week was over. 1November came.

November:
And olevel ended just like that. On the 16th.
I didn't really study after 1st november. And I had a hardcore fangirling spree.... And came gradnight. Judgment night.
highlight was SMtown concert when I saw EXO live and heard them live. and They sound so damn bloody good! Hehe. My dad sponsored me tix. So I went with Abi, Ryna, Cheryll, Abi's sister and cousin. OMG when baek sang open arms...
When to HANOI the next day with a bad throat. LOL. And just rolled around there and using WIFI whenever I could. Glad I didn't die from crossing the roads.

December:
I watched so many dramas. LOL. So many. I even dyed my hair/ chalked hair. All sorts of shit. HAHA. I really wanted my red to show well :(... I'm gonna dye to chanyeol's brown soon.
Went hiking with carnation and ayana at bukit timah hill.. We seem like losers and there was cycling and hiking to ECP with carny, yana, xen and viv. All the aunty and uncles were damn fast la and we were like panting.
It was one of the best workout ever. Life is so shiok. only healthy part of this holiday.
Then came patrol chalet which was fun. Bonded with juniors pretty well. :P  I'm really going to miss them so much.
Work started. Mix feelings about it.
(blogpost on work like tmr or sth)
It was a tiring job.. I wrote this entire ^^^ while working. hand written. LOL. I just copied and typed them in.. Added a bit of stuff and took away a bit of stuff too.
Fun with customers, boring when it comes to stoning.
Made friends with Aunty lucy, Aunty kellie, frying pan aunty and some level 3 supervisor. HAHA.
It was a good experience.






The year has come to an end. I never thought that this hectic year will go past me that fast. It felt like yesterday was 1/1/12. Now its 1/1/13 in 30minutes.
It was well spent, really a great and exciting year. Met really different kinds of people this year. Cocky teachers and asshole friends.
New year, new stuff tmr. :)
I'll have to take my learning experiences to a new level. I can do it! hehe.
Its already the last day of the year... Hoho. I even got good progress award. Waiting to collect ;)
For this year to happen, I'm really grateful to those that helped me...

Special thank you to:
1) Ms Amy Yee
2) Mdm suah
3) Mrs Ong
4) Mrs Seah
5) Hu lao Shi
6) Ms Anna Leong (LOL, forever chasing me for NAPFA. I'm sorry that I still failed it)
7) Mrs Theresa Chan
8) Mrs Brenda Tan
9) Ms Lin bb
And all the random teachers that I asked for helped in desperate times...
Thanks for answering ALL my questions. Be it smart ones, or dumb ones.
Thanks for tolerating my shit and my behaviour in class.
I'm writing this hear so that I'll always remember them when I read my blogpost.
1) Little rat whatsapp group: Joan, Natalie, Jolene
Thanks For cheering me up and talking rubbish when I'm bored.
2) Amanda and Vivian
3) Xenia and Lynnette
4) Sharlene and Beatrice
5) Marissa and Michelle
6) Greyguides and the rest of 4 Unity
7) Teresa and Clarissa
8) HuiJan and Alicia
Thank you for sticking with me through. While studying.. I'm sorry I can't list everyone here. But You get what I mean. I really want to thank you for making my 2012 happen. All the moments we have together. The fun times. And everything that we did together. Laughter, tears of sadness shed together, tears of joy shed together, studying together, camwhoring together, partying together and being able to tolerate my childishness and foolishness. Thank you for fangirling with me xD, Thank you for recessing with me. Thank you for going to the same school as me. Thank you for forgiving me when I forget to go recess with you guys.  Thank you for jamming with me with the guitar. Thank you for tolerating my horrbile singing.. Thank you for tolerating my grossness during recess. Thank you for studying with me (to beat). Thank you for everything. Especially Amanda. Forever stuck with me. Thank you for accompanying me in 2012.
See you in 2013.. ~



LOL here is my draft...

SO LONG RIGHT. Its actually 3 pieces of paper. HAHA

Just Frustrated

I'm trying to calm myself down by listening to Return by lee seung ki... The Sungha Jung guitar fingerstyle solo version...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mUSmcaESHAE
But I'm just so frustrated with my own schedule and all. I feel that I have to talk to someone.. But if I spam teresa on whatsapp... I think she isn't gonna be happy. And the little rat group haha, they won't understand how I feel. Neither I can I go talk to marissa now because I'm sure she'll get frustrated at me. Nor can I talk to carnation cos she probably can't feel me. I can't talk to shihui too because for sure she can't understand me in this situation... Or like that Huijan/Alicia... So basically I feel very lonely now. The almighty social butterfly who keeps in contact with everyone or talk to everyone is currently feeling really lonely now.

