16 July 2013

Inception

Destiny is really a pretty good song. It reminds me of some anime that I watched before though. I think it was 4 years ago or something. I remember 5% of it.

Its been 1-2 weeks after CTs and after getting back all my results, I'm glad to say that I've passed this exam. But the scariest part of it is that... I've no idea how I managed to pass with ABC/BD.
Which was surprisingly better than my MSA results. The fact that promos are merely 8 weeks away makes term 3 feel terrible.
Besides, I had Chinese oral today and I feel okay but I'm really upset cos the examiner kept cutting me off )': and everyone else had 3 questions while I had 2. Well, whatever. Its over and there is still Chinese listening comprehension next week and many lecture tests coming up... PW is creeping on me too.

oh well, basically, term 3 sux. Its a boring term.

Went back to St Nicks on the 5th of July, the Friday after our common tests and caught up with everyone.
 
Back then, life in st nicks was really good. Too comfortable to the extent that I could walk around barefooted just because my shoes were wet... or sitting on 2 benches and aunty would always give me extra food because they know me for 10 years.
Caught up with Amanda Neo and Carnation Kng the most because we haven't seen each other since 5ever and I really wanna meet Vivian. I miss fooling around with Vivian and having Amanda nagging at us or giving us the WTH look. Didn't get to see Ms Yee which made me feel unaccomplished for the entire week because I wanted to tell her about JC chem! hehe and how I got my questions answered in JC. Being someone who ask a lot of questions, life feels good when my questions are answered! [And show her that I've matured a little bit more. Though I'm still as playful as ever.] Ate orange bowl and chicken rice... A lot... I know. But I can't help it. I've been eating orange bowl for 10 years and its my 11th year lol.
 
 
Summing up, my life is reallyyyyy boooorrriinggggggg.
A huge pile of tutorials just dropped on me and hence, I've to go and complete them as soon as possible.
#Nowplaying INFINITEmydestiny

04 July 2013

Breaking News

BOYS MEET U on replay :*

I've been sick from 15 June to 28 June. And it was probably something you wouldn't want in the middle of the holidays.
Firstly, my fever only came at night. Next, it was pretty high at 38.6 deg cel and I had NO sore throat. So I thought that it was because I was tired but it turned out that the fever came the subsequent 2-3 nights and so I told my parents. Of course I got scolded yadiyadablablabla so my dad brought me down to the clinic on the 19th of June to take the blood test because my mum was so paranoid that I've dengue and that I was going to die soon.
I feared needles. Trust me... the doctor took forever to calm me and then took forever to find my vein and poke me so many times. He gave me this medicine that look like M&N and it was a lot stronger than panadol because I couldn't take panadol and he had no choice. Well... little did I know that the medicine had side effects on me.
I had another blood test on the 22th because my fever was being really stubborn and the other doctor and 2 other nurses took forever to find a vein and took forever to calm me again. It wasn't dengue anyway...The fever did subside by sunday night, the 23rd but headache kicked in and it was pretty bad because I couldn't sleep.
Usually, when someone is having a headache, all they could do was to lie on their bed and sleep but all I could do was to curl up on my bed and try to calm myself because it was so painful. It was so painful that I couldn't study. My dreams were all very bad because it involves the headache. It went on for 2-3 nights and I started vomiting after. I seriously thought that I was going to die because I couldn't even eat or drink properly and the headache was killing me so badly that I couldn't even reply simple whatsapp messages. My parents then took me to the Chinese doctor which prescribed me super cool medicine. My appetite returned after that but I puked the medicine out. (I was really hopeless) and what I puked was the EXACT PILL out.
So my mum tried natural remedies. Peppermint tea, apple, papaya... It isn't funny. 2 fruits that I hate the most: PAPAYA and DURIAN. I still puked them out... but peppermint helps to restore my appetite! I wrote how many times I vomited each day on my school diary too. Alright I eventually recovered by Friday/Saturday and really started studying for Common Tests.
I'm NOT gonna fall sick again. 2 litres of water a day and no fried food till I die.
Who am I kidding. Just gonna take good care of myself from now on... No one wants history to repeat itself.
yanilavigne:

