'If you're lost and alone or you're sinking like a stone, carry on'

Last week was insane. 4th January to 8th January were the best days of my life.
So the honey moon period is over and I'm expected to start studying soon since I received my lecture notes.
I'm keeping track of my money for now because my dad only transferred $250 to me ):<  It was supposed to be $350 (additional 50) but because I owe him 100 bucks, he transferred less money to me. And at this rate I'm going, I'm certain that I'm going to be broke soon.

• $1.15 for math lecture notes
• $10 for physics lecture notes?
• $7.10 for chemistry lecture notes.
• $161 for graphic calculator (I just cross my fingers and hope that my parents will give me money for this if not I don't have to eat for like 2 weeks already.)

Can't the school be environmentally friendly and post it on asknlearn or something and I can just read it off the laptop/tablet. I'm like some broke soul with no money. And my pay is definitely not to pay for all this shit. Especially the calculator... I told my parents about it and they told me its way above their budget. Thanks a lot. I'm going to ask for a raise in my allowance to pay for my calculator if they don't give me money for it. I'm being reasonable here.

I had a great time with OG24 and 13S06..
Even though OG24, we're still bonded and hopefully, we'll be bonded for life. I really miss those times when we go like "EH SACHPREET! HELICOPTER!" and the entire OG just look up and point at the helicopter. HAHA.
Played wet games on Monday and got really wet.. I was totally soaked with soap and all the funny stuff... Also saboed our OGLs as a whole by pouring water on them..
Went out of school on Tuesday to sentosa! And saw many helicopters there. OG24 build the best sandcastles, unleashing our inner architect talents. To be honest, I never thought building sandcastles would be this fun because it was the first time I ever built a sand castle.
Walked in the rain and got all drenched. Ate fish&Co with my OG and all of us were like fish&co or soup spoon... fish spoon.

That was an expensive meal. And I need to recalculate my expenses because I realize that my money always disappear without me knowing. How upsetting.
On Wednesday, we got into our CGs...
PCMG BABYYYYYYYYYYY.
I hope I made the right choice to take geography. Initially, I wanted econs but I really don't have any interest in that and I don't want to waste 2 years studying something that I don't like even though I know that many people chose econs because it is more practical. Well, NOT FOR ME. Haha. I hope I don't regret my decision in the future. Because if all else fails, I'll be a geography teacher HAHAHAHAHA.
Met my new classmates. Honestly, I was worried because I was afraid that I can't find any friends. Well, I found friends ^^ and still using my social butterfly skills to talk to them. Even though 13S06 already have cliques, but.... in the end, I really hope that we can still bond together as a class. Honestly, it is hard to barge into a clique. I honestly tried that in secondary school. It wasn't fun. I was talking to ZhiQi and he told me about how fun his class was and I was really hoping that my class would be like his (he made me jealous hmpfh!) but then again, 13S06 is really quite bonded already. Haha... During our first lunch together, we had sick stuff flying all over the place. Yes, we're all sick minded. Well, I made many friends there and I'm glad that I've found my circle of friends. I really wished that I could go clique hoping like secondary school but no. Played many games with 13S06 and learnt Axoria cheers. Amazing race on Thursday....

Class identity! HAHAA We're ninjas nin ninjas!

I really hope that 13S06 will be more bonded... I really want to say celine dion fanclub but dion will be angry. We'll be 13S06 forever. Let nature take its course~ Its just like 4Unity. We bonded in the end.


Its Chinese new year day one today.... And here are my CNY greetings....
新年快乐，恭喜发财，年年钓鱼，年年有鱼！
haha my brother and I came up with that! 年年有余 I know the correct one is that but haha who cares. Sound the same can already..
and another that my brother and I created on the car a few years back...
新年快乐，恭喜发财，红包拿来，没有红包，钱包拿来， 没有钱包，给你black eye!

