08 August 2013

Continued Silence

#nowplaying- It's Time
Look, I had forgotten at least half of what happened last week.
Either my life was too eventful or it was not eventful at all until yesterday.

The last 2-3 weeks was a struggle but I glad I survived it and I'm left with 4 weeks till the end of term 3 and probably around 40+ more days to promos.
I had to look at my diary to remember what had happened from 16 July to today, 8 August.

Starting from yesterday...
Yesterday was an eventful day because I was so dead by the time I reached home that I couldn't even stay awake doing a bit of work and it felt so good because I was WAY too tired to wake up in the wee hours of the morning to study today.
Started my day off with SL day rehearsal for the concert with the elderly and after the J1s. (After their SL- Big Sweep). Honestly, I was quite upset because I was not able to join my class to do big sweep and though I've done big sweep quite a few times at toa payoah, I still want to do it with my class and not just the advocates.
And because SL day task force had helped my YFC task force, I helped them by acting in their concert. Honestly, I regret because it was time consuming and I don't have any talent in acting at all. Well, though I think I screwed up the performance, I THINK that I enjoyed myself because I've learnt a lot through all the various rehearsals which I'd never learn in the future.
With the other actors and actresses.
And the backstage people.
After which  I went to St Nicks for Fiesta.
That was taken at around 5pm when fiesta was about to end but it was still really crowded especially at the dunking machine there because everyone was waiting to dunk the principal ($888), Ms Susan Lim ($1888) and Ms Sharon Law ($888).  I was too old to sit on the rides and just spent my $10 coupon on food and most of the time socializing.
I met up with my primary school friends, secondary school friends and also finally met Ms Yee.
4 Unity 2012. (': I miss these people.
6 Hope 2008 people! I can't believe it! xD
With Ms Yee! Best Chem teacher and Best teacher ever!
With the guides!
Honestly, given 3hours (less than 3 hours), its totally impossible to catch up with so many people. Didn't even get to talk to Ms Yee, Mrs Seah etc and my juniors ):< However, it felt good to be back in St Nicks. Though the fiesta wasn't what I expected... (I expected it to be all over the school, with the primary section. Just like Primary 6 and Primary 3) but I must say it was well done given that the time to plan was too rushed. It certainly felt good to see many faces again and to talk to them and all the hugs (which its probably too weird to go around hugging people in JC). I'm not going to spend my time reminiscing my old days from primary 1 till secondary 4 but I just hope to see everyone soon... Again.
Ayana, Amanda and I then watched that girl in pinafore and I must say it is a good movie. However, I feel though the show is relatable to some extent, the storyline is too cliché and to predictable. I could predict the ending and their next moves. But, the movie really taught me a lot though I thought the ending was quite lame. Well, it showed what reality is. Worth watch!

Last Friday, 2nd August 2013 was YFC's last street sales and we had many volunteers because of the advocates and other volunteers. It was indeed a long journey. From selling lightsticks at Orchard to selling at Marina Bay to selling ice gems at East Coast Park to Raffles and back to Marina Bay. {Note to self to write a reflection when the whole YFC journey is done}
We've been through a lot. I guess... We sold 2500 packets of ice gems... It was seriously not funny anymore when you wake up each day with 15 boxes (for me) at my door waiting for me to clear them. 84 boxes to 0 boxes. I've also learnt a lot. A lot about the society and a lot about handling money. Handling money is not easy and I must say, accounting and business is not for me. Besides, I learnt that it is not easy to do business. (DUH) but it is even more not easy when we're kids, holding a license, selling packets of ice gems and lightsticks. I do know that people will question our reliability factor and it is hard to explain despite the license and everything. People in Raffles are too busy to stop for us to even hear us spread our cause. Door-to-door just don't open the door and here, we have east coast park.... That Friday night at marina bay, we saw SA's security guard uncle along with his girlfriend/wife at Macs at 10pm and it was seriously really funny. HAHAHAHAHA. I also heard the NDP rehearsals like a lot of times and honestly, I'm addicted to it though many said it isn't good. (Don't judge me... I may dislike it initially but its addictive and the lyrics are actually fine!) I just dislike the rap because it doesn't sound like one and the lyrics are tad weird.
28/7/13 Sunday...
We sold 17 boxes of ice gems at east coast park in total from the 2 sales...7/7/13 and 28/7/13. Selling 10 on Sunday was probably the best thing ever because that was like whooping 300 packets gone. And it is the best place to sell at because people there do want the ice gems and they're receptive to listen to our cause. Some may not really believe but they buy it simply because they want it.
We used a bike to deliver ice gems to volunteers selling to people at different ends of the park so that they do not have to travel so far and honestly, I think it was good because they didn't have to keep walking back to the center of East Coast park just to collect more ice gems.
And say Hi to the delivery woman! Talking on the phone with one hand "OMG WHERE ARE YOU. I'm at xxxxxx"
It was seriously tiring. but I enjoyed myself cycling up and down. (-:
And YFC graduation picture. Last STREET sales by the beach.