(Quotes here)
Anyway, common tests are over. Though I only studied for 6-7 days and a bit here and there when I was sick (not that bad but could cope), I felt so unprepared because I didn't study finish my favourite subject. I was frustrated then.
I really was. My H1 is my FAVOURITE SUBJECT. I didn't take geography as a H2 because there simply wasn't any such combination offered and besides, I don't need geography to become a dentist! Last night was really depressing because I really wanted to #YOLO and quit geography and just solely concentrate on physics but I simply couldn't bring myself to quit geography because I need to continue getting A/B for my geography (continuation from secondary school) and I really like geography. It doesn't make sense to fail a subject that you like. I gave up geography in the end at like 2am because even if I get A for geog... its 10 points only which is a H2 pass and I'd rather pass physics with 10 points or more. But hey, I tried studying for geog and I'm so proud of myself.
Well, I didn't regret much though I #YOLO-ed during the paper and invented my own ways to mitigate and measure earthquake because I have no content. Wait.... I think I have... it came naturally because newspaper always got report this kind of stuff but it wasn't a lot. (I didn't remember them intentionally when I read the news) Alright basically, geography paper was slipshod work. Every subject was just like meh. I didn't prepare much and all I was for is a pass for my 3H2s because I pushed myself even when I was sick and I feel that I deserved something. At least a pass right?

Today was a great day (I looked over at my cup and I realized that I barely drank water today) because exams officially ended for now (12 days to Alevel Chinese oral) and I actually went out. (2 weeks of being coped up at home and then studying for exams....)
A big thank you to...
for making my day! xxxxxxxxxx Watched despicable me 2 today and though the movie wasn't really good, the minions were cute and I absolutely enjoyed the movie. Went to eat baskin robbins after that with Rosa, Yanting, Janessa, Jason, Bryan and Jared and finally ate my candy floss icecream that I've been craving for since I was sick. (blame bryan for sending me that picture)
Anyway, I hope that we'll all go out together and bond more. (Hopefully Vanessa and Bijuan can join us) I bet the next time we'll go out together will be like after Promos/after Chinese As/after PW. And I'm looking forward!

By the way, I've recently read I've got your number and I find this book really hilarious and I'm totally in love with the main characters, Poppy and sam. Though the story didn't unfold the way I wanted (like her other books) but this book has its own plus points! Well, every book can't end up the same way right? I can't wait to get my hands on the book she recently published- Wedding night though the ratings were horrible. (The storyline didn't really attract me though).

Looking forward-
Term 3 has officially started and I'm going to make the best out of it!
I'll survive term 3. I'll survive all SPAS, all PW, all YFC, all CHINESE, everything. Every challenge that I'm bound to meet will be challenged.
 
She's dazzling~~

18 June 2013

Timeless

I meant to blog on Saturday but things took to an unexpected turn so I'm blogging today.
Its week 3 of the June holidays and I don't think I'm screwed. Maybe I am if I compared myself to those people who are free and have the entire holidays to mug but I'm not (self-comfort). Because there are people who have been wasting their time. (Well, while they were wasting their time, I've been staying up till 2-3am to finish some work because my days were all packed.)