Basically.. this is my schedule leading up to 2013 January:
26/12/12-1/1/13: work
2/1/13-3/1/13: grey guides chalet
3/1/13-10/1/13: work
7/1/13-9/1/13: class chalet
5/1/13: CCA fair
9/1/13: vjc open house
Who knows... 10th for all we all know.. might be results day.
Haven't thought of saturday.. Awards ceremony... to collect my money from MOE. Honestly how did I get the award? (I sound like some money face person 'to collect my money from MOE' well its my money right? Its awarded to me for my hardwork which I have no idea how hard I worked)

Okay... so there are the overlapping dates. Work & class chalet. Work & greyguides chalet. Work & VJC open house. Work & CCA fair.
And I just feel like I shouldn't take up this job knowing that my schedule would end up like this. I did not think of those around me. What about Raphaella? I've yet to go out with her.
Then what about class chalet... Months of planning and meeting up... planning of logistics and it crashes..
Greyguides chalet was an off day for me.
And CCA fair. To think I really look forward to visiting guides and seeing all of my juniors. I really miss them a lot. Even though I bet they don't miss me and work comes...


I'm so frustrated with myself. All I thought of was to work, gain experience and get rid of my 'current' decemember boredom + earn some cash so that I don't have to keep asking my parents for money. I did not think of like my employer who have to go through so much trouble to plan my schedule (I actually told her about both chalets during the interviews.. I guess the others slipped my mind) and like she wants to give me commission but my schedule is just like that.. So I'm thinking of not going for like 5hours of chalet and all.. and maybe not attend the open house since its my responsibility and its my job right? I applied for it and I have to take full responsibility. Then again... I did not think of the consequences when I applied for it. And I'm sure Marissa is gonna be annoyed at me for like disappearing half way and all. And I'll be like really upset that I cannot go for CCA fair.
I just feel so bad for everyone around me.. My parents, my classmates (I've yet to go out with teresa), my guides friends (ayana asked me to go out but I was so tired and its my off, hiking, cycling.. its like my last few times to bond with them), my church friends, not to forget to spend sometime with god, and lastly (I shouldn't) exo and all my bands. (Okay.. I really shouldn't.)

I also feel extremely bad for my employer for having to go through such a hard time just because of me. I'm probably the only employee that give her a huge headache. Its sunday and she have to plan my schedule so I'll benefit the best out of it...

URGHHHHH WHY DO I HAVE TO DO THIS TO EVERYONE. WHY.
IS IT MY PROBLEM?
OR IS IT EVERYONE ELSE'S PROBLEM.
OKAY ITS MY PROBLEM. I GET IT.
I'll get a frustrated Marissa, frustrated employer, and a frustrated everyone else all because of me.
I want the time with my friends, yet I want the money.


really?


The money to feed myself with my wants. And in the end I know that I cannot bare to spend it because its my hard earn stand there for 10 hours and only get 55 bucks money.

So what was I thinking?
I guess thats how the adult working life is.. The ugly side of growing up.
Just so frustrated with myself.

Shine Brighter

Work.
Tiring.
I don't know how to describe my job...

I... LOVE IT!!!!!!!!
I really enjoy it!
But being a promoter is really a tiring but exciting job. Each time I describe the bed sheets that I'm selling and try to promote them and close the deal, I feel damn shiok. Like its so shiok.
However, it was a tiring job. I swear it was really tiring. Standing there for 8-10 hours for 4 straight days is actually extremely tiring.
hehe but I'm taking this on a brighter note! I can lose weight! Since lunch is after 2pm... I eat at 4pm so that I'll just merge lunch and dinner together so that I can cut down on my calorie intake. I'm a freaking genius right! Of course. Plus I save money. The only hard part is when my tummy start to grumble at 1pm since I start work at around 11am or 12pm. But after 2pm-3pm... I actually don't feel hungry anymore. But I'll still have to eat right! Haha.
Besides, I've learnt many sales technique... In order to push the deal and convince them to buy it. And I've seen many different kind of people. Ranging from the ultimate choosy kind that take 1hour to decide on the colors etc to those that take 5minutes to decide. Haha.
Being a slightly impatient person... My heart kinda died when its the 1hour one.. But my default face is like :D so its okay. As long as I can close the deal, I don't mind waiting. But I learnt something!
Just say "Don't worry. Take your time to think. I'll be around here if you need help" and then take 3-4 steps back and go somewhere else and serve other people. :)
Yeap. Okay. I'm going to Isetan next week. From the 26/12/12 to 1/1/13. Its 7 days. In which I get double pay on the 1st. I don't exactly know what to do with the money because I can't bare to spend a single buck on buying something I don't exactly need. Because for 8hours, I only earn 44 bucks a day. What about my lunch and transport. lol. I'm beginning to sound like my mum. LIFE IS HARD.


