Are you happy now

Why do people call us the mugger half? Though I'm glad that I managed to find a group of friends that keep me on track with my work and of course at times, making fun of each other, but I really wish that we're not called the mugger half.

I know that we're all afraid of retaining but this is really stressful when people are at 'blabla' tutorial and here I am still struggling with the topics taught. Or in fact studying because everyone else is studying. Not that I do not want to be in the mugger half but I really don't wanna be called mugger half.

I wonder... How will we be by the end of this year? Why must our class have cliques? I know its inevitable 😒 but why must it be SO DISTINCT. No doubt, SA is a really nice school with great culture but I can't take the pace my classmates are doing. As much as I want to prove people that not going to a top JC doesn't mean that you can't do well.. Because WE GET JUDGED. Every where we go, we get judged.

Im still trying to adjust. Ps I've to be mindful of every action because being touchy in an all girls school is ok but not in a mixed school. REPEAT X100 in my head.

By the way, I realized that many people lack patience when explaining.. I need to adjust to this too... 😌 back to drawing ellipses and hyperbolas.

10.15pm~10.25pm.

12.13am

Honestly, I feel like shit now but I can't spam twitter with all my sad tweets with broken English and short forms because everyone is going to hate me. I can't finish math tutorial 2 on time 😭 and I can't do a like 1/2 the questions. I've till question 5 and I completed till question 2. I don't get asymptotes. 😓😓 I feel pathetic now. I thought that it would be like chem and physics. And that I'd understand it. YES, I understand it but I can't do it. I dont know where to start. This is so frustrating. 😒 plus I keep making careless mistake. At this rate, I can bid dentistry goodbye 😓 okay, even if I don't get into dentistry I still have to do well enough to get Into a good course of my choice (even though my ambition is like gone). And all of a sudden, dentistry seem so far from me. 🚀 Besides, I am struggling with Chinese. Spent 2hours trying to comment on 6 items in which I did it with the help of google translate. THIS IS BAD. I swear. Why can't I be as smart as others. Im starting to struggle here and there. ☹ and everyone else is so smart. They're like way ahead without facing any problems while im like 😌😓. By the way, on the upside of my sad life, I got into saints advocates and Im really thankful that I'm given this opportunity as a servant leader to serve and lead others. 12.25am.

One of a kind

My dad said that he promise to buy me galaxy note and that I should not 'horn'??? him for it. Instead, I should wait for them to come back from Japan in March. Of course they're buying for me.. SOON. Its a pact. But its their money. Okay I think I over reacted in my blogspot because I was so upset that my parents kept shutting me all the time.


Frustrated because I can't solve some question and I feel like smashing my head with the graphic calculator because I just can't get used to it. I keep using the app on my phone even though I have the graph on the GC. Simply because I can use my fingers to zoom in and out. I feel like I'm so stupid. 21st century spoiled brat because I rely too much on the latest technologies. 😒 Something I should be worrying about. Wonder how will the graphic calculator be 10 years down the road. Back to math. I can prove that im not a useless 21st century kid who is too reliant on technology.

Why can't the blogger app on windows phone upload pictures? I feel like writing my own blogger app now. And creating a better tumblr app since the world is complaining about it. 😒 Unfortunately JC life is killing me. Its only the start.    

Oh my so ironic. I just said that I shouldn't complain.

24/7

5 minutes is enough.

I miss SN. I miss the people there. Even though the environment is scary there but I really miss the people there. Everyone is so patient. Even if we're about to explode because we cannot stand each other incessant questions or whatsoever, we still help each other.

I still remember Amanda Neo helping me through mole concept.
Ms Yee answering all my questions be it stupid questions (well a moment of folly) or questions which are in depth. I dont know if I can ever find people patient with me... Patient enough to answer my questions. I dont think anyone can take my curiosity when it comes to science because I think too much. But I need to think or I'll just die.
   

Don't you worry

See heaven's got a plan for you

Lectures have officially started. Well, it didn't go smoothly as what I hoped because the tutors are going at lightning speed. I'm not supposed to be writing my entry now because its a weekday. Then again, my dad fetched me home and I'm home early today....
So, I'm forgiving myself. But this shall not happen again.

I had math lecture and to be honest, if I'm going to have to sit on the 2nd level of the CC to listen to my lecture for the next 2 weeks, I might fail math because I can barely see anything on the screen despite the fact that with glasses, my eyesight is perfect. This is really unfair. They should rotate ):<
I don't mind sitting at the back for Chinese but apparently... My CG is not at the back.
The fact that I can't stand up and shout "Teacher! I cannot see!" and self-invite myself to the front of the classroom or the Lecture theatre/CC makes me more depressed. By the time I reach the 1st level and go in front I would have probably missed 2 pages or knowledge.
By the way, I have the worst chem lecturer on earth. Ms yee :((((( Tell me which lecturer go like
"I hear people talking. Moving on"
Excuse me? If I don't know how to do the examples, there is no way I can move on. Okay, but he is being reasonable on his part because he don't have enough time to wait since we're pre-uni students.
Which means that on my part, I realized that I've to do self-directed learning and make sure I'm a consistent person. NO MORE FANGIRLING.

Windows 8 is really really good! Even though I don't think its very compatible with my laptop because my laptop is for windows 7 and I can't update my software at times. However, I'm still waiting for my surface RT tablet so that I can bring it wherever I want. This is so annoying. And mummy says she will buy me that.

I've decided to go for physics & GP tuition. And apparently, some of my classmates attend Chem, Physics, Math and GP? Erm.... Okay. But I shouldn't be wasting money like this if I'm ok with the subject even though I think I'm just dead for every subject.. And I'm sure my mum is definitely angry and upset that the Graphic calculator cost $158 because I can only use it for 2 years and its just a calculator. (Apparently, she doesn't have faith that my brother will make it to college. WTH. And besides, I doubt we can use the same calculator because they change the model)

To end of...

I still hope that my CG will be more bonded.

Even though we're very different people, I still hope that we can bond more and help each other out.
We've got the muggers, the closet muggers and the hardcore muggers.
I probably fall under mugger now because I feel so pressured by them. I really feel so pressured by them even though its not as bad as St Nicks.
Plus all the teachers scaring me ):<
We've got the jokers too. HAHA. I still remember all the funny incidents together.