10/06/13 Monday:
Advocates local CIP programme day 1 (In lieu of our OCIP trip to Vietnam).
Basically, we had to clean the school and it was a difficult task because there was simply so much to clean (dirt between lecture theatre chairs and all. OCD people can't stand it) and I didn’t really know where to start from. Besides, I seldom do the housework at home apart from trying to keep my room as neat as possible. (which obviously failed because I've piles of papers and books all over my table and I figured that I've to take a day off from studying to pack it up or its going to be a major obstruction when it comes to studying because I'll have to spend around 5-10 minutes to dig for something).
Basically, the aim was to actually just to be able to empathize the aunty and uncles in our school and to be able to better feel that I should take ownership of my surroundings and spare a thought for the aunty and uncles in our school because they had to clean up after our mess and it was certainly not an easy job even with 20+ of us. In fact, most of us were inexperienced when it comes to cleaning including me.
However, after cleaning the lecture theatres (which was super dusty), I really feel that we should take ownership of the school property because I realized that many people just leave tissue paper, sweet rappers and other forms of rubbish in between the seats. I felt disgusted as I never thought that it would be that bad until I had to clean them and I really pity the aunty and uncles and I figured that everyone have to do a part in at least keeping the seat connectors clean.
Evan, Denise, Ngan and I then left early to buy our items for our street sales at night. (Last minute people -__-) It was the most rushed out planned in which Evan, our event manager, called for a trial on Monday and guess we really did it. Shamelessly printing stuff from the school printer (well, its free as long as we have our papers) and recycling stuff from the trophy room. After, all of us plus a few more advocates (Monique, Weilin, Bona, Randy, Jae Eun, Xin Siang) went with us all the way down to Orchard to do our street sales in which we were selling lightsticks with the theme, light up our city, light up their (elderly) world. and in fact, we did a pretty good job (plus Evan's friend, Isaac) despite everything being rushed and it took some time for us to warm up and dare to approach people to buy stuff from us. :)
By the way, I've also learnt that we must always persevere because despite being rejected by khong guan, our email, letter and personal visit paid off and khong guan actually agreed to sponsor us ice gems ;D and honestly I was so high after reading it at 2am that night after finishing a physics paper that I died for day 2's programme. :(
11/06/13 Tuesday:
Advocates local CIP programme day 2.
Woke up at 6 and went straight to the willing hearts kitchen and it was something I wasn’t interested in because honestly, I was so worried that I’d destroy the kitchen. Considering the fact that I can’t even cook Maggie noodles or pour hot water properly and that I couldn't really find meaning in packing food or cooking vegetables. What made me dislike the entire kitchen the most was that I didn’t know what was going on half the time. Everyone was telling me different stuff such as scoop this into the rice and don’t scoop that and vice versa and then we get scolded double. I really wanted to do my job properly but then again, I really didn’t know what was going on and I really wanted to ultimately serve those at the receiving end properly. Indeed it was tiring (4hours of sleep the night before) and what I enjoyed most was plucking the vegetables!
Big sweep after was much more meaningful especially at the second aunty’s house(First Aunty wasn't around) because though it was just Monique and I… Struggling with Chinese… without other group members… Monique and I managed to successfully entertain aunty. I figured that the food we packed at the kitchen was probably transferred to the aunty here who does not have enough money to support herself. With this, I felt that what I did in the morning was useful despite getting annoyed because I really didn’t know what was going on ¾ the time did not go to waste and in fact I felt that I’ve helped them to pack the food so that these people get their food and without us, the elderly/people at the receiving end will not be able to receive enough food. What made me regret the most was me falling asleep while Monique and I were teaching and singing songs with the aunty. Because according to Monique, Aunty was sad.


Though I woke up after that, I felt really guilty afterwards because I didn’t get to entertain aunty for 30minutes out of 2hours (I made aunty sad) and I really wished that I could repeat that day again so that I wouldn’t make that mistake again. Though we sang songs after that and like I taught aunty new songs and everything, I’d still want a redo because I shouldn’t have fallen asleep during big sweep (I know that I deserve getting scolded and yes, I deserve it. I'm embarrassed but I feel that this should be here because it will serve as a reminder to myself in the future.) and honestly, I don’t want to stop big sweep because the aunty was so happy after that when we left that words couldn’t explain how I feel. I want to make the next big sweep better. All in all, I felt that I’ve grown closer to aunty (despite struggling with Chinese here and there) much more because aunty opened up and we really enjoyed ourselves.

12/06/13 Wednesday:
Advocates local CIP programme day 3.
Ubin for the happy girl. So we went to ubin for the last day of the programme to learn more about nature and this dog followed us from the jetty to chek jawa. We named him Johnson. I think it was the dog that I touched and then I got nagged at Ms Ho for. It followed us all the way, waited for us when we stopped and all and I could really tell that it was disappointed that it was unable to follow us back on the road to the jetty.
I enjoyed myself running round or jumping around on the way to jetty because I basically had overflowing energy and I couldn't wait to move around and play.
 On the way to ubin
 Old bicycle discarded in the sea (near the shore?/below the jetty? Somewhere that people can't just go down to pick it up...)
 Johnson when we first saw him.
 Tons of discarded plastic bottles on the way to chek jawa ):
End of our trip around the mangroves!
Pictures with all the advocates:
I totally have to go back there to bike! Some day at the end of the year bah! :D (I'm in black HAHAHA)
It was like a geography field trip and I enjoyed it so much that I really want to go back to ubin and dance around in the sun again. No joke okay. I saw mangroves and all and I instantly became excited!
Watched Now You see me with the advocates and I was totally mindblown by the show. In fact, its better than inception! (Maybe because I could get the plot better and I was following it intensely until the last part when I lose concentration and lost the plot) but after having Monique explain to me the last part and all, I was totally mind blown. Its worth to watch and its in fact my first movie in months? I think.. I can't remember any other movies that I watched. I think its just this and I do not regret wasting 3hours just to watch it because I enjoyed the revelation of the story. :B
 
13/06/13 Thursday:
Met up with Sharlene and Beatrice ;D
I really miss these 2 poops a lot. I miss studying together on Sundays though we're still taking almost the same subjects (I took geog, they took econs) I still hope that we can study together but we're all so busy that it took us some time to even meet up.
I actually miss fooling around in the playground. I still remember Beatrice's cycle challenge which obviously she sucks at cycling. LOL took her forever to cycle finish 1 round around active while Shar and I took 3-4times faster than her.
 