Chinese new year is not so Chinese new year because my grandma passed away last year and everything is in a mess. Not only that, my greatgrandpa (from my mum's side) is in the hospital now. Well, he is 98 and he lead a long and good life. He can still go out buy 4D HAHA. I hope that he suffer less soon (not cursing...) because its painful to see him like this.
I'm going to rot for the next 2 days and start doing math because people already started doing and some finished it and I'm just doing whatever question I feel like.
I've been on whatsapp recently even though I muted all available groups HAHA! But I still read them and OG24 is really R21. Guys, I'm 7. HAHA.
I miss Beatrice so much. Our retardedness and lameness together. And Vivian too. No one to do retarded stuff with me anymore :(

Lessons really starting really soon. Its time to really start studying and working hard... Make sure I get promoted... Class goal: EVERYONE TO BE PROMOTED. My goal: BE PROMOTED.. SHINee and B.A.P are coming back. I'm still waiting for EXO.

Once a saint, always a saint~

Wake me up

School officially started and yesterday was a blast.
To be honest, I was really scared when I first stepped into SA because I'm one of the few that got into SA and all my St Nicks friends got into like the top few JCs or NYJC. I was afraid to face rejection from my peers... I can totally imagine no one doing retarded stuff with me :'( Sobs. Besides, I'd cry if no one wants to talk to me. However, after that awkward morning assembly... I started talking to sachpreet, a girl in front of me and we kinda became friends. Well, imagine walking to the culture centre in a line and everyone do not know each other? I cannot take it so I decided to open my big fat mouth to start talking. HAHA.
Anyway after the weird talks, we had some subject counselling which turned out to be 'making new friends session' because I made friends with many people along the way. Haha and turns out that all of us are trying to appeal out of the school (yes, I appealed to NYJC and to be honest, after yesterday, I was kinda hoping that I don't get transferred out because I have to start my entire social butterfly cycle from scratch and make new friends from scratch). So we all have one thing in common eh? Had some icebreakers and ended up making friends with almost all the girls there.
The reason why GIRLS is because I've no idea how to talk to boys. Being in an all girls school for 10 years just crashed me for this part of the entire 'Nicole is a social butterfly' thing. LOL. Well, our OG turned out to be really fun and funny and I brought my lame jokes along and laughed our ass off with my lame jokes. Guess the title joker won't leave me for now. I'm still the joker.
Anyway played games and everything and I saw Jonathan Fung. O: The world is so small. Haha. I truly enjoyed my day at SA yesterday. Even though the Christian environment is going to take me some time to adjust because I'm a catholic. The school spirit there is pretty good. Well, for now. Its too early to say anything but I have a feeling its going to be a good 2 years there. Besides, the food there is good ^^ And I've got macs 5 minutes away too! :P And MRT is so near. Oh my.