26/7/13 FRIDAY
Met up with the guides and this time with SAM! Caught up with them again and totally miss everyone and missed Sam too!
Unity guides! (Y)
I guess we took way too many pictures ):< and it will be crazy to upload them all and Amanda could still piggy back me. HAHAHAHA and she probably grew stronger from taekwondo. By the way... we ate Manhattan at the open space/playground of J8 and I swear we're probably the only ones who actually do that!


Anyway, the long holiday is here and its 6-7 weeks more to promos. Time is passing faster than I expected and I'm still struggling or I'm STARTING to struggle with my balance study+CCA+entertainment life... Maybe its because everything is starting to get harder or I've been watching too much drama/movie/exo these days. WHICH I don't think so. Maybe its because of CCA. The many rehearsals and YFC which made me real tired and I'm really afraid to fall sick again. Sleeping at 2am/3am is really not a joke anymore because I'm starting to get more tired and yet I've to at least try to read up or understand stuff or I'll die the next lecture and I don't want a snowball coming after me. Plus I had to do PW. 
This national day holiday is like 80% study and 20% play. 20% is probably used to type this blogpost and tomorrow's national day parade.
Alright... Time to repair my EOM, and revise gravitation!
Bye!

Happy national day xx!
Someday... when I grow up, I hope to contribute back to society :-)

16 July 2013

Inception

Destiny is really a pretty good song. It reminds me of some anime that I watched before though. I think it was 4 years ago or something. I remember 5% of it.

Its been 1-2 weeks after CTs and after getting back all my results, I'm glad to say that I've passed this exam. But the scariest part of it is that... I've no idea how I managed to pass with ABC/BD.
Which was surprisingly better than my MSA results. The fact that promos are merely 8 weeks away makes term 3 feel terrible.
Besides, I had Chinese oral today and I feel okay but I'm really upset cos the examiner kept cutting me off )': and everyone else had 3 questions while I had 2. Well, whatever. Its over and there is still Chinese listening comprehension next week and many lecture tests coming up... PW is creeping on me too.

oh well, basically, term 3 sux. Its a boring term.

Went back to St Nicks on the 5th of July, the Friday after our common tests and caught up with everyone.
 
Back then, life in st nicks was really good. Too comfortable to the extent that I could walk around barefooted just because my shoes were wet... or sitting on 2 benches and aunty would always give me extra food because they know me for 10 years.
Caught up with Amanda Neo and Carnation Kng the most because we haven't seen each other since 5ever and I really wanna meet Vivian. I miss fooling around with Vivian and having Amanda nagging at us or giving us the WTH look. Didn't get to see Ms Yee which made me feel unaccomplished for the entire week because I wanted to tell her about JC chem! hehe and how I got my questions answered in JC. Being someone who ask a lot of questions, life feels good when my questions are answered! [And show her that I've matured a little bit more. Though I'm still as playful as ever.] Ate orange bowl and chicken rice... A lot... I know. But I can't help it. I've been eating orange bowl for 10 years and its my 11th year lol.
 
