Can we pretend that light bulbs on the ceilings are shooting stars?

I went almost insane walking 4 rounds around the track, memorising rivers and a bit of history. Yes, I'm really insane. First was the 300 tiptoes and 30dips on Monday and now is the 2km walk. I even take the turning points around the track as meanders and even came out with all the processes of lateral erosion. Not to forget my floodplain and levees. Taking the track as the river. The grass patch on both sides are the floodplains and the white thing is my levee! 

I think I'm getting really really really insane. Imagine I walked 2km and memorized like no ones business. And pointing to the track and 'talked' to the track. Hey, it works okay. As in for me la. Not to forget that there was only Beatrice and I and 3 other friends, Evangeline, Zhen Yi and JiaZhen! Think we are really going insane explaining geographical terms using our school track and all. 

I'm really living in the world of books. How interesting can this be.. Rivers, Earthquake, Fascism, Covalent bonding, Ionic bonding, metallic bonding, high melting point, low boiling point, high velocity, low velocity, higher friction, lower friction, wetted perimeter, logarithms, Richter scale, epicenter, kinematics, increasing velocity, freefall, don't support militarism, precipitation, modulus functions, gravity=10ms-2, vector addition, surds, indices, ln, healthcare systems, government subsidies, medisave, medifunds, precipitation, and I take LOG every where and at any time. The answer come out = WRONG. YAY! 

See. If you realised. There are graphs in rivers, amath, emath, and kinematics. Bravo.

And the word velocity is repeated all over the place in kinematics and rivers.

The word magnitude is repeated in vector addition (physics) and earthquake.

The word precipitation is repeated in Chemistry and Rivers. 

Conclusion: I'm young and really dumb. Sometimes, I really wonder why am I doing something that I don't really like to do at all and I'm doing it for the sake of doing it. Well, there is a + point to it that going to school = make, bond and play with friends & learning how to co-operate and all. And of course giving us some essential knowledge we need.

But, then, there is this -point that we are getting stress. 5 weeks before the CAs, I have 1 pimple. 2 weeks before the CAs, 8 more appears. I'm really sleep deprived. And My head is getting heavier as the days pass by. 

Can't we just chose something we really like to do? I wanna be a producer or something. Or like a dentist. But I guess, I won't suit dentist because I won't have the knowledge. Looking at the GP and all. But being a dentist, I can go like overseas and help the poor little kids do their teeth and maybe some re-structuring. Instead of being a producer which all I can do is to make videos to show the world about their state which is totally not doing anything. 

But seriously... I wish we can do something more interesting other than sitting in class staring at white boards and screens. Makes my eyes, ears and head feel so heavy. Especially my eyes. They are so worn out from looking at the screen, then looking down at the book, then looking up and looking down and my hand trying to copy furiously so that I can catch what the teacher is talking.

And you can't blame me for not being able to multi-task so fast! Some people do have a disadvantage okay. I'm not like some 200% IQ person or a robot. 

GAHHH. And I'm left with 4 days to the start of CAs. I'm so scared. I'm done with the humanities? Like left with 3/4 of history and Sri Lanka case studies for SS. And I'm still screwed for math. And I think I wasted a lot of time here talking about crap. I think I head is lighter now after typing out all my thoughts that have been running through my head for the past 2 days. 

Today mission is to do emath and amath and another 1/4 of history.

Tomorrow's mission is The other half of history and emath and amath once again. 

Saturday will be studying with fen if I'm not wrong. Shall do Chem, Amath and Emath.

Sunday revise history, srilanka, healthcare, amath, chem and emath.

Monday revise rivers, earthquake and screw my mind up for CAs. 

I hope they don't test questions that make my mind get screwed. But I started earlier for my CAs like since March holidays? And ya, I'm one day faster than my original planned schedule. 

Okay, go study. And I won't be back till Sunday. Neither will I be using the computer for the next few days. And I'm gonna throw my phone to one side. 

Bye! 

She walks down the aisle like a pageant queen

I'll sound like a bimbo or something in this post but I NEED TO GO SHOPPING NOW. I'm so shopping deprived that when I walk past cotton on in J8 to get to the bus interchange, my lethargic eyes will open up as if there are diamonds and sapphires right in front of me. Not to forget, I'm not even a fan of cotton on. The material isn't of quality at all. And the clothes there are freaking common! That is how deprived I am. I haven't walked around in a mall for fun ever since school started. 

Thats really really very bad for your information.

The last time I watched a movie was Gnomeo and Juliet with Carnation Kng that epic flower. And I'm definitely going for a movie marathon during the holidays. 