looking forward....
I'm really scared of JC lifestyle because it was said to be scary. Belle shared this blogpost with me this morning when I was talking to her: http://stopthe-pretence.blogspot.sg/2012/03/truth-behind-my-jc-life.html?showComment=1333914124405#c1274540900932446712 And it kind of scared me a little. Because what she said was true to a certain extent because I WAS FROM A TOP SCHOOL and JC is very different from secondary school... I'm really grateful that I'm not in a top school for now even though I think I'll have to face the fact that universities look at the college you're from and its all about branding again. Even my mum was telling me that JC is not easy especially project work. Speaking in front of an audience is definitely not my forte.
Haha I found friends that got B4 for English with me too... so basically I'm not alone. And I'm worried for GP. I looked at the subject thing and I saw comprehension and my heart dropped and shattered into many pieces. What if I cannot cope? Am I supposed to put my pride down and sort for a language tuition? Okay you know what, its not about pride. Its about how I used to judge people for having a lot of tuition and then they do so damn well ALL BECAUSE THEY HAVE TUITION and the fact that I'm so 'cool' because I don't really have a lot of tuition (2 in fact in my entire secondary life in which I'm late half the time) and still faired pretty well.
I'm being very frank with you because that was what I thought most of the time.
So I was thinking of taking GP and physics tuition.. Initially, I wanted to take math tuition but when I searched KIASU parents (LOL) most people say physics is harder and most people know that I've NO IDEA HOW I FREAKING SCORED AN A1 FOR PHYSICS...
Because physics is more of understanding as compared to math.
Anyway, I just taught my brother emath and amath.. I guess I haven't forget anything yet. LOL because I still can do them like a boss and even tell my brother the steps for every different kind of question.. Just don't ask me about physics.
Oh and there is oral for Chinese sobs. SAJC seems like a very English-ish environment. So I can't randomly use Chinese words/idioms in my sentence because I don't know the English word for it... or summarise everything into one Chinese idiom.
Anyway I'm caught in between PCME or PCMG. Another headache and I've to make my decision by Monday. I went to the extent of googling stuff like
why take geography for Alevels
why take economics for Alevels
And the answers are quite stupid. So I'm just gonna close my eyes and chose my combi because I'm fine with both econs and geography. I'm very sure about PCM. Now its the last one that's all. sian.
I'll give up fangirling if I have to if I can't cope in JC. I really will. And it seems like I've to give up reading too. Sigh... I need to strike a balance between fangirling and studying. I can't be a mugger for good. I'm not even one to start with.

I MISS ST NICKS :(

 

Hope

I'm not school-less. I've a school to attend to now.
I got into SAJC which is pretty good. :-) Even though I really wanted to get into NYJC, I know that its impossible because I already had dreams about not getting into NYJC and last night, I dreamt that I got into SAJC.. Erm so yeah. I woke up and was like "Haha. So its SA... My dream was right."
I'm very certain of some of my dreams... Like dreaming of essay questions usually come true, dreaming about my raw score came true. I dreamt that I got 11...
Maybe I'm psychic. O:

Forget it. Rule out that possibility. I'm sure that god was telling me that in my dream as if he was warning me.
So its okay. Honestly, if people ask me if I'm appealing or whether I'm happy with my school... here is the answer: I'm satisfied. But I'm still thinking if I should appeal to NY because its nearer to my house and I still got my favourite tauhuey shop!
In my opinion I have other plans in mind. It may seem ridiculous to most people and everyone is going to start judging me. But here are my plans:
I'll try JC first. If I like it, I'll stay there.
If I don't like it, I'll switch to poly.
Yes. Judge all you want. Its for the world to see. I may come across as fickle minded but mind you, I'm going to JC for the sake of the grade and my parents. The grade part is just -__-  like I don't even know if I can even get the grade part right. Oh and everyone will be like omg you're so smart, you should go to JC and be the smartest person there... Because going to poly is a waste of talent.. And I'm like wtf. Are you kidding me. I'm going to be doing useless stuff for the next 2 years. Or stupid stuff for the next 2 years because its useless. I don't see the point if I'm not gonna apply what I study in the future except for basic general knowledge and a bit of science since I want to be a dentist in the future.
Haha. Enough. I'll think about it later in the day.
Omg and I'm scared.. What if I cannot make new friends and plus I'm alone.. Tomorrow.. sigh. The whole world told me not to talk a lot when I meet someone cos I might scare them away. LOL I'll tell them my lame jokes. Okay, forget it.