 
Summing up, my life is reallyyyyy boooorrriinggggggg.
A huge pile of tutorials just dropped on me and hence, I've to go and complete them as soon as possible.
#Nowplaying INFINITEmydestiny

04 July 2013

Breaking News

BOYS MEET U on replay :*

I've been sick from 15 June to 28 June. And it was probably something you wouldn't want in the middle of the holidays.
Firstly, my fever only came at night. Next, it was pretty high at 38.6 deg cel and I had NO sore throat. So I thought that it was because I was tired but it turned out that the fever came the subsequent 2-3 nights and so I told my parents. Of course I got scolded yadiyadablablabla so my dad brought me down to the clinic on the 19th of June to take the blood test because my mum was so paranoid that I've dengue and that I was going to die soon.
I feared needles. Trust me... the doctor took forever to calm me and then took forever to find my vein and poke me so many times. He gave me this medicine that look like M&N and it was a lot stronger than panadol because I couldn't take panadol and he had no choice. Well... little did I know that the medicine had side effects on me.
I had another blood test on the 22th because my fever was being really stubborn and the other doctor and 2 other nurses took forever to find a vein and took forever to calm me again. It wasn't dengue anyway...The fever did subside by sunday night, the 23rd but headache kicked in and it was pretty bad because I couldn't sleep.
Usually, when someone is having a headache, all they could do was to lie on their bed and sleep but all I could do was to curl up on my bed and try to calm myself because it was so painful. It was so painful that I couldn't study. My dreams were all very bad because it involves the headache. It went on for 2-3 nights and I started vomiting after. I seriously thought that I was going to die because I couldn't even eat or drink properly and the headache was killing me so badly that I couldn't even reply simple whatsapp messages. My parents then took me to the Chinese doctor which prescribed me super cool medicine. My appetite returned after that but I puked the medicine out. (I was really hopeless) and what I puked was the EXACT PILL out.
So my mum tried natural remedies. Peppermint tea, apple, papaya... It isn't funny. 2 fruits that I hate the most: PAPAYA and DURIAN. I still puked them out... but peppermint helps to restore my appetite! I wrote how many times I vomited each day on my school diary too. Alright I eventually recovered by Friday/Saturday and really started studying for Common Tests.
I'm NOT gonna fall sick again. 2 litres of water a day and no fried food till I die.
Who am I kidding. Just gonna take good care of myself from now on... No one wants history to repeat itself.
yanilavigne:

(Quotes here)
Anyway, common tests are over. Though I only studied for 6-7 days and a bit here and there when I was sick (not that bad but could cope), I felt so unprepared because I didn't study finish my favourite subject. I was frustrated then.
I really was. My H1 is my FAVOURITE SUBJECT. I didn't take geography as a H2 because there simply wasn't any such combination offered and besides, I don't need geography to become a dentist! Last night was really depressing because I really wanted to #YOLO and quit geography and just solely concentrate on physics but I simply couldn't bring myself to quit geography because I need to continue getting A/B for my geography (continuation from secondary school) and I really like geography. It doesn't make sense to fail a subject that you like. I gave up geography in the end at like 2am because even if I get A for geog... its 10 points only which is a H2 pass and I'd rather pass physics with 10 points or more. But hey, I tried studying for geog and I'm so proud of myself.
Well, I didn't regret much though I #YOLO-ed during the paper and invented my own ways to mitigate and measure earthquake because I have no content. Wait.... I think I have... it came naturally because newspaper always got report this kind of stuff but it wasn't a lot. (I didn't remember them intentionally when I read the news) Alright basically, geography paper was slipshod work. Every subject was just like meh. I didn't prepare much and all I was for is a pass for my 3H2s because I pushed myself even when I was sick and I feel that I deserved something. At least a pass right?