14/06/13 Friday:
Nicole goes shopping with ShiHui.
Shopaholic Nic strikes and hit the stores. After having the urge to shop for like months, I've finally gone shopping and I've spent a lot of money on Friday. I don't even dare to check what is left in my bank account. I got a feeling its not good. I'll just check it when my allowance come in (self-comfort) and now, I must hide in a hole and not step into orchard (which is obviously not possible).
Well, I don't think I bought a lot but I bought a lot. 2 tops, 1 bag, 1 jacket, a pair of sunglasses. Its not a lot but somehow $$$ is a lot. :( I went out with the mindset, "DO NOT HESITATE TO SPEND" HAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAAHAHA.
Anyway, had street sales at night and we had many volunteers. (I'll probably reflect it on a later date) but YFC is so stressful now and there are times that I feel like giving up because its taking up much of my time and I can't agree with my teammates here and there (well, I didn't want to repackage the stuff). Come on, we got no time :( I know where I'm standing and I know the amount of effort that I've to put in for each subject so I shouldn't get judged for studying too much because clearly I've to work a bit more than everyone else to achieve average. And I work on consistency. I don't rush everything, neither do I leave everything to the last minute. Alevel Chinese Oral MUST STUDY ONE.
Caught up with my juniors and celebrated exo's first win together with Joan and her friend, yitong.
That's it for the week. Had a productive weekend ;)
And pray hard that my fever goes down and all. :\ I need to collect my biscuits from khong guan. Time to do some chemistry and math ;D Yesterday's geog 'day' camp was terrible lol. 4hours of geog is enough to scare me because its so content-ish. HAHA.
 

07 June 2013

I'm trapped

This whole week sucks. Monday was terrible, Tuesday was terrible, Wednesday was horrendous, Thursday was terrible and Friday (today) is terrible.
Everyday is terrible and I'm not in a mood to actually talk to anyone especially during camp.

I feel that people should learn to be humble yeah? This whole leadership summit was an eye opener because I've experienced so many things that I've not felt in 3 days. Proud people, noisy people, whinny people, people who can't take things seriously... yadiee yadaa. Some people are so damn proud that I sometimes wonder who got them to where they are and if they are really passionate of who they are serving or just for the sake of portfolio.

Okay to be honest, I spent most of my time on YFC and I've learnt so much more than the leadership summit. The world is an indeed a scary place. Talk about being really daring, sending out many mails requesting for sponsorship and nothing in return. Talk about money and how the world really works. Its not simple. Today's amazing grace was an eye opener which made me feel really terrible.
what struck me was this line "is it free?"
We were giving out post cards with notes of encouragement written on it and people just rejected it and some only accepted it because its free. So people only care if its free... Then I had this thought: What will happen if I'm trying to raise funds for an organization, trying to promote a cause. Will people be willing to spend money to buy it?
Honestly, I feel really terrible now because my YFC team and I went straight to khong guan to knock on the doors to ask about our sponsorship letter and they just told us they rejected it which I feel that they could have at least emailed to tell us that they rejected it so that our trip would not be wasted.  But its the harsh reality. Money, financial budget... Its not as simple as what we think.

I've no idea what I'm rambling about but many thoughts came across my mind throughout the whole of today. And honestly, I've learnt a lot because of these difficulties we're currently facing and I still think that we can still be the change even though its not easy in this fast moving society. I've a feeling that there will be more of such shitty weeks and shitty days in term 3 because there will be YFC, Alevel Chinese Oral, PW, Common Test, Chem SPA, Physics SPA.

This is really scary...

31 May 2013

啊~怎么办好!