The holidays have come to an end. Its already the last day of my holidays. How depressing...
This entire holidays DID NOT pass by in an ordinary fashion. There were so many ups and downs..
A brief outline of my 2.5 months long holidays...
1) I dyed my hair red.
I'm so upset because its not the red I wanted. I'm so determined to dye it again when I graduate!
2) I chalked my hair.
Good experience but its really rough to my hair.
3) I've experienced working life...
It sucks. Selling bedsheets that cost like a bomb -__- 
But I learnt a lot and earn a lot. Sadly, in exchange for money, I sacrificed the time spent with my friends. We're all night party animals now because after work, we hang out.
4) Too many chalets.
Haha. To be honest, I had a lot of fun bonding with my friends and talking to them...
5) Spent too much money!!!!!
hmpfh. I should stop spending too much money haha.
And they're all on food. Welcome to civilisation.
6) Watched a lot of movies....
Hotel Transylvania, Upside down, Hansel and Gretel, you're the apple of my eye, argo, runway cop, les mierables, paranormal activity, when wolf falls in love with sheep.
OMG HANSEL AND GRETEL IS GOOD. I LOVE THE PLOT TWIST. DAEBAK!!!
7) Tons of Dramas....
To the beautiful you: 8-11-12 to 9-11-12
the thousandth man: 28-11-12 to 29-11-12
faith (the great doctor): 12-11-12 to 15-11-12
Nice guy: 18-11-12 to 21-11-12
the king 2 hearts: 6-11-12 to 7-11-12
Dream high: 21-1-13 to 25-1-13
love rain: 10-12-12 to 15-12-12
Goong (rewatch lol): 16-12-12 to 22-12-12
Arang and the magistrate: 4-1-13 to 12-1-13 (OMG I TOOK FOREVER)
Moon that embraces the sun: 14-1-13 to 18-1-13
8) Out everyday and reach home at night like around 10? I'm ridiculous. I know. Haha.
9) Learnt a lot of new songs on the guitar. :P
10) Read a lot of fanfics.
Too many :P
11) read a lot of books
Especially dreams of the dead, spirits of the noh and other horror related books in which I can't remember because I don't take note of titles HAHA.
I'm out of chick lit guys. I'm officially out of it.
12) Almost daily routine if I'm not reading a book would be....
Morning: fanfic.
Afternoon (travelling or at home): story book
Evening: Read news... Omg I tell you the new bing thing is really cool!
Night: story book
Wee hours: fanfic again.
HAHAHAHAHAHA. Nerd.
Thanks.
Bye.
But my English sucks. I don't know why either. LOL. But I really like to read. Reading Chinese stuff too. Actually Chinese novels are nice to read ok :P And I can read. I can't write or speak well that's all.
13) Learnt a bit of Korean characters :P

Enough of my holidays.
Its the end of it.
Spending my last day eating atas food with Carnation, Vivian, Ayana, Lynnette and Xenia. :-)
JC life... Here I come~

last

It gradually dawned on me that this is the last Friday that I can hang out and roll around without any worries.
No. I'm worrying because I'm afraid that I can't get into a college of my choice... :( And I had this nightmare last night. I swear it was horrible. I don't know... I woke up feeling like crap luh.
Why is Singapore's education so screwed up? Sigh.
The past few days passed in a blink of an eye.

Went to watch Les Miserables & Runway cop with Ayana and Carnation on Monday and seriously had a great time watching 2 movies back to back. It was a contrast because Les miserables (a musical) was a sad touching musical and we were all feeling sad and touched when we stepped out of the theatre and the next moment we bought runway cop (a korean comedy) tickets which was a freaking comedy. We laughed our ass off and I still remember those funny parts clearly. Haha. Worth a watch. OMG and the starting song for Les Miserables was stuck in my head! I love the ending so much.

Tuesday was another day out with Carnation, Elisabeth, Lynnette and Vivian. Had a satisfying lunch at Elisabeth's house before sending Vivian off to work in which we helped her to do stocks later on. Had dinner with Carny and Vivian before going to my friend's brother wake.
Life is precious. I'm going to live life with no regrets.
Pray for the departed. May their soul rest in peace.

Anyway wednesday was work.. My last day of work. I have mix feelings about it because I actually enjoy my job because I get to talk... But then things turned and there were no customers which made me so upset... :( How can people stand for 8-10hours without talking? I cannot do it! I need to talk and promote my bedsheets. Sigh...