Today was a great day (I looked over at my cup and I realized that I barely drank water today) because exams officially ended for now (12 days to Alevel Chinese oral) and I actually went out. (2 weeks of being coped up at home and then studying for exams....)
A big thank you to...
for making my day! xxxxxxxxxx Watched despicable me 2 today and though the movie wasn't really good, the minions were cute and I absolutely enjoyed the movie. Went to eat baskin robbins after that with Rosa, Yanting, Janessa, Jason, Bryan and Jared and finally ate my candy floss icecream that I've been craving for since I was sick. (blame bryan for sending me that picture)
Anyway, I hope that we'll all go out together and bond more. (Hopefully Vanessa and Bijuan can join us) I bet the next time we'll go out together will be like after Promos/after Chinese As/after PW. And I'm looking forward!

By the way, I've recently read I've got your number and I find this book really hilarious and I'm totally in love with the main characters, Poppy and sam. Though the story didn't unfold the way I wanted (like her other books) but this book has its own plus points! Well, every book can't end up the same way right? I can't wait to get my hands on the book she recently published- Wedding night though the ratings were horrible. (The storyline didn't really attract me though).

Looking forward-
Term 3 has officially started and I'm going to make the best out of it!
I'll survive term 3. I'll survive all SPAS, all PW, all YFC, all CHINESE, everything. Every challenge that I'm bound to meet will be challenged.
 
She's dazzling~~

18 June 2013

Timeless

I meant to blog on Saturday but things took to an unexpected turn so I'm blogging today.
Its week 3 of the June holidays and I don't think I'm screwed. Maybe I am if I compared myself to those people who are free and have the entire holidays to mug but I'm not (self-comfort). Because there are people who have been wasting their time. (Well, while they were wasting their time, I've been staying up till 2-3am to finish some work because my days were all packed.)

10/06/13 Monday:
Advocates local CIP programme day 1 (In lieu of our OCIP trip to Vietnam).
Basically, we had to clean the school and it was a difficult task because there was simply so much to clean (dirt between lecture theatre chairs and all. OCD people can't stand it) and I didn’t really know where to start from. Besides, I seldom do the housework at home apart from trying to keep my room as neat as possible. (which obviously failed because I've piles of papers and books all over my table and I figured that I've to take a day off from studying to pack it up or its going to be a major obstruction when it comes to studying because I'll have to spend around 5-10 minutes to dig for something).
Basically, the aim was to actually just to be able to empathize the aunty and uncles in our school and to be able to better feel that I should take ownership of my surroundings and spare a thought for the aunty and uncles in our school because they had to clean up after our mess and it was certainly not an easy job even with 20+ of us. In fact, most of us were inexperienced when it comes to cleaning including me.
However, after cleaning the lecture theatres (which was super dusty), I really feel that we should take ownership of the school property because I realized that many people just leave tissue paper, sweet rappers and other forms of rubbish in between the seats. I felt disgusted as I never thought that it would be that bad until I had to clean them and I really pity the aunty and uncles and I figured that everyone have to do a part in at least keeping the seat connectors clean.
Evan, Denise, Ngan and I then left early to buy our items for our street sales at night. (Last minute people -__-) It was the most rushed out planned in which Evan, our event manager, called for a trial on Monday and guess we really did it. Shamelessly printing stuff from the school printer (well, its free as long as we have our papers) and recycling stuff from the trophy room. After, all of us plus a few more advocates (Monique, Weilin, Bona, Randy, Jae Eun, Xin Siang) went with us all the way down to Orchard to do our street sales in which we were selling lightsticks with the theme, light up our city, light up their (elderly) world. and in fact, we did a pretty good job (plus Evan's friend, Isaac) despite everything being rushed and it took some time for us to warm up and dare to approach people to buy stuff from us. :)
By the way, I've also learnt that we must always persevere because despite being rejected by khong guan, our email, letter and personal visit paid off and khong guan actually agreed to sponsor us ice gems ;D and honestly I was so high after reading it at 2am that night after finishing a physics paper that I died for day 2's programme. :(
11/06/13 Tuesday:
Advocates local CIP programme day 2.
Woke up at 6 and went straight to the willing hearts kitchen and it was something I wasn’t interested in because honestly, I was so worried that I’d destroy the kitchen. Considering the fact that I can’t even cook Maggie noodles or pour hot water properly and that I couldn't really find meaning in packing food or cooking vegetables. What made me dislike the entire kitchen the most was that I didn’t know what was going on half the time. Everyone was telling me different stuff such as scoop this into the rice and don’t scoop that and vice versa and then we get scolded double. I really wanted to do my job properly but then again, I really didn’t know what was going on and I really wanted to ultimately serve those at the receiving end properly. Indeed it was tiring (4hours of sleep the night before) and what I enjoyed most was plucking the vegetables!
Big sweep after was much more meaningful especially at the second aunty’s house(First Aunty wasn't around) because though it was just Monique and I… Struggling with Chinese… without other group members… Monique and I managed to successfully entertain aunty. I figured that the food we packed at the kitchen was probably transferred to the aunty here who does not have enough money to support herself. With this, I felt that what I did in the morning was useful despite getting annoyed because I really didn’t know what was going on ¾ the time did not go to waste and in fact I felt that I’ve helped them to pack the food so that these people get their food and without us, the elderly/people at the receiving end will not be able to receive enough food. What made me regret the most was me falling asleep while Monique and I were teaching and singing songs with the aunty. Because according to Monique, Aunty was sad.