Exactly one week or less than one week to my CA2. There is this kind of anxiety that will never disappear. -___- And it will when the world ends. Joking joking. It will only disappear when I get my PPR back. There is always this feeling that I don't do well or something. I think I fear more of the results than the paper. I get the nightmares and all after the paper. Not before the paper. And I'm sure that I studied hard for it. But my heart will just (not literally) jump out from my throat whenever the teacher returns a paper or something. Especially when the teacher said "There are xxx failures in your class". The moment when she says the word failures. Damn... My brain starts getting really heavy for no reason, my heart starts beating really fast. And that night, nightmare. Its kind of a cycle that will never stop ever since the EOYS, and followed by the recent CA1 last term. It never happened. Not even when I received my PSLE results. I fear that I'll fail my English. Perhaps it partially my fault that I pass English off as a subject that is not content based. But it is the fact that I read my readers digest every night and I tried to take note of the sentence form and try to understand the passage into deeper meanings. YES AND WHAT CAME OUT FOR CA1 WAS A C5. Quite a pathetic state you know... 

Okay. I should actually stop scaring myself and going crazy. Before mummy comes back, I'm going to go into isolation to study. Uh, like what I did in the afternoon, just that I'm not going down to the void deck to study. Hahaha. Jonas gave me that idea to do that. But yeah. Quite scary that must sit properly and all. Other than that, its rather breezy and comfy and PERFECTLY GREAT for a student like me. And I hate data plan. It distracts me. I'm going to throw my phone into some unknown place or put it at the far end of my house so that I won't touch it at all. 

Bye!

Dance then, wherever you may be. I'm the lord of the dance said he.

They cut me down, but I lept up high.

I am the life that'll never never die

And I'll live in you if you'll live in me.

I am the Lord of the dance," said he

HAPPY EASTER!

Yeah? Jesus risen from the dead. 

Anyway, I'm one day ahead of my schedule which is rather good!

So I plan to finish rivers by 26th of April and Finish history by the 28th of April. And whatever it is, I gotta work hard and do my best for my CA2 before I can do my post CA2 activities. YAY! (:

Yeap. And the first thing I'm gonna do is to go shopping. Haven't like spend time in shops and look around since 2011 started. This shows how busy I am. ): 

And I'm trying to contain my need to watch a movie too. I feel like a deprived kid for no reason.

Besides that, I have a life! 

I think my June holiday schedule is more or less up! 

I'm going to Langkawi from the 28th of may to the 31st of May.

And from the 6th to the 9th of June will be guides camp :D

After that will be CC1 camp from the 11th of June to the 13th of June. HAHA. Facilitating the secones.

Next up will be CC3 camp from the 26th-28th of June. 

The rest will be :| Mugging, shopping and slacking. 

Good Friday is complete.

Alright. Yeap, its good friday.

The Friday that Jesus died for our sins when we are the sinners and not him. 

And its completed at around 3pm when Jesus gave his spirit up and it rained and the temple broke into half. And yeap, it rained.

It happens every good Friday at around 3pm or in the afternoon without fail. And it rained at 3pm. 

No meat, no feast.

The best is what you feel.

Finally got the time to update. 

Actually, no. I don't. I'm just updating because I feel like slacking. So I decided to update for readers to read before I MIA till the end of the week. ): 

This week is so STRESS. Its basically 2 more weeks to CA2. And guess what? I'm not done with history notes. D: And I'm only done with pure geography and social studies. 

Yeap, And I haven't settled my math yet. And amath. And not to mention memorise my chemistry and physics. I'm getting all confused! Like the more people ask me questions, the more I get all messed up. Imagine the words and information are all jumbled up in my head. I better write down questions to ask teachers. While in the meantime, I gotta do my history notes and practice Amath. I must finish history notes really really by this Sunday. And memorise Earthquakes by this Sunday. And practice emath by this Sunday.

Which brings me to the next point that. I have no time, to memorise finish geography. And so...

Yeap. Gotta go and memorise my work now before Mrs Toh comes after me when she returns me my paper. Followed by Ms Lye, Ms Yee, Mr Tan, Mr Gan, Mrs Seah, Mr Wong, Mrs Lim, Ms Waheeda my parents and not to forget... ME. I can go after myself one kay! 

So many things to do after CA2! 

I wanna explore what is inside my computer and all. Teehee. Better not screw up my hard disk. My father will probably not fix my computer up. And I wanna go shopping and watch movies. And... I wanna do all the things I want to do. 

Yeap... So gotta go study. Bye! ;)