KTV with Beatrice and Sharlene on thursday. Was just plain epic-ness because we were so retarded. Singing children songs: Twinkle twinkle little star, old macdonalds had a farm and she'll be coming round the mountain... And clapping to it... Not only that.. we jammed to the classic song of 'this is me' by demi lovato.. I still remember us in sec ones when we were studying for revision tests which turned out to a 'love' story acting section by sharlene and beatrice. I was even the director. Sharlene and Beatrice were romeo and juliet and we even did our version of it. Not to forget that we fangirled by singing kpop songs and some chinese songs. I'm gonna miss these 2 idiots in the future. All the memories we had together especially while studying together.

Bad bad selca skills. I look so gross haha.

Went to find sharlene lee at manhattan fish market today and ate a feast... Went to find vivian and nua-ed around center point before scooting off to school.. I really miss school a lot. I'm going to miss the st nicks culture and the lessons. I can't wait for fiesta on the 7th of August. I remember vaguely that I had one when I was in Primary 6 and I really enjoyed it a lot. I swear our fiesta was the best in the entire world and now we're having it again. #3000daughterswantfiesta (including graduated jie jie mens leh... I think if its like that got at least 5000 already) #3000daughtershaving fiesta!
brb... crying tears of joy. Took pictures with my mynah patrol. I'm so going to miss guides a lot. I miss footdrill. Watching them from afar reminds me of the past.
5 generation mynah patrol..

Check out Alicia photobombing us at the back. >:( Hung out with Shihui and Vivian after that... Friday... Last proper week of my holiday.





Watched dream high this week...

I like the plot.. Plus taecyeon and kim soohyun was like *-* okay wait soohyun starred in the moon that embraces the sun but honestly, he looked better in dream high. I hated the romance part of the drama. It doesn't make any sense and it was just like -__- haha I always thought she would end up with jingook but no she didn't. So the drama mislead me. WTH. WTH. This is why I hate high school related dramas. But then again soohyun is so good looking. Teehee. And its pretty bitchy because of baekhee..

太好笑了!

现在觉得很就没用华文写文章了...回想起,差不多六个月没用这个语言了吧!
华文退步地不及格的地步了!
哎....怎么办呀? 不久后就要考华文A水准了,我要反省以下...把华文读好.

在做工的时候,我认识了一个从中国的男孩. 因为要工作, 我没办法要用华语和他交谈.
哈哈!他连介绍我看中国戏剧: 奋斗...

有时间在看吧!

做工时,很多阿姨赞美了我的华文...想来想去:不可能呀!华语说的很差怎么可能好呢? 最后阿姨们说"小妹,你住新加坡几年?/你是新加坡人吗?/你是马来-华人吗?"
哈哈哈哈!阿姨呀!我是华人!
有的阿姨说我不象一个会讲华语的人,所以不跟我讲话...还有,中国人要问问题时都用英文来问我...又不是说他们会讲..所以我就用了华文, 他们才松了一口气"原来你会讲华语呀!"
我真的不象华人吗?真伤心. :'(

我还记得,第一次买床单是,因为很就没用华文讲话,什么都不记得了!
我把双人床单说成"两个单人床放在一起的那样大的床单..."
抱枕套变成"长的枕头套"哈哈!还用了手势来表明我的意思.
咳...真没脸见人.那天晚上一到家,我就马上用google translate来背一些跟床单有关的词汇!
从此以后,我可以炫耀我的华文了!
只是在开玩笑而已...我对着个语言学到模糊.
当然要把他学好才可以读他们weibo.我呀,每次都等别人的翻译!连朝鲜语都会读...至少朝鲜语可一明白百分之三十..大概明白意思..
真不要脸...幸亏我还能用华文跟别人交谈呀!不错不错..对我来说已经是'拍案叫绝'的地步了...每天在工作是必须要用华文跟阿姨们交谈...


如果你/您能忍受或明白我在上面所写垃圾,谢啦!
读到这里应该因为心想"这个女孩华文差到基点...还用这个语言,让我读到很生气!"
谢谢您忍耐了这篇博客文章.
希望没错字连篇吧!
再见!