Though I woke up after that, I felt really guilty afterwards because I didn’t get to entertain aunty for 30minutes out of 2hours (I made aunty sad) and I really wished that I could repeat that day again so that I wouldn’t make that mistake again. Though we sang songs after that and like I taught aunty new songs and everything, I’d still want a redo because I shouldn’t have fallen asleep during big sweep (I know that I deserve getting scolded and yes, I deserve it. I'm embarrassed but I feel that this should be here because it will serve as a reminder to myself in the future.) and honestly, I don’t want to stop big sweep because the aunty was so happy after that when we left that words couldn’t explain how I feel. I want to make the next big sweep better. All in all, I felt that I’ve grown closer to aunty (despite struggling with Chinese here and there) much more because aunty opened up and we really enjoyed ourselves.

12/06/13 Wednesday:
Advocates local CIP programme day 3.
Ubin for the happy girl. So we went to ubin for the last day of the programme to learn more about nature and this dog followed us from the jetty to chek jawa. We named him Johnson. I think it was the dog that I touched and then I got nagged at Ms Ho for. It followed us all the way, waited for us when we stopped and all and I could really tell that it was disappointed that it was unable to follow us back on the road to the jetty.
I enjoyed myself running round or jumping around on the way to jetty because I basically had overflowing energy and I couldn't wait to move around and play.
 On the way to ubin
 Old bicycle discarded in the sea (near the shore?/below the jetty? Somewhere that people can't just go down to pick it up...)
 Johnson when we first saw him.
 Tons of discarded plastic bottles on the way to chek jawa ):
End of our trip around the mangroves!
Pictures with all the advocates:
I totally have to go back there to bike! Some day at the end of the year bah! :D (I'm in black HAHAHA)
It was like a geography field trip and I enjoyed it so much that I really want to go back to ubin and dance around in the sun again. No joke okay. I saw mangroves and all and I instantly became excited!
Watched Now You see me with the advocates and I was totally mindblown by the show. In fact, its better than inception! (Maybe because I could get the plot better and I was following it intensely until the last part when I lose concentration and lost the plot) but after having Monique explain to me the last part and all, I was totally mind blown. Its worth to watch and its in fact my first movie in months? I think.. I can't remember any other movies that I watched. I think its just this and I do not regret wasting 3hours just to watch it because I enjoyed the revelation of the story. :B
 
13/06/13 Thursday:
Met up with Sharlene and Beatrice ;D
I really miss these 2 poops a lot. I miss studying together on Sundays though we're still taking almost the same subjects (I took geog, they took econs) I still hope that we can study together but we're all so busy that it took us some time to even meet up.
I actually miss fooling around in the playground. I still remember Beatrice's cycle challenge which obviously she sucks at cycling. LOL took her forever to cycle finish 1 round around active while Shar and I took 3-4times faster than her.
 