Anyway. SNSD's comeback pictures are damn good.


But I'm still not a fan. Sorry. Haha. I'm just happy for sones that they get their comeback while EXO haven't get their comeback yet. Its tiring to wait you know? More tiring than my work. I've been waiting since October already.
I really hope that their comeback is after SNSD's.. Because SHINee's comeback is rumoured to be in Feburary.
OMG. I totally sound like a kpop person now.
Particular bands that I fangirl: exo, shinee, suju, B1A4, a bit of BTOBAP (btob and bap.. their dance battle damn good sia and they're so damn hot. zelo, minhyuk yadiyada!)
But I listen to too many... 100%, block B, 10cm, tvxq, BEAST, boyfriend, leeseungki, big bang, 2NE1, f(x), gg, infinite, kara, tara, miss A, wonder girls, BoA, juniel, AoA lalalalalala. Forget it. Too many to list. All the random music that I picked up and any how listen to one. Okay just like anyhow download the album and listen one. haha.

Have you heard this...

Its so good. So good. I read my post I think back a few days ago... That lee seung ki song I was listening to is called return.
Its so damn good. I swear I love it so much. Its so sad, filled with a lot of emotions and meaningful too. Better than his previous album. Its such a pity that people actually think that kpop is rubbish and what not. Or like let snsd, suju, shinee etc the extremely well known ones define kpop. That kpop is full of techno and rubbish. To be honest, its better than english pop now. I used to think that kpop sucked even though the first kpop song I heard was from suju and I think its called Don't Don or something like that when I was in p5/p6...Then in sec one when it was the sorry sorry era.. lol. Its you when ryeowook tripped in the dance video (secretly.. over analysed by obsessed me. and a shadow walking in and out of the video half way. I swear I watched it like 10000 times or something). If I'm not wrong... around 2minutes plus. HAHAHA. I was laughing at it. But I used to love eunhyuk's chest thing.
Thats not the point. I thought lollipop was rubbish haha until it got addictive. Sec 2 was when I had this 5gb worth of kpop in my laptop because raphaella transfered them to my laptop while I was studying so I listened to all of them. Never thought that mr boogie was by f(x)! haha. Okay but that was a horrible song too. Omg in p5/p6 I used to love rain too. And Rainism is damn good.
Basically, I listen to songs that people will not listen no matter how good it is because its not by a famous or known band or person. Like I was talking to marissa once.. (no offence, marissa) that she said that she don't understand why people like kpop. Is it because of looks or what. Yeah. Looks. But thats not the point. They can sing. Do you think I'll actually like groups that is all about looks and can't sing? No what. Do I like girl groups that are just about looks? Do you think that some boys are actually good looking?
To be honest right, baekhyun is not really good looking on stage you know. Thats just the looks. But the way he brings himself on stage is very different, very charasmatic.
Kyuhyun is not as perfect as ever too you know? His face is not smooth like always. Can tell that he used to have quite a bit of acne issue. (I'm sorry if I offend. Kyu is my bias)
Sandeul got that derp look.. Not the goodlooking boy everyone is looking for you know.
Its the way they carry themself on stage. Something I just don't really get with english pop... Okay there are the xfactor ones that are really good.. And then there is one direction, ed sheeran, bieber. Yes bieber is quite charasmatic on stage. (I hope I don't feel ashsamed when I read this and whatever I said above in the future. To the future... me)



OMG and call me slow. This year's DJEARWORM SHINEBRIGHER... (UNITED STATE OF POP 2012) IS DAMN GOOD.
I know all the songs.... in and out. :P

Its super good! cut away all the techno part, mash them up together. Totally what I'd like! Its pretty good! And I can jam to it cos I know how to play all the songs there. hehe.
But I wished that live while we're young is in it too...