No, this will not be in Chinese. But I found that line quite relatable now. Instead of What's going on. (you can skip the first part of this because I'm fangirling)
In my previous entry which was like 16 days ago, I mentioned that I really want EXO to comeback and I've probably mentioned the same thing my previous posts since forever.
So the good news is... on this faithful day, 16 May 2013, SM decided to upload 2 pictures and say that they're coming back. Like seriously. I was too happy that I couldn't control myself because I've simply waited for too long.
And yesterday was the faithful day that exo has comeback and their stage was a little too small but it was amazing.
Though I didn't watch it live or whatever, I'm just happy that they finally comeback and I've been counting down. While people countdown to common test, I countdown to exo's comeback. By the way its really good okay. All their hair color *-* so luhan's was not grey, baek's was not blonde and everything else is the way I wanted EXCEPT KAI. But their comeback is too good okay.
 

what actually happened the last 16 days. Unfortunately, I wasn't camping in a hole and I wasn't swallowed by a giant centipede either.
I was preparing hard for their comeback. Who am I kidding. I was doing tutorials. duh. Even though there was the announcement of exo's comeback and all I was still stressed because everything was starting to pile on me again.
1) EOM
2) Chinese exam???
3) GP paper (today)
4) Mission to understand gravitation
5) completing chemistry tutorials because they finished one entire chapter within 1.5 hours.
6) completing math tutorials because application of differentiation can kill me at the moment. Every question took me years to complete. I'm very worried for my common test when June is over. And I think I deserve a standing ovation because I juggled...
7) YFC.
Dear Vivian, YFC is youth for causes and not youth fan-club even though I've been fangirling for the past 24 hours.
YFC certainly took up quite a bit of time because of the meetings with the VWO, visiting the elderly and I really want to write a post on my visit but it dragged on for 2 weeks that I can't really remember what went on anymore. Now that YFC has officially launched, more will be expected of me I guess. But its all going to be worth it. I'm doing something meaningful in my life apart from studying and not contributing anything to the society. I can't spend hours sitting beside daddy, on his tablet (Because I'm too lazy to use mine) and go like 我是wolf一头wolf, awooooo ah saranghaeyo 你是美女我是狼 for the next 30 days right. I need to practise self control...

Anyway, the term has officially ended and this term was a matter of surviving for me because I had too many things going on and I didn't really know what was going on most of the time and I was just going with the flow. However, I've found a pretty effective way of studying (actually, I knew about it but I haven't been doing it) but it is really effective and I can actually find time here and there to watch we got married and running man. LOL I actually do whatever the teacher teach during the lecture on the day itself.
I'm grateful that my CG mates has been through with me for the past term and I don't think I'll make it without them because honestly, it was tough. I yearn for freedom and I want to play. /relates to today's GP compre/
I feel that the class has become more bonded while I think my introverted self took over during this term and I've no idea why. I can't seem to express myself or sometimes, I barely feel like talking to anyone. Sometimes, I voice out what I want to do but to a no specific person.

I hope that term 3 will be better even though its clearly not. But who says that I can't make it better?
CTs has officially started and I'm gonna ace it. At least PASS it. (though I think GP and Chinese was screwed).

17 May 2013
Went back to St Nicks and met up with my secondary school friends. I met up with the almighty cutie Beatrice whom I've not seem for 4-5 months and I really miss her a lot. I haven't had any time to catch up with her because there were too many people to catch up with but we did gwiyomi player together!




and I saw Xuan, Joan, Alicia and the juniors. I was once like them. I miss being a junior right now...
Jazlyn, Alicia, me, Huijan.
Joan and I
And everyone else.
I actually missed everyone and I haven't got the chance to catch up with everyone yet. But nonetheless, I'm still grateful that I got to see them and even step into the grounds of SN. I miss the smell and the feeling of real grass. I miss the familiar surrounding that I've been in for 10 years of my life.



Its going to be a rather hectic and crazy June holiday ahead and I'm really going to try my best to juggle my time and not waste time and concentrate properly so that I can slack on Sunday Morning and on Sunday night! They're my official slack time so I'm going to motivate myself all the way and do well and do myself and my parents proud.
-In fact, it doesn't feel like the holidays... There is school next Monday and Tuesday.
My well deserved holidays week 1 gone. BUT its okay, Time Management.
 
My current fears:
1) Getting dengue

I read the newspapers today (yesterday's mind and body etc) on dengue and I'm seriously damn scared of dengue because dengue can take away a person's life. Not that I'm scared of dying but it was just a bite. :(
Well, I just hope that everyone will stay healthy and that Singapore will fight the mozzies together by co-operating with NEA and do the checks around the house and remove stagnant water. (Its not a matter of saving water anymore) Its better prevention than cure. Because never will we will never know that how many people will be affected with the mozzies reared in our house. Its scary huh.

By the way, getting sick = slows down studying = cannot relax = don't do well and yaddie yadda. Its pretty scary okay.

2) Failing CTs

I thought that was self explanatory.
I'm.....
W
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I think I've rattled enough. Finally saying something from my pool of thoughts the past few weeks.