14/06/13 Friday:
Nicole goes shopping with ShiHui.
Shopaholic Nic strikes and hit the stores. After having the urge to shop for like months, I've finally gone shopping and I've spent a lot of money on Friday. I don't even dare to check what is left in my bank account. I got a feeling its not good. I'll just check it when my allowance come in (self-comfort) and now, I must hide in a hole and not step into orchard (which is obviously not possible).
Well, I don't think I bought a lot but I bought a lot. 2 tops, 1 bag, 1 jacket, a pair of sunglasses. Its not a lot but somehow $$$ is a lot. :( I went out with the mindset, "DO NOT HESITATE TO SPEND" HAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAAHAHA.
Anyway, had street sales at night and we had many volunteers. (I'll probably reflect it on a later date) but YFC is so stressful now and there are times that I feel like giving up because its taking up much of my time and I can't agree with my teammates here and there (well, I didn't want to repackage the stuff). Come on, we got no time :( I know where I'm standing and I know the amount of effort that I've to put in for each subject so I shouldn't get judged for studying too much because clearly I've to work a bit more than everyone else to achieve average. And I work on consistency. I don't rush everything, neither do I leave everything to the last minute. Alevel Chinese Oral MUST STUDY ONE.
Caught up with my juniors and celebrated exo's first win together with Joan and her friend, yitong.
That's it for the week. Had a productive weekend ;)
And pray hard that my fever goes down and all. :\ I need to collect my biscuits from khong guan. Time to do some chemistry and math ;D Yesterday's geog 'day' camp was terrible lol. 4hours of geog is enough to scare me because its so content-ish. HAHA.
 

07 June 2013

I'm trapped

This whole week sucks. Monday was terrible, Tuesday was terrible, Wednesday was horrendous, Thursday was terrible and Friday (today) is terrible.
Everyday is terrible and I'm not in a mood to actually talk to anyone especially during camp.

I feel that people should learn to be humble yeah? This whole leadership summit was an eye opener because I've experienced so many things that I've not felt in 3 days. Proud people, noisy people, whinny people, people who can't take things seriously... yadiee yadaa. Some people are so damn proud that I sometimes wonder who got them to where they are and if they are really passionate of who they are serving or just for the sake of portfolio.

Okay to be honest, I spent most of my time on YFC and I've learnt so much more than the leadership summit. The world is an indeed a scary place. Talk about being really daring, sending out many mails requesting for sponsorship and nothing in return. Talk about money and how the world really works. Its not simple. Today's amazing grace was an eye opener which made me feel really terrible.
what struck me was this line "is it free?"
We were giving out post cards with notes of encouragement written on it and people just rejected it and some only accepted it because its free. So people only care if its free... Then I had this thought: What will happen if I'm trying to raise funds for an organization, trying to promote a cause. Will people be willing to spend money to buy it?
Honestly, I feel really terrible now because my YFC team and I went straight to khong guan to knock on the doors to ask about our sponsorship letter and they just told us they rejected it which I feel that they could have at least emailed to tell us that they rejected it so that our trip would not be wasted.  But its the harsh reality. Money, financial budget... Its not as simple as what we think.

I've no idea what I'm rambling about but many thoughts came across my mind throughout the whole of today. And honestly, I've learnt a lot because of these difficulties we're currently facing and I still think that we can still be the change even though its not easy in this fast moving society. I've a feeling that there will be more of such shitty weeks and shitty days in term 3 because there will be YFC, Alevel Chinese Oral, PW, Common Test, Chem SPA, Physics SPA.

This is really scary...