I'm scared to go to work next week.. New environment, all by myself without aunty lucy or whoever...
Like no one else to show me how to clock in and everything.
I'm really scared. I'm so scared. You don't understand how I actually feel. I'm very scared. I enjoy my job but I'm very scared at isetan... What if I get lost.. or dk how to punch my card or where to go or what. And no one to ensure that I don't mess up sticking price tags... I'm very scared that I mess up you know. I did this before and all but I'm still scared on my own.
Never mind. xmas first!!!!

Went to eat bibimbab with shihui and vivian yesterday. Not as good as korea's but its damn shiok. I love it!

craving for it. whootwhoot!
Shopped yesterday and I want to buy a lot of stuff but its not a neccessity. So.. NO. DONT WASTE MONEY.

HAHA. okay. byebye!

Just thought I would do this for fun

Which EXO member that you are similar to?
Suho:
[ ] You like golf
[ ] You’re polite and considerate
[ ] Favorite movie is Pirates of the Caribbean
[ ] You’re good at making honey water
[x] Always checking up on friends and family for problems
[ ] Like acting
[x] Weak with personal talents
[x] You’re favorite song from EXO’s album is Angel/Into Your World
[x] You like to read on your free time
[ ] You’re born in May

TOTAL: 4/10

Baekhyun:
[ ] You play the piano well
[ ] Used to be in a school band
[x] You’re bright and cheerful
[x] You like to socialize
[ ] Fashion style is usually tidily casual
[x] Favorite types of movies: SF, fantasy, action
[ ] You’re into acting
[ ] You can sing very high
[ ] You think eyeliner makes you look feminine
[ ] You’re a hardcore girl group lover

TOTAL: 3/10

Chanyeol:
[x] You can play many instruments (3?)
[ ] You can rap
[ ] You’re a romantic person
[x] Habit of following rhythms with your hands
[x] Bright person with positive personality
[x] Passionate about learning and playing different instruments
[ ] You’re voice is charming
[x] Laugh out of nowhere
[ ] You can beatbox
[ ] Favorite color is black

TOTAL: 5/10

D.O:
[x] Like to be clean
[x] You like to cook (er yeah. but I screw up all the time.)
[x] You’re a quiet person (i have contrastic personalities k. Quiet when I want to. But I talk a lot cos I hate awkward moments)
[x] You’re deep on the inside
[x] You’re a sharp person
[x] Habit of humming songs
[x] Favorite food: Spaghetti
[x] You have great English Pronounciation (I speak english.. does that mean anything?)
[ ] You take/took vocal lessons
[x] Style: Casual

TOTAL: 9/10

Kai:
[ ] Dancing machine
[ ] People think that you’re sexy
[ ] Bossy
[ ] Really good at games
[x] Can’t express feelings that well (I express :D or >:( then again people take it as a joke cos I look like a joke haha)
[ ] Warm-hearted
[ ] Habit of licking/biting lips
[ ] Likes shirts with characters on it
[ ] You have a dog(s)
[ ] You get scared very easy

TOTAL: 1/10

Sehun:
[ ] You have a lisp
[ ] You’re the youngest amongst your friends
[ ] You love to cry
[x] Habit of sticking tongue out
[x] Shy at first, lively when well-known
[x] Can’t stay still (totally. Can't even sit properly)
[x] You’re not scheming/manipulative
[ ] You like to dress neat
[x] You like sushi and meat
[x] You like colors black and white (I don't like black but I like black and white)

Total: 6/10

Xiumin:
[x] You have a chubby face
[x] You’re strong
[x] Your clean and neat
[ ] You want a huggable person
[ ] You like ballads the most
[ ] People mistake you as Chinese (I got people asking me if I'm malay, indonesian chinese, vietnamese.... I don't know why)
[x] You have a cute grin
[x] Your favorite song from their album is MAMA (lol.. the entire album is my favourite)
[x] You have cute nicknames
[x] You make a lot of cute/funny gestures

TOTAL: 7/10

Luhan:
[x] Mistaken that you’re younger than you really are (I don't understand why)
[x] Easy going
[x] Don’t like it when people are on your bed (actually.. in fact.. I hate it. I don't fold my blanket but I hate it when people mess up my not folded blanket or sit on my bed... while I admit that I love sitting on people's bed haha)
[x] Rubik Cube genius (2min can?)
[x] Like simple clothes
[ ] Favorite sport is soccer
[x] Very lazy
[x] Catch colds easily (fml :( I always force myself to drink a lot of water. Especially during the Olevel period. 2-3litres a day)
[x] Natural curly hair
[x]Scared of heights (issue here: I'm not scared of roller coasters and in fact I'm like smiling and laughing throughout the entire ride with my 2 fingers up.. reading to take a pic... but I'm scared of heights.. I swear I can't climb those playground shits)

TOTAL: 9/10

Kris:
[ ] Tallest amongst your friends
[x] Like reading inspirational books (omg.. they helped me through the Olevel period k.. and Ms law was like "Why are you reading a book now. so much time uh!" -_-)
[x] Very social (shy but social. sure. I am)
[ ] You sleep talk
[ ] Can do magic tricks
[ ] Naive
[x]Obedient (I am ok. Just that I rebel a bit)
[x] Favorite song from their mini album is What Is Love
[ ] Fashion King/Queen
[x] You know more than one language (english, abit fail chinese, abit of malay, abit of Korean.. I can read korean. But.. I DONT KNOW WHAT IT MEANS HAHAHAHAA.)

TOTAL: 5/10

Lay:
[x] You can play more than one instrument (guitar, ukulele, abit of piano?)
[ ] An all-rounder
[x] Naughty
[x] Funny at times
[x] Forgetful
[ ] Can cook very well
[x] Slow reaction
[ ] Training maniac
[x] Like eating junk food
[ ] You can’t keep a secret

TOTAL: 6/10

Chen:
[ ] Specialty is singing high notes
[ ] You give an impression of gentleness
[x] You like to wear simple clothes
[ ] You have a powerful voice
[ ] You can play the piano (I won't say I know how to play. I can play. By hearing. Just a bit.)
[x] Gentle
[ ] You have a soft laugh
[x] You’re a bit shy
[x] Born in September
[x]Favorite song from their album is MACHINE

TOTAL: 5/10

Tao:
[x] Likes to take care of their body
[ ] Knows wushu
[ ] Likes to take long walks on the beach
[ ] Likes cats
[x] Likes drinking Starbucks Coffee
[ ] Conservative person
[x] Sensitive
[x] Like Western Food
[ ] Favorite color is blue
[x] Full of aegyo

TOTAL: 5/10





D.O/LUHAN.

Didn't see that coming for luhan. HAHA.
My ultimate bias. whooot!
Baek is my ultimate for exo k.. but :\


how to chew soda.. ft luahn.

adorable baekyyy


bye! work tmr!

60 seconds

I was thinking about my future.
O level results are starting to creep me out.
If I don't do well... my dentist career will be gone. So I'm thinking... maybe I could do a few things in life. Probably something that I enjoy.
So I was thinking....
If I don't want to spend my life staring at the screen doing admin work, and if I don't want to spend my life doing mass comm or infomation technology (its like a work that require my ass planted on the chair)...maybe I can be a hairdresser/hair stylist?
Bet everyone reading this will never ever go to my shop right?
But I like to style people's hair. I may not be good at it but I can learn! Besides... I like to look at people's hair and wonder how they'll look like with different hairstyles.
I don't mind speaking to customers too. And it doesn't require me to sit around.

Perhaps... I can be a garden designer/gardener?
Okay thats just plain ridiculous. I've always wanted to create my own garden and grow lots of pretty plants.
Not only that, I see different stuff!!! Like different plants and all.
But working in Singapore as a garden designer is equilvalent to nothing right? Maybe I can take care of the plants in garden by the bay? There is like nothing much in Singapore to take care off or design right?
And do people just look down on someone taking care of grasses and trees?
I kind of respect them because without them, Singapore will be tree-less. And I know that they don't much. Even the future me won't earn much. Oh and can help to save the earth! :D
Or I can go overseas and help people design their gardens and once its done, I can come back to Singapore. Do abit of hairdressing and off to help people take care of their flowers, fruits and plants.
So its like 2 jobs at one go?

Okay... If I get through Olevels, Alevels and University...
either I'll be a dentist or a plastic surgeon.
But maybe plastic surgeon will be too much for me because I might screw up the person's face. I don't want to like keep doing someone's nose over and over again. The thought of helping people to do a nose job is okay but the thought of seeing them after the nose job might disgust me.
Apparently, I come to a point to accept double eyelids and a nose job. But injecting stuff into people's lips and body... Maybe not. I'll see if I can accept the fact....
So probably dentist will be a good one.
Then I can take up gardening as a past time or something. Or hairdressing.

I hope that when I read this post in the future... After my Olevel results, after my Alevel results/diploma, I hope that I'll make the right choice.
Maybe I might change my opinion in the future. I might. Who knows what the future holds.
Who knows that the almighty michievous me may end up as a teacher. Come to think of it... I might just be a joke.